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COLLECTION
OF
BRITISH AUTHORS
TAUCHNITZ EDITION.
VOL. 1811.
VIXEN BY M. E. BRADDON
IN THREE VOLUMES.
VOL. III.
VIXEN
A NOVEL
BY
M. E. BRADDON,
AUTHOR OF "LADY AUDLEY'S SECRET," ETC. ETC.
_COPYRIGHT EDITION_.
IN THREE VOLUMES.
VOL. III.
LEIPZIG
BERNHARD TAUCHNITZ
1879.
_The Right of Translation is reserved_.
CONTENTS
OF VOLUME III.
CHAPTER I. Going into Exile
CHAPTER II. Chiefly Financial
CHAPTER III. "With weary Days thou shalt be clothed and fed"
CHAPTER IV. Love and AEsthetics
CHAPTER V. Crumpled Rose-Leaves
CHAPTER VI. A Fool's Paradise
CHAPTER VII. "It might have been"
CHAPTER VIII. Wedding Bells
CHAPTER IX. The nearest Way to Norway
CHAPTER X. "All the Rivers run into the Sea"
CHAPTER XI. The Bluebeard Chamber
Epilogue
VIXEN.
CHAPTER I.
Going into Exile.
After a long sleepless night of tossing to and fro, Vixen rose with the
first stir of life in the old house, and made herself ready to face the
bleak hard world. Her meditations of the night had brought no new light
to her mind. It was very clear to her that she must go away--as far as
possible--from her old home. Her banishment was necessary for
everybody's sake. For the sake of Rorie, who must behave like a man of
honour, and keep his engagement with Lady Mabel, and shut his old
playfellow out of his heart. For the sake of Mrs. Winstanley, who could
never be happy while there was discord in her home; and last of all,
for Violet herself, who felt that joy and peace had fled from the Abbey
House for ever, and that it would be better to be anywhere, in the
coldest strangest region of this wide earth, verily friendless and
alone among strange faces, than here among friends who were but friends
in name, and among scenes that were haunted with the ghosts of dead
joys.
She went round the gardens and shrubberies in the early morning,
looking sadly at everything, as if she were bidding the trees and
flowers a long farewell. The rhododendron thickets were shining with
dew, the grassy tracks in that wilderness of verdure were wet and cold
under Vixen's feet. She wandered in and out among the groups of wild
growing shrubs, rising one above another to the height of forest trees,
and then she went out by the old five-barred gate which Titmouse used
to jump so merrily, and rambled in the plantation till the sun was
high, and the pines began to breathe forth their incense as the day-god
warmed them into life.
It was half-past eight. Nine was the hour for breakfast, a meal at
which, during the Squire's time, the fragile Pamela had rarely
appeared, but which, under the present _régime_, she generally graced
with her presence. Captain Winstanley was an early riser, and was not
sparing in his contempt for sluggish habits.
Vixen had made up her mind never again to sit at meat with her
stepfather; so she went straight to her own den, and told Phoebe to
bring her a cup of tea.
"I don't want anything else," she said wearily when the girl suggested
a more substantial breakfast; "I should like to see mamma presently. Do
you know if she has gone down?"
"No, miss. Mrs. Winstanley is not very well this morning. Pauline has
taken her up a cup of tea."
Vixen sat idly by the open window, sipping her tea, and caressing
Argus's big head with a listless hand, waiting for the next stroke of
fate. She was sorry for her mother, but had no wish to see her. What
could they say to each other--they, whose thoughts and feelings were so
wide apart? Presently Phoebe came in with a little three-cornered note,
written in pencil.
"Pauline asked me to give you this from your ma, miss."
The note was brief, written in short gasps, with dashes between them.
"I feel too crushed and ill to see you--I have told Conrad what you
wish--he is all goodness--he will tell you what we have decided--try to
be worthier of his kindness--poor misguided child--he will see you in
his study, directly after breakfast--pray control your unhappy temper."
"His study, indeed!" ejaculated Vixen, tearing up the little note and
scattering its perfumed fragments on the breeze; "my father's room,
which he has usurped. I think I hate him just a little worse in that
room than anywhere else--though that would seem hardly possible, when I
hate him so cordially everywhere."
She went to the looking-glass, and surveyed herself proudly as she
smoothed her shining hair, resolved that he should see no indication of
trouble or contrition in her face. She was very pale, but her tears of
last night had left no traces. There was a steadiness in her look that
befitted an encounter with an enemy. A message came from the Captain,
while she was standing before her glass, tying a crimson ribbon under
the collar of her white morning-dress.
Would she please to go to Captain Winstanley in the study? She went
without an instant's delay, walked quietly into the room, and stood
before him silently as he sat at his desk writing.
"Good-morning, Miss Tempest," he said, looking up at her with his
blandest air; "sit down, if you please. I want to have a chat with you."
Vixen seated herself in her father's large crimson morocco chair. She
was looking round the room absently, dreamily, quite disregarding the
Captain. The dear old room was full of sadly sweet associations. For
the moment she forgot the existence of her foe. His cold level tones
recalled her thoughts from the lamented past to the bitter present.
"Your mother informs me that you wish to leave the Abbey House," he
began; "and she has empowered me to arrange a suitable home for you
elsewhere. I entirely concur in your opinion that your absence from
Hampshire for the next year or so will be advantageous to yourself and
others. You and Mr. Vawdrey have contrived to get yourselves
unpleasantly talked about in the neighbourhood. Any further scandal may
possibly be prevented by your departure."
"It is not on that account I wish to leave home," said Vixen proudly.
"I am not afraid of scandal. If the people hereabouts are so wicked
that they cannot see me riding by the side of an old friend for two or
three days running without thinking evil of him and me, I am sorry for
them, but I certainly should not regulate my life to please them. The
reason I wish to leave the Abbey House is that I am miserable here, and
have been ever since you entered it as its master. We may as well deal
frankly with each other in this matter. You confessed last night that
you hated me. I acknowledge to-day that I have hated you ever since I
first saw you. It was an instinct."
"We need not discuss that," answered the Captain calmly. He had let
passion master him last night, but he had himself well in hand to-day.
She might be as provoking as she pleased, but she should not provoke
him to betray himself as he had done last night. He detested himself
for that weak outbreak of passion.
"Have you arranged with my mother for my leaving home?" inquired Vixen.
"Yes, it is all settled."
"Then I'll write at once to Miss McCroke. I know she will leave the
people she is with to travel with me."
"Miss McCroke has nothing to do with the question. You roaming about
the world with a superannuated governess would be too preposterous. I
am going to take you to Jersey by this evening's boat. I have an aunt
living there who has a fine old manor house, and who will be happy to
take charge of you. She is a maiden lady, a woman of superior
cultivation, who devotes herself wholly to intellectual pursuits. Her
refining influence will be valuable to you. The island is lovely, the
climate delicious. You could not be better off than you will be at Les
Tourelles."
"I am not going to Jersey, and I am not going to your intellectual
aunt," said Vixen resolutely.
"I beg your pardon, you are going, and immediately. Your mother and I
have settled the matter between us. You have expressed a wish to leave
home, and you will be pleased to go where we think proper. You had
better tell Phoebe to pack your trunks. We shall leave here at ten
o'clock in the evening. The boat starts from Southampton at midnight."
Vixen felt herself conquered. She had stated her wish, and it was
granted; not in the mode and manner she had desired; but perhaps she
ought to be grateful for release from a home that had become loathsome
to her, and not take objection to details in the scheme of her exile.
To go away, quite away, and immediately, was the grand point. To fly
before she saw Rorie again.
"Heaven knows how weak I might be if he were to talk to me again as he
talked last night!" she said to herself. "I might not be able to bear
it a second time. Oh Rorie, if you knew what it cost me to counsel you
wisely, to bid you do your duty; when the vision of a happy life with
you was smiling at me all the time, when the warm grasp of your dear
hand made my heart thrill with joy, what a heroine you would think me!
And yet nobody will ever give me credit for heroism; and I shall be
remembered only as a self-willed young woman, who was troublesome to
her relations, and had to be sent away from home."
She was thinking this while she sat in her father's chair, deliberating
upon the Captain's last speech. She decided presently to yield, and
obey her mother and stepfather. After all, what did it matter where she
went? That scheme of being happy in Sweden with Miss McCroke was but an
idle fancy. In the depths of her inner consciousness Violet Tempest
knew that she could be happy nowhere away from Rorie and the Forest.
What did it matter, then, whether she went to Jersey or Kamtchatka, the
sandy desert of Gobi or the Mountains of the Moon? In either case exile
meant moral death, the complete renunciation of all that had been sweet
and precious in her uneventful young life--the shadowy beech-groves;
the wandering streams; the heathery upland plains; the deep ferny
hollows, where the footsteps of humanity were almost unknown; the
cluster of tall trees on the hill tops, where the herons came sailing
home from their flight across Southampton Water; her childhood's
companion; her horse; her old servants. Banishment meant a long
farewell to all these.
"I suppose I may take my dog with me?" she asked, after a long pause,
during which she had wavered between submission and revolt, "and my
maid?"
"I see no objection to your taking your dog; though I doubt whether my
aunt will care to have a dog of that size prowling about her house. He
can have a kennel somewhere, I daresay. You must learn to do without a
maid. Feminine helplessness is going out of fashion; and one would
expect an Amazon like you to be independent of lady's-maids and
milliners."
"Why don't you state the case in plain English?" cried Vixen
scornfully. "If I took Phoebe with me she would cost money. There would
be her wages and maintenance to be provided. If I leave her behind, you
can dismiss her. You have a fancy for dismissing old servants."
"Had you not better see to the packing of your trunks?" asked Captain
Winstanley, ignoring this shaft.
"What is to become of my horse?"
"I think you must resign yourself to leave him to fate and me," replied
the Captain coolly; "my aunt may submit to the infliction of your dog,
but that she should tolerate a young lady's roaming about the island on
a thoroughbred horse would be rather too much to expect from her
old-fashioned notions of propriety."
"Besides, even Arion would cost something to keep," retorted Vixen,
"and strict economy is the rule of your life. If you sell him--and, of
course, you will do so--please let Lord Mallow have the refusal of him.
I think he would buy him and treat him kindly, for my sake."
"Wouldn't you rather Mr. Vawdrey had him?"
"Yes, if I were free to give him away; but I suppose you would deny my
right of property even in the horse my father gave me."
"Well, as the horse was not specified in your father's will, and as all
his horses and carriages were left to your mother, I think there cannot
be any doubt that Arion is my wife's property."
"Why not say your property? Why give unnatural prominence to a cipher?
Do you think I hold my poor mother to blame for any wrong that is done
to me, or to others, in this house? No, Captain Winstanley, I have no
resentment against my mother. She is a blameless nullity, dressed in
the latest fashion."
"Go and pack your boxes!" cried the Captain angrily. "Do you want to
raise the devil that was raised last night? Do you want another
conflagration? It might be a worse one this time. I have had a night of
fever and unrest."
"Am I to blame for that?'
"Yes--you beautiful fury. It was your image kept me awake. I shall
sleep sounder when you are out of this house."
"I shall be ready to start at ten o'clock," said Vixen, in a
business-like tone which curiously contrasted this sudden gust of
passion on the part of her foe, and humiliated him to the dust. He
loathed himself for having let her see her power to hurt him.
She left him, and went straight upstairs to her room, and gave Phoebe
directions about the packing of her portmanteaux, with no more outward
semblance of emotion than she might have shown had she been starting on
a round of pleasant visits under the happiest circumstances. The
faithful Phoebe began to cry when she heard that Miss Tempest was going
away for a long time, and that she was not to go with her; and poor
Vixen had to console her maid instead of brooding upon her own griefs.
"Never mind, Phoebe," she said; "it is as hard for me to lose you as it
is for you to lose me. I shall never forget what a devoted little thing
you have been, and all the muddy habits you have brushed without a
murmur. A few years hence I shall be my own mistress, and have plenty
of money, and then, wherever I may be, you shall come to me. If you are
married you shall be my housekeeper, and your husband shall be my
butler, and your children shall run wild about the place, and be made
as much of as the litter of young foxes Bates reared in a corner of the
stable-yard, when Mr. Vawdrey was at Eton."
"Oh, miss, I don't want no husband nor no children, I only want you for
my missus. And when you come of age, will you live here, miss?"
"No, Phoebe. The Abbey House will belong to mamma all her life. Poor
mamma! may it be long before the dear old house comes to me. But when I
am of age, and my own mistress I shall find a place somewhere in the
Forest, you may be sure of that, Phoebe."
Phoebe dried her honest tears, and made haste with the packing,
believing that Miss Tempest was leaving home for her own pleasure, and
that she, Phoebe, was the only victim of adverse fate.
The day wore on quickly, though it was laden with sorrow. Vixen had a
great deal to do in her den; papers to look over, old letters,
pen-and-ink sketches, and scribblings of all kinds to destroy, books
and photographs to pack. There were certain things she could not leave
behind her. Then there was a melancholy hour to spend in the stable,
feeding, caressing, and weeping over Arion, who snorted his tenderest
snorts, and licked her hands with abject devotion--almost as if he knew
they were going to part, Vixen thought.
Last of all came the parting with her mother. Vixen had postponed this
with an aching dread of a scene, in which she might perchance lose her
temper, and be betrayed into bitter utterances that she would
afterwards repent with useless tears. She had spoken the truth to her
stepfather when she told him that she held her mother blameless; yet
the fact that she had but the smallest share in that mother's heart was
cruelly patent to her.
It was nearly four o'clock in the afternoon when Pauline came to
Violet's room with a message from Mrs. Winstanley. She had been very
ill all the morning, Pauline informed Miss Tempest, suffering severely
from nervous headache, and obliged to lie in a darkened room. Even now
she was barely equal to seeing anyone.
"Then she had better not see me," said Vixen icily; "I can write her a
little note to say good-bye. Perhaps it would be just as well. Tell
mamma that I will write, Pauline."
Pauline departed with this message, and returned in five minutes with a
distressed visage.
"Oh, miss!" she exclaimed, "your message quite upset your poor mamma.
She said, 'How could she?' and began to get almost hysterical. And
those hysterical fits end in such fearful headaches."
"I will come at once," said Vixen.
Mrs. Winstanley was lying on a sofa near an open window, the Spanish
blinds lowered to exclude the afternoon sunshine, the perfume of the
gardens floating in upon the soft summer air. A tiny teapot and cup and
saucer on a Japanese tray showed that the invalid had been luxuriating
in her favourite stimulant. There were vases of flowers about the room,
and an all-pervading perfume and coolness--a charm half sensuous, half
aesthetic.
"Violet, how could you send me such a message?" remonstrated the
invalid fretfully.
"Dear mamma, I did not want to trouble you. I know how you shrink from
all painful things; and you and I could hardly part without pain, as we
are parting to-day. Would it not have been better to avoid any
farewell?"
"If you had any natural affection, you would never have suggested such
a thing."
"Then perhaps I have never had any natural affection," answered Vixen,
with subdued bitterness; "or only so small a stock that it ran out
early in my life, and left me cold and hard and unloving. I am sorry we
are parting like this, mamma. I am still more sorry that you could not
spare me a little of the regard which you have bestowed so lavishly
upon a stranger."
"Violet, how can you?" sobbed her mother. "To accuse me of withholding
my affection from you, when I have taken such pains with you from your
very cradle! I am sure your frocks, from the day you were short-coated,
were my constant care; and when you grew a big, lanky girl, who would
have looked odious in commonplace clothes, it was my delight to invent
picturesque and becoming costumes for you. I have spent hours poring
over books of prints, studying Vandyke and Sir Peter Lely, and I have
let you wear some of my most valuable lace; and as for indulgence of
your whims! Pray when have I ever thwarted you in anything?"
"Forgive me, mamma!" cried Vixen penitently. She divined dimly--even in
the midst of that flood of bitter feeling in which her young soul was
overwhelmed--that Mrs. Winstanley had been a good mother, according to
her lights. The tree had borne such fruit as was natural to its kind.
"Pray forgive me! You have been good and kind and indulgent, and we
should have gone on happily together to the end of the chapter, if fate
had been kinder."
"It's no use your talking of fate in that way, Violet," retorted her
mother captiously. "I know you mean Conrad."
"Perhaps I do, mamma; but don't let us talk of him any more. We should
never agree about him. You and he can be quite happy when I am gone.
Poor, dear, trusting, innocent-minded mamma!" cried Vixen, kneeling by
her mother's chair, and putting her arms round her ever so tenderly.
"May your path of life be smooth and strewn with flowers when I am
gone. If Captain Winstanley does not always treat you kindly, he will
be a greater scoundrel than I think him. But he has always been kind to
you, has he not, mamma? You are not hiding any sorrow of yours from
me?' asked Vixen, fixing her great brown eyes on her mother's face with
earnest inquiry. She had assumed the maternal part. She seemed an
anxious mother questioning her daughter.
"Kind to me," echoed Mrs. Winstanley. "He has been all goodness. We
have never had a difference of opinion since we were married."
"No, mamma, because you always defer to his opinion."
"Is not that my duty, when I know how clever and far-seeing he is?"
"Frankly, dear mother, are you as happy with this new husband of
yours--so wise and far-seeing, and determined to have his own way in
everything--as you were with my dear, indulgent, easy-tempered father?"
Pamela Winstanley burst into a passion of tears.
"How can you be so cruel?" she exclaimed. "Who can give back the past,
or the freshness and brightness of one's youth? Of course I was happier
with your dear father than I can ever be again. It is not in nature
that it should be otherwise. How could you be so heartless as to ask me
such a question?"
She dried her tears slowly, and was not easily comforted. It seemed as
if that speech of Violet's had touched a spring that opened a fountain
of grief.
"This means that mamma is not happy with her second husband, in spite
of her praises of him," thought Vixen.
She remained kneeling by her mother's side comforting her as best she
could, until Mrs. Winstanley had recovered from the wound her
daughter's heedless words had inflicted, and then Violet began to say
good-bye.
"You will write to me sometimes, won't you, mamma, and tell me how the
dear old place is going on, and about the old people who die--dear
familiar white heads that I shall never see again--and the young people
who get married, and the babies that are born? You will write often,
won't you, mamma?"
"Yes, dear, as often as my strength will allow."
"You might even get Pauline to write to me sometimes, to tell me how
you are and what you are doing; that would be better than nothing."
"Pauline shall write when I am not equal to holding a pen," sighed Mrs.
Winstanley.
"And, dear mamma, if you can prevent it, don't let any more of the old
servants be sent away. If they drop off one by one home will seem like
a strange place at last. Remember how they loved my dear father, how
attached and faithful they have been to us. They are like our own flesh
and blood."
"I should never willingly part with servants who know my ways, Violet.
But as to Bates's dismissal--there are some things I had rather not
discuss with you--I am sure that Conrad acted for the best, and from
the highest motives."
"Do you know anything about this place to which I am going, mamma?"
asked Vixen, letting her mother's last speech pass without comment; "or
the lady who is to be my duenna?"
"Your future has been fully discussed between Conrad and me, Violet. He
tells me that the old Jersey manor house--Les Tourelles it is
called--is a delightful place, one of the oldest seats in Jersey, and
Miss Skipwith, to whom it belongs, is a well-informed conscientious old
lady, very religious, I believe, so you will have to guard against your
sad habit of speaking lightly about sacred things, my dear Violet."
"Do you intend me to live there for ever, mamma?"
"For ever! What a foolish question. In six years you will be of age,
and your own mistress."
"Six years--six years in a Jersey manor house--with a pious old lady.
Don't you think that would seem very much like for ever, mamma?" asked
Vixen gravely.
"My dear Violet, neither Conrad nor I want to banish you from your
natural home. We only want you to learn wisdom. When Mr. Vawdrey is
married, and when you have learnt to think more kindly of my dear
husband----"
"That last change will never happen to me, mamma. I should have to die
and be born again first, and, even then, I think my dislike of Captain
Winstanley is so strong that purgatorial fires would hardly burn it
out. No, mamma, we had better say good-bye without any forecast of the
future. Let us forget all that is sad in our parting, and think we are
only going to part for a little while."
Many a time in after days did Violet Tempest remember those last
serious words of hers. The rest of her conversation with her mother was
about trifles, the trunks and bonnet-boxes she was to carry with
her--the dresses she was to wear in her exile.
"Of course in a retired old house in Jersey, with an elderly maiden
lady, you will not see much society," said Mrs. Winstanley; "but Miss
Skipwith must know people--no doubt the best people in the island--and
I should not like you to be shabby. Are you really positive that you
have dresses enough to carry you over next winter?"
This last question was asked with deepest solemnity.
"More than enough, mamma."
"And do you think your last winter's jacket will do?"
"Excellently."
"I'm very glad of that," said her mother, with a sigh of relief, "for I
have an awful bill of Theodore's hanging over my head. I have been
paying her sums on account ever since your poor papa's death; and you
know that is never quite satisfactory. All that one has paid hardly
seems to make any difference in the amount due at the end."
"Don't worry yourself about your bill, mamma. Let it stand over till I
come of age, and then I can help you to pay it."
"You are very generous, dear; but Theodore would not wait so long, even
for me. Be sure you take plenty of wraps for the steamer. Summer nights
are often chilly."
Vixen thought of last night, and the long straight ride through the
pine wood, the soft scented air, the young moon shining down at her,
and Rorie by her side. Ah, when should she ever know such a summer
night as that again?
"Sit down in this low chair by me, and have a cup of tea, dear," said
Mrs. Winstanley, growing more affectionate as the hour of parting drew
nearer. "Let us have kettledrum together for the last time, till you
come back to us."
"For the last time, mamma!" echoed Violet sadly.
She could not imagine any possible phase of circumstances that would
favour her return. Could she come back to see Roderick Vawdrey happy
with his wife? Assuredly not. Could she school herself to endure life
under the roof that sheltered Conrad Winstanley? A thousand times no.
Coming home was something to be dreamt about when she lay asleep in a
distant land; but it was a dream that never could be realised. She must
make herself a new life, somehow, among new people. The old life died
to-day.
She sat and sipped her tea, and listened while her mother talked
cheerfully of the future, and even pretended to agree; but her heart
was heavy as lead.
An hour was dawdled away thus, and then, when Mrs. Winstanley began to
think about dressing for dinner, Vixen went off to finish her packing.
She excused herself from going down to dinner on the plea or having so
much to do.
"You could send me up something, please, mamma," she said. "I am sure
you and Captain Winstanley will dine more pleasantly without me. I
shall see you for a minute in the hall, before I start."
"You must do as you please, dear," replied her mother. "I hardly feel
equal to going down to dinner myself; but it would not be fair to let
Conrad eat a second meal in solitude, especially when we are to be
parted for two or three days and he is going across the sea. I shall
not have a minute's rest to-night, thinking of you both."
"Sleep happily, dear mother, and leave us to Providence. The voyage
cannot be perilous in such weather as this," said Vixen, with assumed
cheerfulness.
Two hours later the carriage was at the door, and Violet Tempest was
ready to start. Her trunks were on the roof of the brougham, her
dressing-bag, and travelling-desk, and wraps were stowed away inside;
Argus was by her side, his collar provided with a leather strap, by
which she could hold him when necessary. Captain Winstanley was smoking
a cigar on the porch.
Mrs. Winstanley came weeping out of the drawing-room, and hugged her
daughter silently. Violet returned the embrace, but said not a word
till just at the last.
"Dear mother," she whispered earnestly, "never be unhappy about me. Let
me bear the blame of all that has gone amiss between us."
"You had better be quick, Miss Tempest, if you want to be in time for
the boat," said the Captain from the porch.
"I am quite ready," answered Vixen calmly.
Phoebe was at the carriage-door, tearful, and in everybody's way, but
pretending to help. Argus was sent up to the box, where he sat beside
the coachman with much gravity of demeanour, having first assured
himself that his mistress was inside the carriage. Mrs. Winstanley
stood in the porch, kissing her hand; and so the strong big horses bore
the carriage away, through the dark shrubberies, between banks of
shadowy foliage, out into the forest-road, which was full of ghosts at
this late hour, and would have struck terror to the hearts of any
horses unaccustomed to its sylvan mysteries.
They drove through Lyndhurst, where the twinkling little lights in the
shop-windows were being extinguished by envious shutters, and where the
shop-keepers paused in their work of extinction to stare amazedly at
the passing carriage; not that a carriage was a strange apparition in
Lyndhurst, but because the inhabitants had so little to do except stare.
Anon they came to Bolton's Bench, beneath a cluster of pine-trees on a
hilly bit of common, and then the long straight road to Southampton lay
before them in the faint moonshine, with boggy levels, black
furze-bushes, and a background of wood on either side. Violet sat
looking steadily out of the window, watching every bit of the road. How
could she tell when she would see it again--or if ever, save in sad
regretful dreams?
They mounted the hill, from whose crest Vixen took one last backwards
look at the wide wild land that lay behind them--a look of ineffable
love and longing. And then she threw herself back in the carriage, and
gave herself up to gloomy thought. There was nothing more that she
cared to see. They had entered the tame dull world of civilisation.
They drove through the village of Eling, where lights burned dimly here
and there in upper windows; they crossed the slow meandering river at
Redbridge. Already the low line of lights in Southampton city began to
shine faintly in the distance. Violet shut her eyes and let the
landscape go by. Suburban villas, suburban gardens on a straight road
beside a broad river with very little water in it. There was nothing
here to regret.
It was past eleven when they drove under the old bar, and through the
high street of Southampton. The town seemed strange to Vixen at this
unusual hour. The church clocks were striking the quarter. Down by the
docks everything had a gray and misty look, sky and water
indistinguishable. There lay the Jersey boat, snorting and puffing,
amidst the dim grayness. Captain Winstanley conducted his charge to the
ladies' cabin, with no more words than were positively necessary. They
had not spoken once during the drive from the Abbey House to
Southampton.
"I think you had better stay down here till the vessel has started, at
any rate," said the Captain, "there will be so much bustle and
confusion on deck. I'll take care of your dog."
"Thanks," answered Vixen meekly. "Yes, I'll stay here--you need not
trouble yourself about me."
"Shall I send you something? A cup of tea, the wing of a chicken, a
little wine and water?"
"No, thanks, I don't care about anything."
The Captain withdrew after this to look after the luggage, and to
secure his own berth. The stewardess received Violet as if she had
known her all her life, showed her the couch allotted to her, and to
secure which the Captain had telegraphed that morning from Lyndhurst.
"It was lucky your good gentleman took the precaution to telegraph,
mum," said the cordial stewardess; "the boats are always crowded at
this time of the year, and the _Fanny_ is such a favourite."
The cabin was wide and lofty and airy, quite an exceptional thing in
ladies' cabins; but presently there came a troop of stout matrons with
their olive-branches, all cross and sleepy, and dazed at finding
themselves in a strange place at an unearthly hour. There was the usual
sprinkling of babies, and most of the babies cried. One baby was
afflicted with unmistakable whooping cough, and was a source of terror
to the mothers of all the other babies. There was a general opening of
hand-bags and distribution of buns, biscuits, and sweeties for the
comfort and solace of this small fry. Milk was imbibed noisily out of
mysterious bottles, some of them provided with gutta-percha tubes,
which made the process of refreshment look like laying on gas. Vixen
turned her back upon the turmoil, and listened to the sad sea waves
plashing lazily against the side of the boat.
She wondered what Rorie was doing at this midnight hour? Did he know
yet that she was gone--vanished out of his life for ever? No; he could
hardly have heard of her departure yet awhile, swiftly as all tidings
travelled in that rustic world of the Forest. Had he made up his mind
to keep faith with Lady Mabel? Had he forgiven Vixen for refusing to
abet him in treachery against his affianced?
"Poor Rorie," sighed the girl; "I think we might have been happy
together."
And then she remembered the days of old, when Mr. Vawdrey was free, and
when it had never dawned upon his slow intelligence that his old
playfellow, Violet Tempest, was the one woman in all this wide world
who had the power to make his life happy.
"I think he thought lightly of me because of all our foolishness when
he was a boy," mused Vixen. "I seemed to him less than other
women--because of those old sweet memories--instead of more."
It was a dreary voyage for Violet Tempest--a kind of maritime
purgatory. The monotonous thud of the engine, the tramping of feet
overhead, the creaking and groaning of the vessel, the squalling
babies, the fussy mothers, the dreadful people who could not travel
from Southampton to Jersey on a calm summer night without exhibiting
all the horrors of seasickness. Vixen thought of the sufferings of poor
black human creatures in the middle passage, of the ghastly terrors of
a mutiny, of a ship on fire, of the Ancient Mariner on his slimy sea,
when
The very deep did rot; O Christ,
That ever this should be;
Yea, slimy things did crawl with legs
Upon the slimy sea!
She wondered in her weary soul whether these horrors, which literature
had made familiar to her, were much worse than the smart white and gold
cabin of the good ship _Fanny_, filled to overflowing with the contents
of half-a-dozen nurseries.
Towards daybreak there came a lull. The crossest of the babies had
exhausted its capacity for making its fellow-creatures miserable. The
sea-sick mothers and nurses had left off groaning, and starting
convulsively from their pillows, with wild shrieks for the stewardess,
and had sunk into troubled slumbers. Vixen turned her back upon the
dreadful scene--dimly lighted by flickering oil-lamps, like those that
burn before saintly shrines in an old French cathedral--and shut her
eyes and tried to lose herself in the tangled wilderness of sleep. But
to-night that blessed refuge of the unhappy was closed against her. The
calm angel of sleep would have nothing to do with a soul so troubled.
She could only lie staring at the port-hole, which stared back at her
like a giant's dark angry eye, and waiting for morning.
Morning came at last, with the skirmishing toilets of the children,
fearful struggles for brushes and combs, towel fights, perpetual
clamour for missing pieces of soap, a great deal of talk about strings
and buttons, and a chorus of crying babies. Then stole through the
stuffy atmosphere savoury odours of breakfast, the fumes of coffee,
fried bacon, grilled fish. Sloppy looking cups of tea were administered
to the sufferers of last night. The yellow sunshine filled the cabin.
Vixen made a hasty toilet, and hurried up to the deck. Here all was
glorious. A vast world of sunlit water. No sign yet of rock-bound
island above the white-crested waves. The steamer might have been in
the midst of the Atlantic. Captain Winstanley was on the bridge,
smoking his morning cigar. He gave Violet a cool nod, which she
returned as coolly. She found a quiet corner where she could sit and
watch the waves slowly rising and falling, the white foam-crests slowly
gathering, the light spray dashing against the side of the boat, the
cataract of white roaring water leaping from the swift paddle-wheel and
melting into a long track of foam. By-and-by they came to Guernsey,
which looked grim and military, and not particularly inviting, even in
the morning sunlight. That picturesque island hides her beauties from
those who only behold her from the sea. Here there was an exodus of
passengers, and of luggage, and an invasion of natives with baskets of
fruit. Vixen bought some grapes and peaches of a female native in a
cap, whose patois was the funniest perversion of French and English
imaginable. And then a bell rang clamorously, and there was a general
stampede, and the gangway was pulled up and the vessel was steaming
gaily towards Jersey; while Vixen sat eating grapes and looking
dreamily skyward, and wondering whether her mother was sleeping
peacefully under the dear old Abbey House roof, undisturbed by any pang
of remorse for having parted with an only child so lightly.
An hour or so and Jersey was in sight, all rocky peaks and
promontories. Anon the steamer swept round a sudden curve, and lo,
Vixen beheld a bristling range of fortifications, a rather untidy
harbour, and the usual accompaniments of a landing-place, the midsummer
sun shining vividly upon the all pervading whiteness.
"Is this the bay that some people have compared to Naples?" Violet
asked her conductor, with a contemptuous curl of her mobile lip, as she
and Captain Winstanley took their seats in a roomy old fly, upon which
the luggage was being piled in the usual mountainous and
insecure-looking style.
"You have not seen it yet from the Neapolitan point of view," said the
Captain. "This quay is not the prettiest bit of Jersey."
"I am glad of that, very glad," answered Vixen acidly; "for if it were,
the Jersey notion of the beautiful would be my idea of ugliness. Oh
what an utterly too horrid street!" she cried, as the fly drove through
the squalid approach to the town, past dirty gutter-bred children, and
women with babies, who looked to the last degree Irish, and the dead
high wall of the fortifications. "Does your aunt live hereabouts, _par
exemple_, Captain Winstanley?"
"My aunt lives six good miles from here, Miss Tempest, in one of the
loveliest spots in the island, amidst scenery that is almost as fine as
the Pyrenees."
"I have heard people say that of anything respectable in the shape of a
hill," answered Vixen, with a dubious air.
She was in a humour to take objection to everything, and had a flippant
air curiously at variance with the dull aching of her heart. She was
determined to take the situation lightly. Not for worlds would she have
let Captain Winstanley see her wounds, or guess how deep they were. She
set her face steadily towards the hills in which her place of exile was
hidden, and bore herself bravely. Conrad Winstanley gave her many a
furtive glance as he sat opposite her in the fly, while they drove
slowly up the steep green country lanes, leaving the white town in the
valley below them.
"The place is not so bad, after all," said Vixen, looking back at the
conglomeration of white walls and slate roofs, of docks and shipping,
and barracks, on the edge of a world of blue water, "not nearly so
odious as it looked when we landed. But it is a little disappointing at
best, like all places that people praise ridiculously. I had pictured
Jersey as a tropical island, with cactuses and Cape jasmine growing in
the hedges, orchards of peaches and apricots, and melons running wild."
"To my mind the island is a pocket edition of Devonshire with a dash of
Brittany," answered the Captain. "There's a fig-tree for you!" he
cried, pointing to a great spreading mass of five-fingered leaves
lolloping over a pink plastered garden-wall--an old untidy tree that
had swallowed up the whole extent of a cottager's garden. "You don't
see anything like that in the Forest."
"No," answered Vixen, tightening her lips; "we have only oaks and
beeches that have been growing since the Heptarchy."
And now they entered a long lane, where the interlaced tree-tops made
an arcade of foliage--a lane whose beauty even Vixen could not gainsay.
Ah, there were the Hampshire ferns on the steep green banks! She gave a
little choking sob at sight of them, as if they had been living things.
Hart's-tongue, and lady-fern, and the whole family of osmundas. Yes;
they were all there. It was like home--with a difference.
Here and there they passed a modern villa, in its park-like grounds,
and the Captain, who evidently wished to be pleasant, tried to expound
to Violet the conditions of Jersey leases, and the difficulties which
attend the purchase of land or tenements in that feudal settlement. But
Vixen did not even endeavour to understand him. She listened with an
air of polite vacancy which was not encouraging.
They passed various humbler homesteads, painted a lively pink, or a
refreshing lavender, with gardens where the fuchsias were trees covered
with crimson bloom, and where gigantic hydrangeas bloomed in palest
pink and brightest azure in wildest abundance. Here Vixen beheld for
the first time those preposterous cabbages from whose hyper-natural
growth the islanders seem to derive a loftier pride than from any other
productions of the island, not excepting its grapes and its lobsters.
"I don't suppose you ever saw cabbages growing six feet high before,"
said the Captain.
"No," answered Vixen; "they are too preposterous to be met with in a
civilised country. Poor Charles the Second! I don't wonder that he was
wild and riotous when he came to be king."
"Why not?"
"Because he had spent several months of exile among his loyal subjects
in Jersey. A man who had been buried alive in such a fragmentary bit of
the world must have required some compensation in after life."
They had mounted a long hill which seemed the pinnacle of the island,
and from whose fertile summit the view was full of beauty--a green
undulating garden-world, ringed with yellow sands and bright blue sea;
and now they began to descend gently by a winding lane where again the
topmost elm-branches were interwoven, and where the glowing June day
was softened to a tender twilight. A curve in the lane brought them
suddenly to an old gateway, with a crumbling stone bench in a nook
beside it--a bench where the wayfarer used to sit and wait for alms,
when the site of Les Tourelles was occupied by a monastery.
The old manor house rose up behind the dilapidated wall--a goodly old
house as to size and form--overlooking a noble sweep of hillside and
valley; a house with a gallery on the roof for purposes of observation,
but with as dreary and abandoned a look about its blank curtainless
windows as if mansion and estate had been in Chancery for the last
half-century.
"A fine old place, is it not?" asked the Captain, while a cracked bell
was jingling in remote distance, amidst the drowsy summer stillness,
without eliciting so much as the bark of a house-dog.
"It looks very big," Violet answered dubiously, "and very empty."
"My aunt has no relatives residing with her."
"If she had started in life with a large family of brothers and
sisters, I should think they would all be dead by this time," said the
girl, with a stifled yawn that was half a sigh.
"How do you mean?"
"They would have died of the stillness and solitude and all-pervading
desolation of Les Tourelles."
"Strange houses are apt to look desolate."
"Yes. Particularly when the windows have neither blinds nor curtains,
and the walls have not been painted for a century."
After this conversation flagged. The jingling bell was once more set
going in the unknown distance; Vixen sat looking sleepily at the arched
roof of foliage chequered with blue sky. Argus lolled against the
carriage-door with his tongue out.
They waited five minutes or so, languidly expectant. Vixen began to
wonder whether the gates would ever open--whether there were really any
living human creatures in that blank dead-looking house--whether they
would not have to give up all idea of entering, and drive back to the
harbour, and return to Hampshire by the way they had come.
While she sat idly wondering thus, with the sleepy buzz of summer
insects and melodious twittering of birds soothing her senses like a
lullaby, the old gate groaned upon its rusty hinges, and a middle-aged
woman in a black gown and a white cap appeared--a female who recognised
Captain Winstanley with a curtsey, and came out to receive the smaller
packages from the flyman.
"Antony will take the portmanteaux," she said; "the boat must have come
in earlier than usual. We did not expect you so soon."
"This is one of Miss Skipwith's servants," thought Vixen; "rather a
vinegary personage. I hope the other maids are nicer."
The person spoken of as Antony now appeared, and began to hale about
Violet's portmanteaux. He was a middle-aged man, with a bald head and a
melancholy aspect. His raiment was shabby; his costume something
between that of a lawyer's clerk and an agricultural labourer. Argus
saluted this individual with a suppressed growl.
"Sh!" cried the female vindictively, flapping her apron at the dog,
"whose dog is this, sir? He doesn't belong to you, surely?"
"He belongs to Miss Tempest. You must find a corner for him somewhere
in the outbuildings, Hannah," said the Captain. "The dog is harmless
enough, and friendly enough when he is used to people."
"That won't be much good if he bites us before he gets used to us, and
we die of hydrophobia in the meantime," retorted Hannah; "I believe he
has taken a dislike to Antony already."
"Argus won't bite anyone," said Vixen, laying her hand upon the dog's
collar, "I'll answer for his good conduct. Please try and find him a
nice snug nest somewhere--if I mustn't have him in the house."
"In the house!" cried Hannah. "Miss Skipwith would faint at the mention
of such a thing. I don't know how she'll ever put up with a huge beast
like that anywhere about the place. He must be kept as much out of her
sight as possible."
"I'm sorry Argus isn't welcome," said Vixen proudly.
She was thinking that her own welcome at Les Tourelles could hardly be
more cordial than that accorded to Argus. She had left home because
nobody wanted her there. How could she expect that anyone wanted her
here, where she was a stranger, preceded, perhaps, by the reputation of
her vices? The woman in the rusty mourning-gown, the man in the shabby
raiment and clod-hopper boots, gave her no smile of greeting. Over this
new home of hers there hung an unspeakable melancholy. Her heart sank
as she crossed the threshold.
Oh, what a neglected, poverty-stricken air the garden had, after the
gardens Violet Tempest had been accustomed to look upon! Ragged trees,
rank grass, empty flower-beds, weeds in abundance. A narrow paved
colonnade ran along one side of the house. They went by this paved way
to a dingy little door--not the hall-door, that was never opened--and
entered the house by a lobby, which opened into a small parlour, dark
and shabby, with one window looking into a court-yard. There were a
good many books upon the green baize table-cover; pious books mostly,
Vixen saw, with a strange revulsion of feeling; as if that were the
culmination of her misery. There was an old-fashioned work-table, with
a faded red silk well, beside the open window. A spectacle-case on the
work-table, and an armchair before it, indicated that the room had been
lately occupied. It was altogether one of the shabbiest rooms Vixen had
ever seen--the furniture belonging to the most odious period of
cabinet-making, the carpet unutterably dingy, the walls mildewed and
mouldy, the sole decorations some pale engravings of naval battles,
which might be the victories or defeats of any maritime hero, from
Drake to Nelson.
"Come and see the house," said the Captain, reading the disgust in his
stepdaughter's pale face.
He opened a door leading into the hall, a large and lofty apartment,
with a fine old staircase ascending to a square gallery. The heavy oak
balusters had been painted white, so had the panelling in the hall.
Time had converted both to a dusky gray. Some rusty odds and ends of
armour, and a few dingy family portraits decorated the walls; but of
furniture there was not a vestige.
Opening out of the hall there was a large long room with four windows
looking into a small wilderness that had once been a garden, and
commanding a fine view of land and sea. This the Captain called the
drawing-room. It was sparsely furnished with a spindle-legged table,
half-a-dozen armchairs covered with faded tapestry, an antique
walnut-wood cabinet, another of ebony, a small oasis of carpet in the
middle of the bare oak floor.
"This and the parlour you have seen are all the sitting-rooms my aunt
occupies," said Captain Winstanley; "the rest of the rooms on this
floor are empty, or only used for storehouses. It is a fine old house.
I believe the finest in the island."
"Is there a history hanging to it?" asked Vixen, looking drearily round
the spacious desolate chamber. "Has it been used as a prison, or a
madhouse, or what? I never saw a house that filled me with such
nameless horrors."
"You are fanciful," said the Captain. "The house has no story except
the common history of fallen fortunes. It has been in the Skipwith
family ever since it was built. They were Leicestershire people, and
came to Jersey after the civil war--came here to be near their prince
in his exile--settled here and built Les Tourelles. I believe they
expected Charles would do something handsome for them when he came into
his own, but he didn't do anything. Sir John Skipwith stayed in the
island and became a large landowner, and died at an advanced age--there
is nothing to kill people here, you see--and the Skipwiths have been
Jersey people ever since. They were once the richest family in the
island. They are now one of the poorest. When I say they, I mean my
aunt. She is the last of her race. The Skipwiths have crystallised into
one maiden lady, my mother's only sister."
"Then your mother was a Skipwith?" asked Violet.
"Yes."
"And she was born and brought up here?"
"Yes. She never left Jersey till my father married her. He was here
with his regiment when they met at the governor's ball. Oh, here is my
aunt," said the Captain, as a rustling of silk sounded in the empty
hall.
Vixen drew herself up stiffly, as if preparing to meet a foe. She had
made up her mind to detest Miss Skipwith.
The lady of the manor entered. She shook hands with her nephew, and
presented him with a pale and shrivelled cheek, which he respectfully
saluted.
She was an elderly and faded person, very tall and painfully thin, but
aristocratic to the highest degree. There was the indication of race in
her aquiline nose, high narrow brow and neatly cut chin, her tapering
hand and small slender foot. She was dressed in black silk, rustier and
older than any silk Vixen had ever seen before: not even excepting Mrs.
Scobel's black silk dresses, when they had been degraded from their
original rank to the scrubbery of early services and daily wear. Her
thin gray hair was shaded by a black lace cap, decorated with bugles
and black weedy grasses. She wore black mittens, and jet jewellery, and
was altogether as deeply sable as if she had been in mourning for the
whole of the Skipwith race.
She received Miss Tempest with a formal politeness which was not
encouraging.
"I hope you will be able to make yourself happy here," she said; "and
that you have resources within yourself that will suffice for the
employment of your time and thoughts. I receive no company, and I never
go out. The class of people who now occupy the island are a class with
which I should not care to associate, and which, I daresay, would not
appreciate me. I have my own resources, and my life is fully employed.
My only complaint is that the days are not long enough. A quiet
existence like mine offers vast opportunities for culture and
self-improvement. I hope you will take advantage of them, Miss Tempest."
Poor Violet faltered something vaguely civil, looking sorely bewildered
all the time. Miss Skipwith's speech sounded so like the address of a
schoolmistress that Vixen began to think she had been trapped unawares
in a school, as people are sometimes trapped in a madhouse.
"I don't think Miss Tempest is given much to study," said the Captain
graciously, as if he and Violet were on the friendliest terms; "but she
is very fond of the country, and I am sure the scenery of Jersey will
delight her. By-the-way, we ventured to bring her big dog. He will be a
companion and protector for her in her walks. I have asked Doddery to
find him a kennel somewhere among your capacious outbuildings."
"He must not come into the house," said Miss Skipwith grimly; "I
couldn't have a dog inside my doors. I have a Persian that has been my
attached companion for the last ten years. What would that dear
creature's feelings be if he saw himself exposed to the attacks of a
savage dog?"
"My dog is not savage, to Persians or anyone else," cried Vixen,
wondering what inauspicious star had led the footsteps of an oriental
wanderer to so dreary a refuge as Les Tourelles.
"You would like to see your bedroom, perhaps?" suggested Miss Skipwith,
and on Violet's assenting, she was handed over to Hannah Doddery, the
woman who had opened the gate.
Hannah led the way up the broad old staircase, all bare and carpetless,
and opened one of the doors in the gallery. The room into which she
ushered Violet was large and airy, with windows commanding the fair
garden-like island, and the wide blue sea. But there was the same bare,
poverty-stricken look in this room as in every other part of the manor
house. The bed was a tall melancholy four-poster, with scantiest
draperies of faded drab damask. Save for one little islet of threadbare
Brussels beside the bed, the room was carpetless. There was an ancient
wainscot wardrobe with brass handles. There was a modern deal
dressing-table skimpily draped with muslin, and surmounted by the
smallest of looking-glasses. There were a couple of chairs and a
three-cornered washhand-stand. There was neither sofa nor
writing-table. There was not an ornament on the high wooden
mantelshelf, or a picture on the panelled walls. Vixen shivered as she
surveyed the big barren room.
"I think you will find everything comfortable," said Mrs. Doddery, with
a formal air, which seemed to say, "and whether you do or do not
matters nothing to me."
"Thank you, yes, I daresay it is all right," Vixen answered absently,
standing at one of the windows, gazing out over the green hills and
valleys to the fair summer sea, and wondering whether she would be able
to take comfort from the fertile beauty of the island.
"The bed has been well aired," continued Mrs. Doddery, "and I can
answer for the cleanliness of everything."
"Thanks! Will you kindly send one of the maids to help me unpack my
portmanteau?"
"I can assist you," Mrs. Doddery answered. "We have no maid-servant. My
husband and I are able to do all that Miss Skipwith requires. She is a
lady who gives so little trouble."
"Do you mean to say there are no other servants in this great house--no
housemaids, no cooks?"
"I have cooked for Miss Skipwith for the last thirty years. The house
is large, but there are very few rooms in occupation."
"I ought to have brought my maid," cried Vixen. "It will be quite
dreadful. I don't want much waiting upon; but still, I'm afraid I shall
give some trouble until I learn to do everything for myself. Just as if
I were cast on a desert island," she said to herself in conclusion; and
then she thought of Helen Rolleston, the petted beauty in Charles
Reade's "Foul Play," cast with her faithful lover on an unknown island
of the fair southern sea. But in this island of Jersey there was no
faithful lover to give romance and interest to the situation. There was
nothing but dull dreary reality.
"I daresay I shall be able to do all you require, without feeling it
any extra trouble, unless you are very helpless," said Mrs. Doddery,
who was on her knees unstrapping one of the portmanteaux.
"I am not helpless," replied Vixen, "though I daresay I have been
waited on much more than was good for me."
And then she knelt down before the other portmanteau, and undid the
buckles of the thick leather straps, in which operation she broke more
than one of her nails, and wounded her rosy finger-tips.
"Oh dear, what a useless creature I am," she thought; "and why do
people strap portmanteaux so tightly? Never mind, after a month's
residence at Les Tourelles I shall be a Spartan."
"Would you like me to unpack your trunks for you?" inquired Mrs.
Doddery, with an accent which sounded slightly ironical.
"Oh no, thanks, I can get on very well now," answered Vixen quickly;
whereupon the housekeeper opened the drawers and cupboards in the big
wainscot wardrobe, and left Miss Tempest to her own devices.
The shelves and drawers were neatly lined with white paper, and strewed
with dried lavender. This was luxury which Vixen had not expected. She
laid her pretty dresses on the shelves, smiling scornfully as she
looked at them. Of what use could pretty dresses be in a desert island?
And here were her riding-habit and her collection of whips--useless
lumber where there was no hope of a horse. She was obliged to put her
books in the wardrobe, as there was no other place for them. Her desk
and workbox she was fain to place on the floor, for the small
dressing-table would accommodate no more than her dressing-case,
devotional books, brushes and combs, pomatum-pots, and pinboxes.
"Oh dear," she sighed. "I have a great deal too much property for a
desert island. I wonder whether in some odd corner of Les Tourelles I
could find such a thing as a spare table?"
When she had finished her unpacking she went down to the hall. Not
seeing anyone about, and desiring rather to avoid Captain Winstanley
and his aunt than to rejoin them, she wandered out of the hall into one
of the many passages of the old manor house, and began a voyage of
discovery on her own account.
"If they ask me what I have been doing I can say I lost myself," she
thought.
She found the most curious rooms--or rather rooms that had once been
stately and handsome, now applied to the most curious purposes--a
dining-hall with carved stone chimney-piece and painted ceiling, used
as a storehouse for apples; another fine apartment in which a heap of
potatoes reposed snugly in a corner, packed in straw; there was a
spacious kitchen with a fire-place as large as a moderate-sized room--a
kitchen that had been abandoned altogether to spiders, beetles, rats,
and mice. A whole army of four-footed vermin scampered off as Vixen
crossed the threshold. She could see them scuttling and scurrying along
by the wall, with a whisking of slender tails as they vanished into
their holes. The beetles were disporting themselves on the desolate
hearth, the spiders had woven draperies for the dim dirty windows. The
rustling leaves of a fig-tree, that had grown close to this side of the
house, flapped against the window-panes with a noise of exceeding
ghostliness.
From the kitchen Vixen wandered to the out-houses, and found Argus
howling dismally in a grass-grown court-yard, evidently believing
himself abandoned by the world. His rapture at beholding his mistress
was boundless.
"You darling, I would give the world to let you loose," cried Vixen,
after she had been nearly knocked down by the dog's affectionate
greeting; "but I mustn't just yet. I'll come by-and-by and take you for
a walk. Yes, dear old boy, we'll have a long ramble together, just as
we used to do at home."
Home, now she had left it, seemed so sweet a word that her lips
trembled a little as she pronounced it.
Everything without the house was as dreary as it was within. Poverty
had set its mark on all things, like a blight. Decay was visible
everywhere--in the wood-work, in the stone-work, in hinges and handles,
thresholds and lintels, ceilings and plastered walls. It would have
cost a thousand pounds to put the manor house in decent habitable
order. To have restored it to its original dignity and comeliness would
have cost at least five thousand. Miss Skipwith could afford to spend
nothing upon the house she lived in; indeed she could barely afford the
necessaries of life. So for the last thirty years Les Tourelles had
been gradually decaying, until the good old house had arrived at a
stage in which decay could hardly go farther without lapsing into
destruction.
A door opened out of the court-yard into the weedy garden. This was not
without a kind of beauty that had survived long neglect. The spreading
fig-trees, the bushes of bright red fuchsia, and the unpruned roses
made a fertile wilderness of flowers and foliage. There was a terrace
in front of the drawing-room windows, and from this a flight of
crumbling moss-grown stone steps led down to the garden, which was on
the slope of the hill, and lay considerably below the level of the
house.
While Vixen was perambulating the garden, a bell rang in a cupola on
the roof; and as this sounded like the summons to a meal, she felt that
politeness, if not appetite, demanded her return to the house.
"Three o'clock," she said, looking at her watch. "What a late hour for
luncheon!"
She made her way back to the small side-door at which she had entered
with Captain Winstanley, and went into the parlour, where she found the
Captain and his aunt. The table was laid, but they had not seated
themselves.
"I hope I have not kept you waiting," Vixen said apologetically.
"My aunt has been waiting five minutes or so; but I'm sure she will
forgive you, as you don't yet know the ways of the house," replied the
Captain amiably.
"We have early habits at Les Tourelles, Miss Tempest," said the lady of
the manor: "we breakfast at half-past seven and dine at three; that
arrangement gives me a long morning for study. At six we drink tea,
and, if you care for supper, it can be served for you on a tray at
half-past nine. The house is shut, and all lamps put out, at ten."
"As regularly as on board ship," said the Captain. "I know the customs
of the manor of old."
"You have never favoured me with a long visit, Conrad," remarked Miss
Skipwith reproachfully.
"My life has been too busy for making long visits anywhere, my dear
aunt."
They took their places at the small square table, and Miss Skipwith
said grace. Antony Doddery was in attendance, clad in rusty black, and
looking as like a butler as a man who cleaned windows, scrubbed floors,
and hewed wood could be fairly expected to look. He removed the cover
of a modest dish of fish with a grand air, and performed all the
services of the table with as much dignity as if he had never been
anything less than a butler. He poured out a glass of ale for the
Captain and a glass of water for his mistress. Miss Skipwith seemed
relieved when Violet said she preferred water to ale, and did not
particularly care about wine.
"I used to drink wine at home very often, just because it was put in my
glass, but I like water quite as well," said Vixen.
After the fish there came a small joint of lamb, and a couple of dishes
of vegetables; then a small custard pudding, and some cheese cut up in
very minute pieces in a glass dish, some raw garden-stuff which Doddery
called salad, and three of last year's pears in an old Derby
dessert-dish. The dinner could hardly have been smaller, but it was
eminently genteel.
The conversation was entirely between Captain Winstanley and his aunt.
Vixen sat and listened wonderingly, save at odd times, when her
thoughts strayed back to the old life which she had done with for ever.
"You still continue your literary labours, I suppose, aunt," said the
Captain.
"They are the chief object of my existence. When I abandon them I shall
have done with life," replied Miss Skipwith gravely.
"But you have not yet published your book."
"No; I hope when I do that even you will hear of it."
"I have no doubt it will make a sensation."
"If it does not I have lived and laboured in vain. But my book may make
a sensation, and yet fall far short of the result which I have toiled
and hoped for."
"And that is----"
"The establishment of a universal religion."
"That is a large idea!"
"Would a small idea be worth the devotion of a life? For thirty years I
have devoted myself to this one scheme. I have striven to focus all the
creeds of mankind in one brilliant centre--eliminating all that is base
and superstitious in each several religion, crystallising all that is
good and true. The Buddhist, the Brahmin, the Mohamedan, the
Sun-worshipper, the Romanist, the Calvinist, the Lutheran, the
Wesleyan, the Swedenborgian--each and all will find the best and
noblest characteristics of his faith resolved and concentred in my
universal religion. Here all creeds will meet. Gentler and wiser than
the theology of Buddha; more humanitarian than the laws of Brahma; more
temperate than the Moslem's code of morality; with a wider grasp of
power than the Romanist's authoritative Church; severely self-denying
as Calvin's ascetic rule; simple and pious as Wesley's scheme of man's
redemption; spiritual as Swedenborg's vast idea of heaven;--my faith
will open its arms wide enough to embrace all. There need be no more
dissent. The mighty circle of my free church will enclose all creeds
and all divisions of man, and spread from the northern hemisphere to
the southern seas. Heathenism shall perish before it. The limited view
of Christianity which missionaries have hitherto offered to the heathen
may fail; but my universal church will open its doors to all the
world--and, mark my words, Conrad, all the world will enter in. I may
not live to see the day. My span of life has not long to run--but that
day will come."
"No doubt," replied Captain Winstanley gravely. "There is a
slovenliness, so to speak, about the present arrangement of things, and
a great deal of useless expense; every small town with its half-a-dozen
churches and chapels of different denominations--Episcopalians,
Wesleyans, Baptists, Roman Catholics, Primitive Methodists. Now on your
plan one large building would do for all, like the town hall, or the
general post office. There would be a wonderful economy."
"I fear you contemplate the question from an entirely temporal point of
view," said Miss Skipwith, flattered but yet reproachful. "It is its
spiritual aspect that is grandest."
"Naturally. But a man of the world is apt to consider the
practicability of a scheme. And yours seems to me eminently practical.
If you can only get the Mohamedans and the Brahmins to come in! The
Roman Catholics might of course be easily won, though it would involve
doing away with the Pope. There was a prophecy, by-the-way, that after
the ninth Pius there would be only eleven more Popes. No doubt that
prophecy pointed at your universal religion. But I fear you may have
some difficulty about the Buddhists. I fancy they are rather a bigoted
sect."
"The greatest bigots have but to be convinced," said Miss Skipwith.
"St. Paul was a bigot."
"True. Is your book nearly finished?"
"No. There are still some years of labour before me. I am now working
at the Swedenborgian portion, striving to demonstrate how that great
man's scheme of religion, though commonly supposed to be a new and
original emanation of one mind, is in reality a reproduction of
spiritual views involved in other and older religions. The Buddhists
were Swedenborgians without knowing it, just as Swedenborg
unconsciously was a Buddhist."
"I begin to understand. The process which you are engaged in is a kind
of spiritual chemistry, in which you resolve each particular faith into
its primary elements: with a view to prove that those elements are
actually the same in all creeds; and that the differences which
heretofore have kept mankind apart are mere divergencies of detail."
"That, crudely and imperfectly stated, is my aim," replied Miss
Skipwith graciously.
This kind of conversation continued all through dinner. Miss Skipwith
talked of Buddha, and Confucius, and Mahomet, and Zuinglius, and
Calvin, and Luther, as familiarly as if they had been her most intimate
friends; and the Captain led her on and played her as he would have
played a trout in one of the winding Hampshire streams. His gravity was
imperturbable. Vixen sat and wondered whether she was to hear this kind
of thing every day of her life, and whether she would be expected to
ask Miss Skipwith leading questions, as the Captain was doing. It was
all very well for him, who was to spend only one day at Les Tourelles;
but Vixen made up her mind that she would boldly avow her indifference
to all creeds and all theologians, from Confucius to Swedenborg. She
might consent to live for a time amidst the dullness and desolation of
Les Tourelles, but she would not be weighed down and crushed by Miss
Skipwith's appalling hobby. The mere idea of the horror of having every
day to discuss a subject that was in its very nature inexhaustible,
filled her with terror.
"I would sooner take my meals in that abandoned kitchen, in the company
of the rats and beetles, than have to listen every day to this kind of
thing," she thought.
When dinner was over the Captain went off to smoke his cigar in the
garden, and this Vixen thought a good time for making her escape.
"I should like to take a walk with my dog, if you will excuse me, Miss
Skipwith," she said politely.
"My dear, you must consider yourself at liberty to employ and amuse
yourself as you please, of course always keeping strictly within the
bounds of propriety," solemnly replied the lady of the manor. "I shall
not interfere with your freedom. My own studies are of so grave a
nature that they in a measure isolate me from my fellow-creatures, but
when you require and ask for sympathy and advice, I shall be ready to
give both. My library is at your service, and I hope ere long you will
have found yourself some serious aim for your studies. Life without
purpose is a life hardly worth living. If girls of your age could only
find that out, and seek their vocation early, how much grander and
nobler would be woman's place in the universe. But, alas! my dear, the
common aim of girlhood seems to be to look pretty and to get married."
"I have made up my mind never to marry," said Violet, with a smile that
was half sad half cynical; "so there at least you may approve of me,
Miss Skipwith."
"My nephew tells me that you refused an excellent offer from an Irish
peer."
"I would not have done the Irish peer so great a wrong as to have
married him without loving him."
"I admire your honourable feeling," said Miss Skipwith, with solemn
approval; "I, too, might have married, but the man towards whom my
heart most inclined was a man of no family. I could not marry a man
without family. I am weak enough to be prouder of my pedigree than
other women are of beauty and fortune. I am the last of the Skipwiths,
and I have done nothing to degrade my race. The family name and the
family pride will die with me. There was a time when a Skipwith owned a
third of the island. Our estate has dwindled to the garden and meadows
that surround this old house; our family has shrunk into one old woman;
but if I can make the name of Skipwith famous before I go down to my
grave, I shall not have lived and laboured in vain."
Vixen felt a thrill of pity as she listened to this brief confession of
a self-deluded solitary soul, which had built its house upon sand, as
hopefully as if the foundations were solidest rock. The line of
demarcation between such fanaticism as Miss Skipwith's and the
hallucination of an old lady in Bedlam, who fancies herself Queen
Victoria, seemed to Vixen but a hair's breadth. But, after all, if the
old lady and Miss Skipwith were both happy in their harmless
self-deceptions, why should one pity them? The creature to be pitied is
the man or woman who keenly sees and feels the hard realities of life,
and cannot take pleasure in phantoms.
Vixen ran off to her room to get her hat and gloves, delighted to find
herself free. Miss Skipwith was not such a very bad sort of person,
after all, perhaps. Liberty to roam about the island with her dog Vixen
esteemed a great boon. She would be able to think about her troubles,
unmolested by inquisitive looks or unwelcome sympathy.
She went down to the court-yard, untied the faithful Argus, and they
set out together to explore the unknown, the dog in such wild spirits
that it was almost impossible for Vixen to be sad. The afternoon sun
was shining in all his glory, birds were singing, flickering lights and
shadows playing on the grassy banks. Argus scampered up and down the
lanes, and burst tumultuously through gaps in the hedges, like a dog
possessed of demons.
It was a pretty little island, after all; Vixen was fain to admit as
much. There was some justification for the people who sang its praises
with such enthusiasm. One might have fancied it a fertile corner of
Devonshire that had slipped its moorings and drifted westward on a
summer sea.
"If I had Arion here, and--Rorie, I think I could be almost happy,"
Vixen said to herself with a dreamy smile.
"And Rorie!"
Alas, poor child! faintly, feebly steadfast in the barren path of
honour: where could she not have been happy with the companion of her
childhood, the one only love of her youth? Was there ever a spot of
land or sea, from Hudson's Bay to the unmapped archipelago or
hypothetical continent of the Southern Pole, where she could not have
been happy with Roderick Vawdrey? She thought again of Helen Rolleston
and her lover on the South Sea island. Ah what a happy fate was that of
the consumptive heroine! Alone, protected, cherished, and saved from
death by her devoted lover.
Poor Rorie! She knew how well she loved him, now that the wide sea
rolled between them, now that she had said him nay, denied her love,
and parted from him for ever.
She thought of that scene in the pine-wood, dimly lit by the young
moon. She lived again those marvellous moments--the concentrated bliss
and pain of a lifetime. She felt again the strong grasp of his hands,
his breath upon her cheek, as he bent over her shoulder. Again she
heard him pleading for the life-long union her soul desired as the most
exquisite happiness life could give.
"I had not loved thee, dear, so well
Loved I not honour more."
Those two familiar lines flashed into her mind as she thought of her
lover. To have degraded herself, to have dishonoured him; no, it would
have been too dreadful. Were he to plead again she must answer again as
she had answered before.
"His mother despised me," she thought. "If people in a better world are
really _au courant_ as to the affairs of this, I should like Lady Jane
Vawdrey to know that I am not utterly without the instincts of a
gentlewoman."
She wandered on, following the winding of the lanes, careless where she
went, and determined to take advantage of her liberty. She met few
people, and of those she did not trouble herself to ask her way.
"If I lose myself on my desert island it can't much matter," she
thought. "There is no one to be anxious about me. Miss Skipwith will be
deep in her universal creed, and Captain Winstanley would be very glad
for me to be lost. My death would leave him master for life of the
Abbey House and all belonging to it."
She roamed on till she came to the open seashore; a pretty little
harbour surrounded with quaint-looking houses; two or three white
villas in fertile gardens, on a raised road; and, dominating all the
scene, a fine old feudal castle, with keep, battlements, drawbridge,
portcullis, and all that becomes a fortress.
This was Mount Orgueil, the castle in which Charles Stuart spent a
short period of his life, while Cromwell was ruling by land and sea,
and kingly hopes were at their lowest ebb. The good old fortress had
suffered for its loyalty, for the Parliament sent Admiral Blake, with a
fleet, to reduce the rebellious island to submission, and Mount Orgueil
had not been strong enough to hold out against its assailants.
Violet went up the sloping path that led to the grim old gateway under
the gloomy arch, and still upward till she came to a sunny battlemented
wall above the shining sea. The prospect was more than worth the
trouble. Yonder, in the dim distance, were the towers of Coutance
Cathedral; far away, mere spots in the blue water, were the smaller fry
of the Channel Islands; below her, the yellow sands were smiling in the
sun, the placid wavelets reflecting all the colour and glory of the
changeful sky.
"This would not be a bad place to live in, Argus, if----"
She paused with her arm round her dog's neck, as he stood on end,
looking over the parapet, with a deep interest in possible rats or
rabbits lurking in some cavity of the craggy cliff below. If! Ah, what
a big "if" that was! It meant love and dear familiar companionship. It
meant all Vixen's little world.
She lingered long. The scene was beautiful, and there was nothing to
lure her home. Then, at last, feeling that she was treating poor Miss
Skipwith badly, and that her prolonged absence might give alarm in that
dreary household, she retraced her steps, and at the foot of the craggy
mount asked the nearest way to Les Tourelles.
The nearest way was altogether different from the track by which she
had come, and brought her back to the old monastic gate in a little
more than an hour. She opened the gate and went in. There was nothing
for the most burglarious invader to steal at Les Tourelles, and bolts
and locks were rarely used. Miss Skipwith was reading in her parlour, a
white Persian cat dozing on a cushioned arm-chair beside her, some cups
and saucers and a black teapot on a tray before her, and the rest of
the table piled with books. There was no sign of Captain Winstanley.
"I'm afraid I'm rather late," Vixen said apologetically.
She felt a kind of half-pitying respect for Miss Skipwith, as a
harmless lunatic.
"My dear, I daresay that as an absolute fact you are late," answered
the lady of the manor, without looking up from her book, "but as time
is never too long for me, I have been hardly conscious of the delay.
Your stepfather has gone down to the club at St. Helier's to see some
of his old acquaintances. Perhaps you would like a cup of tea?"
Vixen replied that she would very much like some tea, whereupon Miss
Skipwith poured out a weak and tepid infusion, against which the girl
inwardly protested.
"If I am to exist at Les Tourelles, I must at least have decent tea,"
she said to herself. "I must buy an occasional pound for my own
consumption, make friends with Mrs. Doddery, and get her to brew it for
me."
And then Vixen knelt down by the arm-chair and tried to get upon
intimate terms with the Persian. He was a serious-minded animal, and
seemed inclined to resent her advances, so she left him in peace on his
patchwork cushion, a relic of those earlier days when Miss Skipwith had
squandered her precious hours on the feminine inanity of needle-work.
Vixen thought of the German _Volkslied_, as she looked at the old lady
in the black cap, bending over a ponderous volume, with the
solemn-visaged cat coiled on the chair beside her.
"Minerva's Vogel war ein Kauz."
The Persian cat seemed as much an attribute of the female theologian as
the bird of the goddess.
Vixen went to her room soon after dark, and thus avoided the Captain,
who did not return till ten. She was worn out with the fatigue of the
voyage, her long ramble, the painful thoughts and manifold agitations
of the last two days. She set her candle on the dressing-table, and
looked round the bare empty room, feeling as if she were in a dream. It
was all strange, and unhomely, and comfortless; like one of those wild
dream-pictures which seem so appallingly real in their hideous
unreality.
"And I am to live here indefinitely--for the next six years, perhaps,
until I come of age and am my own mistress. It is too dreadful!"
She went to bed and slept a deep and comforting sleep, for very
weariness: and she dreamt that she was walking on the battlements of
Mount Orgueil, in the drowsy afternoon sunlight, with Charles Stuart;
and the face of the royal exile was the face of Roderick Vawdrey, and
the hand that held hers as they two stood side by side in the sunshine
was the broad strong hand of her girlhood's friend.
When she went downstairs between eight and nine next morning she found
Miss Skipwith pacing slowly to and fro the terrace in front of the
drawing-room windows, conning over the pencil notes of her yesterday's
studies.
"Your stepfather has been gone half-an-hour, my dear," said the lady of
the manor. "He was very sorry to have to go without wishing you
good-bye."
CHAPTER II.
Chiefly Financial.
Violet was gone. Her rooms were empty; her faithful little waiting-maid
was dismissed; her dog's deep-toned thunder no longer sounded through
the house, baying joyous welcome when his mistress came down for her
early morning ramble in the shrubberies. Arion had been sent to grass,
and was running wild in fertile pastures, shoeless and unfettered as
the South American mustang on his native prairie. Nothing associated
with the exiled heiress was left, except the rooms she had inhabited;
and even they looked blank and empty and strange without her. It was
almost as if a whole family had departed. Vixen's presence seemed to
have filled the house with youth and freshness, and free joyous life.
Without her all was silent as the grave.
Mrs. Winstanley missed her daughter sorely. She had been wont to
complain fretfully of the girl's exuberance; but the blank her absence
made struck a chill to the mother's heart. She had fancied that life
would be easier without Violet; that her union with her husband would
be more complete; and now she found herself looking wistfully towards
the door of her morning-room, listening vaguely for a footstep; and the
figure she looked for at the door, and the footsteps she listened for
in the corridor were not Conrad Winstanley's. It was the buoyant step
of her daughter she missed; it was the bright frank face of her
daughter she yearned for.
One day the captain surprised her in tears, and asked the reason of her
melancholy.
"I daresay it's very weak of me, Conrad," she said piteously, "but I
miss Violet more and more every day."
"It is uncommonly weak of you," answered the Captain with agreeable
candour, "but I suppose it's natural. People generally get attached to
their worries; and as your daughter was an incessant worry, you very
naturally lament her absence. I am honest enough to confess that I am
very glad she is gone. We had no domestic peace while she was with us."
"But she is not to stay away for ever, Conrad. I cannot be separated
from my only daughter for ever. That would be too dreadful."
"'For ever' is a long word," answered the Captain coolly. "She will
come back to us--of course."
"When, dear?"
"When she is older and wiser."
This was cold comfort. Mrs. Winstanley dried her tears, and resumed her
crewel-work. The interesting variety of shades in green which modern
art has discovered were a source of comfort to the mother's troubled
mind. Moved to emulation by the results that had been achieved in
artistic needle-work by the school at South Kensington and the Royal
Tapestry Manufactory at Windsor, Pamela found in her crewel-work an
all-absorbing labour. Matilda of Normandy could hardly have toiled more
industriously at the Bayeux tapestry than did Mrs. Winstanley, in the
effort to immortalise the fleeting glories of woodland blossom or
costly orchid upon kitchen towelling.
It was a dull and lonely life which the mistress of the Abbey House led
in these latter days of glowing summer weather; and perhaps it was only
the distractions of crewels and point-lace which preserved her from
melancholy madness. The Captain had been too long a bachelor to
renounce the agreeable habits of a bachelor's existence. His amusements
were all masculine, and more or less solitary. When there was no
hunting, he gave himself up to fishing, and found his chief delight in
the persecution of innocent salmon. He supplied the Abbey House larder
with fish, sent an occasional basket to a friend, and dispatched the
surplus produce of his rod to a fishmonger in London. He was an
enthusiast at billiards, and would play with innocent Mr. Scobel rather
than not play at all. He read every newspaper and periodical of mark
that was published. He rode a good deal, and drove not a little in a
high-wheeled dog-cart; quite an impossible vehicle for a lady. He
transacted all the business of house, stable, gardens, and home-farm,
and that in the most precise and punctual manner. He wrote a good many
letters, and he smoked six or seven cigars every day. It must be
obvious, therefore, that he had very little time to devote to his
pretty middle-aged wife, whose languid airs and vapourish graces were
likely to pall upon an ardent temper after a year of married life. Yet,
though she found her days lonely, Mrs. Winstanley had no ground for
complaint. What fault could a woman find in a husband who was always
courteous and complimentary in his speech, whose domestic tastes were
obvious, who thought it no trouble to supervise the smallest details of
the household, who could order a dinner, lay out a garden, stock a
conservatory, or amend the sanitary arrangements of a stable with equal
cleverness; who never neglected a duty towards wife or society?
Mrs. Winstanley could see no flaw in the perfection of her husband's
character; but it began about this time slowly to dawn upon her languid
soul that, as Captain Winstanley's wife, she was not so happy as she
had been as Squire Tempest's widow.
Her independence was gone utterly. She awoke slowly to the
comprehension of that fact. Her individuality was blotted out, or
absorbed into her husband's being. She had no more power or influence
in her own house, than the lowest scullion in her kitchen. She had
given up her banking account, and the receipt of her rents, which in
the days of her widowhood had been remitted to her half-yearly by the
solicitor who collected them. Captain Winstanley had taken upon himself
the stewardship of his wife's income. She had been inclined to cling to
her cheque-book and her banking account at Southampton; but the Captain
had persuaded her of the folly of such an arrangement.
"Why two balances and two accounts, when one will do?" he argued. "You
have only to ask me for a cheque when you want it, or to give me your
bills."
Whereupon the bride of six weeks had yielded graciously, and the
balance had been transferred from the Southampton bank to Captain
Winstanley's account at the Union.
But now, with Theodore's unsettled account of four years' standing
hanging over her head by the single hair of the penny post, and likely
to descend upon her any morning, Mrs. Winstanley regretted her
surrendered banking account, with its balance of eleven hundred pounds
or so. The Captain had managed everything with wondrous wisdom, no
doubt. He had done away with all long credits. He paid all his bills on
the first Saturday in the month, save such as could be paid weekly. He
had reduced the price of almost everything supplied to the Abbey House,
from the stable provender to the wax candles that lighted the faded
sea-green draperies and white panelling of the drawing-room. The only
expenditure over which he had no control was his wife's private
disbursement; but he had a habit of looking surprised when she asked
him for a cheque, and a business-like way of asking the amount
required, which prevented her applying to him often. Still, there was
that long-standing account of Madame Theodore's in the background, and
Mrs. Winstanley felt that it was an account which must be settled
sooner or later. Her disinclination to ask her husband for money had
tended to swell Theodore's bill. She had bought gloves, ribbons, shoes,
everything from that tasteful purveyor, and had even obtained the
somewhat expensive material for her fancy work through Madame Theodore;
a temporary convenience which she could hardly hope to enjoy gratis.
Like all weak women she had her occasional longings for independence,
her moments of inward revolt against the smooth tyrant. The income was
hers, she argued with herself sometimes, and she had a right to spend
her own money as she pleased. But then she recalled her husband's grave
warnings about the future and its insecurity. She had but a brief lease
of her present wealth, and he was labouring to lay by a provision for
the days to come.
"It would be wicked of me to thwart him in such a wise purpose," she
told herself.
The restriction of her charities pained the soft-hearted Pamela not a
little. To give to all who asked her had been the one unselfish
pleasure of her narrow soul. She had been imposed upon, of course; had
fed families whose fathers squandered their weekly wages in the cosy
taproom of a village inn; had in some wise encouraged idleness and
improvident living; but she had been the comforter of many a weary
heart, the benefactor of many a patient care-oppressed mother, the
raiser-up of many a sickly child drooping on its bed of pain.
Now, under the Captain's rule, she had the pleasure of seeing her name
honourably recorded in the subscription list of every local charity:
but her hand was no longer open to the surrounding poor, her good old
Saxon name of Lady had lost its ancient significance. She was no longer
the giver of bread to the hungry. She sighed and submitted,
acknowledging her husband's superior wisdom.
"You would not like to live in a semi-detached villa on the Southampton
Road, would you, my dear Pamela?" asked the Captain.
"I might die in a semi-detached house, Conrad. I'm sure I could not
live in one," she exclaimed piteously.
"Then, my love, we must make a tremendous effort and save all we can
before your daughter comes of age, or else we shall assuredly have to
leave the Abbey House. We might go abroad certainly, and live at Dinan,
or some quiet old French town where provisions are cheap."
"My dear Conrad, I could not exist in one of those old French towns,
smelling perpetually of cabbage-soup."
"Then, my dear love, we must exercise the strictest economy, or life
will be impossible six years hence."
Pamela sighed and assented, with a sinking of her heart. To her mind
this word economy was absolutely the most odious in the English
language. Her life was made up of trifles; and they were all expensive
trifles. She liked to be better dressed than any woman of her
acquaintance. She liked to surround herself with pretty things; and the
prettiness must take the most fashionable form, and be frequently
renewed. She had dim ideas which she considered aesthetic, and which
involved a good deal of shifting and improving of furniture.
Against all these expensive follies Captain Winstanley set his face
sternly, using pretty words to his wife at all times, but proving
himself as hard as rock when she tried to bend him to her will. He had
not yet interfered with her toilet, for he had yet to learn what that
cost.
This knowledge came upon him like a thunder-clap one sultry morning in
July--real thunder impending in the metallic-tinted sky--about a month
after Vixen's departure.
Theodore's long-expected bill was among the letters in the morning's
bag--a bulky envelope which the Captain handed to his wife with his
usual politeness. He never opened her letters, but he invariably asked
to see them, and she always handed her correspondence over to him with
a childlike meekness. To-day she was slow to hand the Captain her
letter. She sat looking at the long list of items with a clouded brow,
and forgot to pour out her husband's coffee in the abstraction of a
troubled mind.
"I'm afraid your letters of this morning are not of a very pleasant
character, my love," said the Captain, watchful of his wife's clouded
countenance. "Is that a bill you are examining? I thought we paid ready
money for everything."
"It is my dressmaker's bill," faltered Mrs. Winstanley.
"A dressmaker's bill! That can't be very alarming. You look as awful,
and the document looks as voluminous, as if it were a lawyer's bill,
including the costs of two or three unlucky Chancery suits, or
half-a-dozen conveyances. Let me have the account, dear, and I'll send
your dressmaker a cheque next Saturday."
He held out his hand for the paper, but Pamela did not give it to him.
"I'm afraid you'll think it awfully high, Conrad," she said, in a
deprecating tone. "You see it has been running a long time--since the
Christmas before dear Edward's death, in fact. I have paid Theodore
sums on account in the meanwhile, but those seem to go for very little
against the total of her bill. She is expensive, of course. All the
West End milliners are; but her style is undeniable, and she is in
direct association with Worth."
"My dear Pamela, I did not ask you for her biography, I asked only for
her bill. Pray let me see the total, and tell me if you have any
objections to make against the items."
"No," sighed Mrs. Winstanley, bending over the document with a
perplexed brow, "I believe--indeed, I am sure--I have had all the
things. Many of them are dearer than I expected; but there is no rule
as to the price of anything thoroughly Parisian, that has not been seen
in London. One has to pay for style and originality. I hope you won't
be vexed at having to write so large a cheque, Conrad, at a time when
you are so anxious to save money. Next year I shall try my best to
economise."
"My dearest Pamela, why beat about the bush? The bill must be paid,
whatever its amount. I suppose a hundred pounds will cover it?"
"Oh, Conrad, when many women give a hundred pounds for a single dress!"
"When they do I should say that Bedlam must be their natural and
fitting abode," retorted the Captain, with suppressed ire. "The bill is
more than a hundred then? Pray give it me, Pamela, and make an end of
this foolishness."
This time Captain Winstanley went over to his wife, and took the paper
out of her hand. He had not seen the total, but he was white with rage
already. He had made up his mind to squeeze a small fortune out of the
Abbey House estate during his brief lease of the property; and here was
this foolish wife of his squandering hundreds upon finery.
"Be kind enough to pour me out a cup of coffee," he said, resuming his
seat, and deliberately spreading out the bill.
"Great Heaven!" he cried, after a glance at the total. "This is too
preposterous. The woman must be mad."
The total was seventeen hundred and sixty-four pounds fourteen and
sixpence. Mrs. Winstanley's payments on account amounted to four
hundred pounds; leaving a balance of thirteen hundred and sixty-four
pounds for the Captain to liquidate.
"Indeed, dear Conrad, it is not such a very tremendous account,"
pleaded Pamela, appalled by the expression of her husband's face.
"Theodore has customers who spend two thousand a year with her."
"Very laudable extravagance, if they are wives of millionaires, and
have their silver-mines, or cotton-mills, or oil-wells to maintain
them. But that the widow of a Hampshire squire, a lady who six years
hence will have to exist upon a pittance, should run up such a bill as
this is to my mind an act of folly that is almost criminal. From this
moment I abandon all my ideas of nursing your estate, of providing
comfortably for our future. Henceforward we must drift towards
insolvency, like other people. It would be worse than useless for me to
go on racking my brains in the endeavour to secure a given result, when
behind my back your thoughtless extravagance is stultifying all my
efforts."
Here Mrs. Winstanley dissolved into tears.
"Oh Conrad! How can you say such cruel things?" she sobbed. "I go
behind your back! I stultify you! When I have allowed myself to be
ruled and governed in everything! When I have even parted with my only
child to please you!"
"Not till your only child had tried to set the house on fire."
"Indeed, Conrad, you are mistaken there. She never meant it."
"I know nothing about her meaning," said the Captain moodily. "She did
it."
"It is too cruel, after all my sacrifices, that I should be called
extravagant--and foolish--and criminal. I have only dressed as a lady
ought to dress--out of mere self-respect. Dear Edward always liked to
see me look nice. He never said an unkind word about my bills. It is a
sad--sad change for me."
"Your future will be a sadder change, if you go on in the way you are
going," retorted the Captain. "Let me see: your income, after Violet
comes of age, is to be fifteen hundred a year. You have been spending six
hundred a year upon millinery. That leaves nine hundred for everything
else--stable, garden, coals, taxes, servants' wages, wine--to say
nothing of such trifling claims as butcher and baker, and the rest of
it. You will have to manage with wonderful cleverness to make both ends
meet."
"I am sure I would sacrifice anything rather than live unhappily with
you, Conrad," Mrs. Winstanley murmured piteously, drinking much strong
tea in her agitation, the cup shaking in her poor little white weak
hand. "Nothing could be so dreadful to me as to live on bad terms with
you. I have surrendered so much for your love, Conrad. What would
become of me, if I lost that? I will give up dealing with Theodore, if
you like--though it will be a hard trial, after she has worked for me
so many years, and has studied my style and knows exactly what suits
me. I will dress ever so plainly, and even have my gowns made by a
Southampton dressmaker, though that will be too dreadful. You will
hardly recognise me. But I will do anything--anything, Conrad, rather
than hear you speak so cruelly."
She went over to him and laid her hand tremulously on his shoulder, and
looked down at him with piteous, pleading eyes. No Circassian slave,
afraid of bowstring and sack, could have entreated her master's
clemency with deeper self-abasement.
Even Conrad Winstanley's hard nature was touched by the piteousness of
her look and tone. He took the hand gently and raised it to his lips.
"I don't mean to be cruel, Pamela," he said. "I only want you to face
the truth, and to understand your future position. It is your own money
you are squandering, and you have a right to waste it, if it pleases
you to do so. But it is a little hard for a man who has laboured and
schemed for a given result, suddenly to find himself out in his
calculations by so much as thirteen hundred and sixty-four pounds. Let
us say no more about it, my dear. Here is the bill, and it must be
paid. We have only to consider the items, and see if the prices are
reasonable."
And then the Captain, with bent brow and serious aspect, began to read
the lengthy record of an English lady's folly. Most of the items he
passed over in silence, or with only a sigh, keeping his wife by his
side, looking over his shoulder.
"Point out anything that is wrong," he said; but as yet Mrs. Winstanley
had found no error in the bill.
Sometimes there came an item which moved the Captain to speech. "A
dinner-dress, _pain brûlé_ brocade, mixed _poult de soie_, _manteau de
cour_, lined ivory satin, trimmed with hand-worked embroidery of wild
flowers on Brussels net, sixty-three pounds."
"What in the name of all that's reasonable is _pain brûlé?_" asked the
Captain impatiently.
"It's the colour, Conrad. One of those delicate tertiaries that have
been so much worn lately."
"Sixty guineas for a dinner-dress! That's rather stiff. Do you know
that a suit of dress-clothes costs me nine pounds, and lasts almost as
many years?"
"My dear Conrad, for a man it is so different. No one looks at your
clothes. That dress was for Lady Ellangowan's dinner. You made me very
happy that night, for you told me I was the best-dressed woman in the
room."
"I should not have been very happy myself if I had known the cost of
your gown," answered the Captain grimly. "Fifteen guineas for a Honiton
_fichu!_" he cried presently. "What in mercy's name is a _fichu?_ It
sounds like a sneeze."
"It is a little half-handkerchief that I wear to brighten a dark silk
dress when we dine alone, Conrad. You know you have always said that
lace harmonises a woman's dress, and gives a softness to the complexion
and contour."
"I shall be very careful what I say in future," muttered the Captain,
as he went on with the bill. "French cambric _peignoir_, trimmed real
Valenciennes, turquoise ribbon, nineteen guineas," he read presently.
"Surely you would never give twenty pounds for a gown you wear when you
are having your hair dressed?"
"That is only the name, dear. It is really a breakfast-dress. You know
you always like to see me in white of a morning."
The Captain groaned and said nothing.
"Come," he said, by-and-by, "this surely must be a mistake. 'Shooting
dress, superfine silk corduroy, trimmed and lined with cardinal _poult
de soie_, oxydised silver buttons, engraved hunting subjects,
twenty-seven guineas.' Thank Heaven you are not one of those masculine
women who go out shooting, and jump over five-barred gates."
"The dress is quite right, dear, though I don't shoot. Theodore sent it
to me for a walking-dress, and I have worn it often when we have walked
in the Forest. You thought it very stylish and becoming, though just a
little fast."
"I see," said the Captain, with a weary air, "your not shooting does
not hinder your having shooting-dresses. Are there any
fishing-costumes, or riding-habits, in the bill?"
"No, dear. It was Theodore's own idea to send me the corduroy dress.
She thought it so new and _recherché_, and even the Duchess admired it.
Mine was the first she had ever seen."
"That was a triumph worth twenty-seven guineas, no doubt," sighed the
Captain. "Well, I suppose there is no more to be said. The bill to me
appears iniquitous. If you were a duchess or a millionaire's wife, of
course it would be different. Such women have a right to spend all they
can upon dress. They encourage trade. I am no Puritan. But when a woman
dresses beyond her means--above her social position--I regret the wise
old sumptuary laws which regulated these things in the days when a fur
coat was a sign of nobility. If you only knew, Pamela, how useless this
expensive finery is, how little it adds to your social status, how
little it enhances your beauty! Why, the finest gown this Madame
Theodore ever made cannot hide one of your wrinkles."
"My wrinkles!" cried Pamela, sorely wounded. "That is the first time I
ever heard of them. To think that my husband should be the first to
tell me I am getting an old woman! But I forgot, you are younger than
I, and I daresay in your eyes I seem quite old."
"My dear Pamela, be reasonable. Can a woman's forehead at forty be
quite as smooth as it was at twenty? However handsome a woman is at
that age--and to my mind it is almost the best age for beauty, just as
the ripe rich colouring of a peach is lovelier than the poor little
pale blossom that preceded it--however attractive a middle-aged woman
may be there must be some traces to show that she has lived half her
life; and to suppose that pain brûlé brocade, and hand-worked
embroidery, can obliterate those, is extreme folly. Dress in rich and
dark velvets, and old point-lace that has been twenty years in your
possession, and you will be as beautiful and as interesting as a
portrait by one of the old Venetian masters. Can Theodore's highest art
make you better than that? Remember that excellent advice of old
Polonius's,
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy,
But not expressed in fancy.
It is the fancy that swells your milliner's bill, the newly-invented
trimmings, the complex and laborious combinations."
"I will be dreadfully economical in future, Conrad. For the last year I
have dressed to please you."
"But what becomes of all these gowns?" asked the Captain, folding up
the bill; "what do you do with them?"
"They go out."
"Out where? To the colonies?"
"No, dear; they go out of fashion; and I give them to Pauline."
"A sixty-guinea dress flung to your waiting-maid! The Duchess of
Dovedale could not do things in better style."
"I should be very sorry not to dress better than the Duchess," said
Mrs. Winstanley, "she is always hideously dowdy. But a duchess can
afford to dress as badly as she likes."
"I see. Then it is we only who occupy the border-land of society who
have to be careful. Well, my dear Pamela, I shall send Madame Theodore
her cheque, and with your permission close her account; and, unless you
receive some large accession of fortune I should recommend you not to
reopen it."
His wife gave a heart-breaking sigh.
"I would sacrifice anything for your sake, Conrad," she said, "but I
shall be a perfect horror, and you will hate me."
"I fell in love with you, my dear, not with your gown."
"But you fell in love with me in my gown, dear; and you don't know how
different your feelings might have been if you had seen me in a gown
cut by a country dressmaker."
CHAPTER III.
"With weary Days thou shalt be clothed and fed."
Captain Winstanley never again alluded to the dressmaker's bill. He was
too wise a man to reopen old wounds or to dwell upon small vexations.
He had invested every penny that he could spare, leaving the smallest
balance at his banker's compatible with respectability. He had to sell
some railway shares in order to pay Madame Theodore. Happily the shares
had gone up since his purchase of them, and he lost nothing by the
transaction; but it galled him sorely to part with the money. It was as
if an edifice that he had been toilfully raising, stone by stone, had
begun to crumble under his hands. He knew not when or whence the next
call might come. The time in which he had to save money was so short.
Only six years, and the heiress would claim her estate, and Mrs.
Winstanley would be left with the empty shell of her present
position--the privilege of occupying a fine old Tudor mansion, with
enormous stables, and fifteen acres of garden and shrubberies, and an
annuity that would barely suffice to maintain existence in a third-rate
London square.
Mrs. Winstanley was slow to recover from the shock of her husband's
strong language about Theodore's bill. She was sensitive about all
things that touched her own personality, and she was peculiarly
sensitive about the difference between her husband's age and her own.
She had married a man who was her junior; but she had married him with
the conviction that, in his eyes at least, she had all the bloom and
beauty of youth, and that he admired and loved her above all other
women. That chance allusion to her wrinkles had pierced her heart. She
was deeply afflicted by the idea that her husband had perceived the
signs of advancing years in her face. And now she fell to perusing her
looking-glass more critically than she had ever done before. She saw
herself in the searching north light; and the north light was more
cruel and more candid than Captain Winstanley. There were lines on her
forehead--unmistakable, ineffaceable lines. She could wear her hair in
no way that would hide them, unless she had hidden her forehead
altogether under a bush of frizzy fluffy curls. There was a faded look
about her complexion, too, which she had never before discovered--a
wanness, a yellowness. Yes, these things meant age! In such a spirit,
perchance, did Elizabeth of England survey the reflection in her
mirror, until all the glories of her reign seemed as nothing to her
when weighed against this dread horror of fast-coming age. And luckless
Mary, cooped up in the narrow rooms at Fotheringay, may have deemed
captivity, and the shadow of doom, as but trifling ills compared with
the loss of youth and beauty. Once to have been exquisitely beautiful,
the inspiration of poets, the chosen model of painters, and to see the
glory fading--that, for a weak woman, must be sorrow's crown of sorrow.
Anon dim feelings of jealousy began to gnaw Pamela's heart. She grew
watchful of her husband's attentions to other women, suspicious of
looks and words that meant no more than a man's desire to please.
Society no longer made her happy. Her Tuesday afternoons lost their
charm. There was poison in everything. Lady Ellangowan's flirting ways,
which had once only amused her, now tortured her. Captain Winstanley's
devotion to this lively matron, which had heretofore seemed only the
commoner's tribute of respect to the peeress, now struck his wife as a
too obvious infatuation for the woman. She began to feel wretched in
the society of certain women--nay, of all women who were younger, or
possibly more attractive, than herself. She felt that the only security
for her peace would be to live on a desert island with the husband she
had chosen. She was of too weak a mind to hide these growing doubts and
ever-augmenting suspicions. The miserable truth oozed out of her in
foolish little speeches; those continual droppings that wear the
hardest stone, and which wore even the adamantine surface of the
Captain's tranquil temper. There was a homoeopathic admixture of this
jealous poison in all the food he ate. He could rarely get through a
_tête-à-tête_ breakfast or dinner undisturbed by some invidious remark.
One day the Captain rose up in his strength, and grappled with this
jealous demon. He had let the little speeches, the random shots, pass
unheeded until now; but on one particularly dismal morning, a bleak
March morning, when the rain beat against the windows, and the deodoras
and cypresses were lashed and tormented by the blusterous wind, and the
low sky was darkly gray, the captain's temper suddenly broke out.
"My dear Pamela, is it possible that these whimpering little speeches
of yours mean jealousy?" he asked, looking at her severely from under
bent brows.
"I'm sure I never said that I was jealous," faltered Pamela, stirring
her tea with a nervous movement of her thin white band.
"Of course not; no woman cares to describe herself in plain words as an
idiot; but of late you have favoured me with a good many imbecile
remarks, which all seem to tend one way. You are hurt and wounded when
I am decently civil to the women I meet in society. Is that sensible or
reasonable, in a woman of your age and experience?"
"You used not to taunt me with my age before we were married, Conrad."
"Do I taunt you with it now? I only say that a woman of forty,"--Mrs.
Winstanley shuddered--"ought to have more sense than a girl of
eighteen; and that a woman who had had twenty years' experience of
well-bred society ought not to put on the silly jealousies of a
school-girl trying to provoke a quarrel with her first lover."
"It is all very well to pretend to think me weak and foolish, Conrad.
Yes, I know I am weak, ridiculously weak, in loving you as intensely as
I do. But I cannot help that. It is my nature to cling to others, as
the ivy clings to the oak. I would have clung to Violet, if she had
been more loving and lovable. But you cannot deny that your conduct to
Lady Ellangowan yesterday afternoon was calculated to make any wife
unhappy."
"If a wife is to be unhappy because her husband talks to another woman
about her horses and her gardens, I suppose I gave you sufficient cause
for misery," answered the Captain sneeringly. "I can declare that Lady
Ellangowan and I were talking of nothing more sentimental."
"Oh, Conrad, it is not _what_ you talked about, though your voice was
so subdued that it was impossible for anyone to know what you were
saying----"
"Except Lady Ellangowan."
"It was your manner. The way you bent over her, your earnest
expression."
"Would you have had me stand three yards off and bawl at the lady? Or
am I bound to assume that bored and vacuous countenance which some
young men consider good form? Come, my dear Pamela, pray let us be
reasonable. Here are you and I settled for life beside the domestic
hearth. We have no children. We are not particularly well off--it will
be as much as we shall be able to do, by-and-by, to make both ends
meet. We are neither of us getting younger. These things are serious
cares, and we have to bear them. Why should you add to these an
imaginary trouble, a torment that has no existence, save in your own
perverse mind? If you could but know my low estimate of the women to
whom I am civil! I like society: and to get on in society a man must
make himself agreeable to influential women. It is the women who have
the reins in the social race, and by-and-by, if I should go into
Parliament----"
"Parliament!" cried his wife affrightedly. "You want to become a Member
of Parliament, and to be out at all hours of the night! Our home-life
would be altogether destroyed then."
"My dear Pamela, if you take such pains to make our home-life
miserable, it will be hardly worth preserving," retorted the Captain.
"Conrad, I am going to ask you a question--a very solemn question."
"You alarm me."
"Long ago--before we were married--when Violet was arguing with me
against our marriage--you know how vehemently she opposed it--"
"Perfectly. Go on."
"She told me that you had proposed to her before you proposed to me.
Oh, Conrad, could that be true?"
The heart-rending tone in which the question was asked, the pathetic
look that accompanied it, convinced Captain Winstanley that, if he
valued his domestic peace, he must perjure himself.
"It had no more foundation than many other assertions of that young
lady's," he said. "I may have paid her compliments, and praised her
beauty; but how could I think of her for a wife, when you were by? Your
soft confiding nature conquered me before I knew that I was hit."
He got up and went over to his wife and kissed her kindly enough,
feeling sorry for her as he might have done for a wayward child that
weeps it scarce knows wherefore, oppressed by a vague sense of
affliction.
"Let us try to be happy together, Pamela," he pleaded, with a sigh,
"life is weary work at best."
"That means that you are not happy, Conrad."
"My love, I am as happy as you will let me be."
"Have I ever opposed you in anything?"
"No, dear; but lately you have indulged in covert upbraidings that have
plagued me sorely. Let us have no more of them. As for your
daughter"--his face darkened at the mention of that name--"understand
at once and for ever that she and I can never inhabit the same house.
If she comes, I go. If you cannot live without her you must learn to
live without me."
"Conrad, what have I done that you should talk of such a thing? Have I
asked you to let Violet come home?"
"No, but you have behaved mopishly of late, as if you were pining for
her return."
"I pine for nothing but your love."
"That has always been yours."
With this assurance Mrs. Winstanley was fain to content herself, but
even this assurance did not make her happy. The glory and brightness
had departed from her life somehow; and neither kind words nor friendly
smiles from the Captain could lure them back. There are stages in the
lives of all of us when life seems hardly worth living: not periods of
great calamity, but dull level bits of road along which the journey
seems very weary. The sun has hidden himself behind gray clouds, cold
winds are blowing up from the bitter east, the birds have left off
singing, the landscape has lost its charm. We plod on drearily, and can
see no Pole Star in life's darkening sky.
It had been thus of late with Pamela Winstanley. Slowly and gradually
the conviction had come to her that her second marriage had been a
foolish and ill-advised transaction, resulting inevitably in sorrow and
unavailing remorse. The sweet delusion that it had been a love-match on
Captain Winstanley's side, as well as on her own, abandoned her all at
once, and she found herself face to face with stern common-sense.
That scene about Theodore's bill had exercised a curious effect upon
her mind. To an intellect so narrow, trifles were important, and that
the husband who had so much admired and praised the elegance of her
appearance could grudge the cost of her toilet galled her sorely. It
was positively for her the first revelation of her husband's character.
His retrenchments in household expenses she had been ready to applaud
as praiseworthy economies; but when he assailed her own extravagance,
she saw in him a husband who loved far too wisely to love well.
"If he cared for me, if he valued my good looks, he could never object
to my spending a few pounds upon a dress," she told herself.
She could not take the Captain's common-sense view of a subject so
important to herself. Love in her mind meant a blind indulgence like
the Squire's. Love that could count the cost of its idol's caprices,
and calculate the chances of the future, was not love. That feeling of
poverty, too, was a new sensation to the mistress of the Abbey House,
and a very unpleasant one. Married very young to a man of ample means,
who adored her, and never set the slightest restriction upon her
expenditure, extravagance had become her second nature. To have to
study every outlay, to ask herself whether she could not do without a
thing, was a hard trial; but it had become so painful to her to ask the
Captain for money that she preferred the novel pain of self-denial to
that humiliation. And then there was the cheerless prospect of the
future always staring her in the face, that dreary time after Violet's
majority, when it would be a question whether she and her husband could
afford to go on living at the Abbey House.
"Everybody will know that my income is diminished," she thought.
"However well we may manage, people will know that we are pinching."
This was a vexatious reflection. The sting of poverty itself could not
be so sharp as the pain of being known to be poor.
Captain Winstanley pursued the even tenor of his way all this time, and
troubled himself but little about his wife's petty sorrows. He did his
duty to her according to his own lights, and considered that she had no
ground for complaint. He even took pains to be less subdued in his
manner to Lady Ellangowan, and to give no shadow of reason for the
foolish jealousy he so much despised. His mind was busy about his own
affairs. He had saved money since his marriage, and he employed himself
a good deal in the investment of his savings. So far he had been lucky
in all he touched, and had contrived to increase his capital by one or
two speculative ventures in foreign railways. If things went on as well
for the next six years he and his wife might live at the Abbey House,
and maintain their station in the county, till the end of the chapter.
"I daresay Pamela will outlive me," thought the Captain; "those
fragile-looking invalid women are generally long lived. And I have all
the chances of the hunting-field, and vicious horses, and other men's
blundering with loaded guns, against me. What can happen to a woman who
sits at home and works crewel antimacassars and reads novels all day,
and never drinks anything stronger than tea, and never eats enough to
disturb her digestion? She ought to be a female Methuselah."
Secure in this idea of his wife's longevity, and happy in his
speculations, Captain Winstanley looked forward cheerfully to the
future: and the evil shadow of the day when the hand of fate should
thrust him from the good old house where he was master had never fallen
across his dreams.
CHAPTER IV.
Love and AEsthetics.
Spring had returned, primroses and violets were being sold at the
street-corners, Parliament was assembled, and London had reawakened
from its wintry hibernation to new life and vigour. The Dovedales were
at their Kensington mansion. The Duchess had sent forth her cards for
alternate Thursday evenings of a quasi-literary and scientific
character. Lady Mabel was polishing her poems with serious thoughts of
publication, but with strictest secrecy. No one but her parents and
Roderick Vawdrey had been told of these poetic flights. The book would
be given to the world under a _nom de plume_. Lady Mabel was not so
much a Philistine as to suppose that writing good poetry could be a
disgrace to a duke's daughter; but she felt that the house of Ashbourne
would be seriously compromised were the critics to find her guilty of
writing doggerel; and critics are apt to deal harshly with the titled
muse. She remembered Brougham's savage onslaught upon the boy Byron.
Mr. Vawdrey was in town. He rode a good deal in the Row, spent an hour
or so daily at Tattersall's, haunted three or four clubs of a juvenile
and frivolous character, drank numerous bottles of Apolinaris, and
found the task of killing time rather hard labour. Of course there were
certain hours in which he was on duty at Kensington. He was expected to
eat his luncheon there daily, to dine when neither he nor the ducal
house had any other engagement, and to attend all his aunt's parties.
There was always a place reserved for him at the dinner-table, however
middle-aged and politically or socially important the assembly might me.
He was to be married early in August. Everything was arranged. The
honeymoon was to be spent in Sweden and Norway--the only accessible
part of Europe which Lady Mabel had not explored. They were to see
everything remarkable in the two countries, and to do Denmark as well,
if they had time. Lady Mabel was learning Swedish and Norwegian, in
order to make the most of her opportunities.
"It is so wretched to be dependent upon couriers and interpreters," she
said. "I shall be a more useful companion for you, Roderick, if I
thoroughly know the language of each country."
"My dear Mabel, you are a most remarkable girl," exclaimed her
betrothed admiringly. "If you go on at this rate, by the time you are
forty you will be as great a linguist as Cardinal Wiseman."
"Languages are very easy to learn when one has the habit of studying
them, and a slight inclination for etymology," Lady Mabel replied
modestly.
Now that the hour of publication was really drawing nigh, the poetess
began to feel the need of a confidante. The Duchess was admiring but
somewhat obtuse, and rarely admired in the right place. The Duke was
out of the question.
If a new Shakespeare had favoured him with the first reading of a
tragedy as great as "Hamlet," the Duke's thoughts would have wandered
off to the impending dearth of guano, or the probable exhaustion of
Suffolk punches, and the famous breed of Chillingham oxen. So, for want
of anyone better, Lady Mabel was constrained to read her verses to her
future husband; just as Molière reads his plays to his housekeeper, for
want of any other hearer, the two Béjarts, aunt and niece, having
naturally plays enough and to spare in the theatre.
Now, in this crucial hour of her poetic career, Mabel Ashbourne wanted
something more than a patient listener. She wanted a critic with a fine
ear for rhythm and euphony. She wanted a judge who could nicely weigh
the music of a certain combination of syllables, and who could decide
for her when she hesitated between two epithets of equal force, but
varying depths of tone.
To this nice task she invited her betrothed sometimes on a sunny April
afternoon, when luncheon was over, and the lovers were free to repair
to Lady Mabel's own particular den--an airy room on an upper floor,
with quaint old Queen Anne casements opening upon a balcony crammed
with flowers, and overlooking the umbrageous avenues of Kensington
Garden, with a glimpse of the old red palace in the distance.
Rorie did his best to be useful, and applied himself to his duty with
perfect heartiness and good-temper; but luncheon and the depressing
London atmosphere made him sleepy, and he had sometimes hard work to
stifle his yawns, and to keep his eyes open, while Lady Mabel was deep
in the entanglement of lines which soared to the seventh heaven of
metaphysics. Unhappily Rorie knew hardly anything about metaphysics. He
had never read Victor Cousin, or any of the great German lights; and a
feeling of despair took possession of him when his sweetheart's poetry
degenerated into diluted Hegelism, or rose to a feeble imitation of
Browning's obscurest verse.
"Either I must be intensely stupid or this must be rather difficult to
understand," he thought helplessly, when Mabel had favoured him with
the perusal of the first act of a tragedy or poetic dialogue, in which
the hero, a kind of milk-and-watery Faustus, held converse, and argued
upon the deeper questions of life and faith, with a very mild Mephisto.
"I'm afraid you don't like the opening of my 'Tragedy of the Sceptic
Soul'," Lady Mabel said with a somewhat offended air, as she looked up
at the close of the act, and saw poor Rorie gazing at her with watery
eyes, and an intensely despondent expression of countenance.
"I'm afraid I'm rather dense this afternoon," he said with hasty
apology, "I think your first act is beautifully written--the lines are
full of music; nobody with an ear for euphony could doubt that; but
I--forgive me, I fancy you are sometimes a shade too metaphysical--and
those scientific terms which you occasionally employ, I fear will be a
little over the heads of the general public----"
"My dear Roderick, do you suppose that in an age whose highest
characteristic is the rapid advance of scientific knowledge, there can
be anybody so benighted as not to understand the terminology of
science?"
"Perhaps not, dear. I fear I am very much behind the times. I have
lived too much in Hampshire. I frankly confess that some expressions in
your--er--Tragedy of--er--Soulless Scept--Sceptic Soul--were Greek to
me."
"Poor dear Roderick, I should hardly take you as the highest example of
the _Zeitgeist;_ but I won't allow you to call yourself stupid. I'm
glad you like the swing of the verse. Did it remind you of any
contemporary poet?"
"Well, yes, I think it dimly suggested Browning."
"I am glad of that. I would not for worlds be an imitator; but Browning
is my idol among poets."
"Some of his minor pieces are awfully jolly," said the incorrigible
Rorie. "That little poem called 'Youth and Art,' for instance. And
'James Lee's Wife' is rather nice, if one could quite get at what it
means. But I suppose that is too much to expect from any great poet?"
"There are deeper meanings beneath the surface--meanings which require
study," replied Mabel condescendingly. "Those are the religion of
poetry----"
"No doubt," assented Rorie hastily; "but frankly, my dear Mabel, if you
want your book to be popular----"
"I don't want my book to be popular. Browning is not popular. If I had
wanted to be popular, I should have worked on a lower level. I would
even have stooped to write a novel."
"Well then I will say, if you want your poem to be understood by the
average intellect, I really would sink the scientific terminology, and
throw overboard a good deal of the metaphysics. Byron has not a
scientific or technical phrase in all his poems."
"My dear Roderick, you surely would not compare me to Byron, the poet
of the Philistines. You might as well compare me with the author of
'Lalla Rookh,' or advise me to write like Rogers or Campbell."
"I beg your pardon, my dear Mabel. I'm afraid I must be an out and out
Philistine, for to my mind Byron is the prince of poets. I would rather
have written 'The Giaour' than anything that has ever been published
since it appeared."
"My poor Roderick!" exclaimed Mabel, with a pitying sigh. "You might as
well say you would be proud of having written 'The Pickwick Papers'."
"And so I should!" cried Rorie heartily. "I should think no end of
myself if I had invented Winkle. Do you remember his ride from
Rochester to Dingley Dell?--one of the finest things that was ever
written."
And this incorrigible young man flung himself back in the low
arm-chair, and laughed heartily at the mere recollection of that
episode in the life of the famous Nathaniel. Mabel Ashbourne closed her
manuscript volume with a sigh, and registered an oath that she would
never read any more of her poetry to Roderick Vawdrey. It was quite
useless. The poor young man meant well, but he was incorrigibly
stupid--a man who admired Byron and Dickens, and believed Macaulay the
first of historians.
"In the realm of thought we must dwell apart all our lives," Mabel told
herself despairingly.
"The horses are ordered for five," she said, as she locked the precious
volume in her desk; "will you get yours and come back for me?"
"I shall be delighted," answered her lover, relieved at being let off
so easily.
It was about this time that Lord Mallow, who was working with all his
might for the regeneration of his country, made a great hit in the
House by his speech on the Irish land question. He had been doing
wonderful things in Dublin during the winter, holding forth to
patriotic assemblies in the Round Room of the Rotunda, boldly declaring
himself a champion of the Home Rulers' cause, demanding Repeal and
nothing but Repeal. He was one of the few Repealers who had a stake in
the country, and who was likely to lose by the disruption of social
order. If foolish, he was at least disinterested, and had the courage
of his opinions. This was in the days when Mr. Gladstone was Prime
Minister, and when Irish Radicals looked to him as the one man who
could and would give them Home Rule.
In the House of Commons Lord Mallow was not ashamed to repeat the
arguments he had used in the Round Room. If his language was less
vehement at Westminster than it had been in Dublin, his opinions were
no less thorough. He had his party here, as well as on the other side
of the Irish Channel; and his party applauded him. Here was a statesman
and a landowner willing to give an ell, where Mr. Gladstone's Land Act
gave only an inch. Hibernian newspapers sung his praises in glowing
words, comparing him to Burke, Curran, and O'Connell. He had for some
time been a small lion at evening parties; he now began to be lionised
at serious dinners. He was thought much of in Carlton Gardens, and his
name figured at official banquets in Downing Street. The Duchess of
Dovedale considered it a nice trait in his character that, although he
was so much in request, and worked so hard in the House, he never
missed one of her Thursday evenings. Even when there was an important
debate on he would tear up Birdcage Walk in a hansom, and spend an hour
in the Duchess's amber drawing-rooms, enlightening Lady Mabel as to the
latest aspect of the Policy of Conciliation, or standing by the piano
while she played Chopin.
Lord Mallow had never forgotten his delight at finding a young lady
thoroughly acquainted with the history of his native land, thoroughly
interested in Erin's struggles and Erin's hopes; a young lady who knew
all about the Protestants of Ulster, and what was meant by Fixity of
Tenure. He came to Lady Mabel naturally in his triumphs, and he came to
her in his disappointments. She was pleased and flattered by his faith
in her wisdom, and was always ready to lend a gracious ear. She, whose
soul was full of ambition, was deeply interested in the career of an
ambitious young man--a man who had every excuse for being shallow and
idle, and yet was neither.
"If Roderick were only like him there would be nothing wanting in my
life," she thought regretfully. "I should have felt much a pride in a
husband's fame, I should have worked so gladly to assist him in his
career. The driest blue-books would not have been too weary for me--the
dullest drudgery of parliamentary detail would have been pleasant work,
if it could have helped him in his progress to political distinctions."
One evening, when Mabel and Lord Mallow were standing in the embrasure
of a window, walled in by the crowd of aristocratic nobodies and
intellectual eccentricities, talking earnestly of poor Erin and her
chances of ultimate happiness, the lady, almost unawares, quoted a
couplet of her own which seemed peculiarly applicable to the argument.
"Whose lines are those?" Lord Mallow asked eagerly; "I never heard them
before."
Mabel blushed like a schoolgirl detected in sending a valentine.
"Upon my soul," cried the Irishman, "I believe they are your own! Yes,
I am sure of it. You, whose mind is so high above the common level,
must sometimes express yourself in poetry. They are yours, are they
not?"
"Can you keep a secret?" Lady Mabel asked shyly.
"For you? Yes, on the rack. Wild horses should not tear it out of my
heart; boiling lead, falling on me drop by drop, should not extort it
from me."
"The lines are mine. I have written a good deal--in verse. I am going
to publish a volume, anonymously, before the season is over. It is
quite a secret. No one--except mamma and papa, and Mr. Vawdrey--knows
anything about it."
"How proud they--how especially proud Mr. Vawdrey must be of your
genius," said Lord Mallow. "What a lucky fellow he is."
He was thinking just at that moment of Violet Tempest, to whose secret
preference for Roderick Vawdrey he attributed his own rejection. And
now here--where again he might have found the fair ideal of his
youthful dreams--here where he might have hoped to form an alliance at
once socially and politically advantageous--this young Hampshire's
squire was before him.
"I don't think Mr. Vawdrey is particularly interested in my poetical
efforts," Lady Mabel said with assumed carelessness. "He doesn't care
for poetry. He likes Byron."
"What an admirable epigram!" cried the Hibernian, to whom flattery was
second nature. "I shall put that down in my commonplace book when I go
home. How I wish you would honour me--but it is to ask too much,
perhaps--how proud I should be if you would let me hear, or see, some
of your poems."
"Would you really like----?" faltered Lady Mabel.
"Like! I should deem it the highest privilege your friendship could
vouchsafe."
"If I felt sure it would not bore you, I should like much to have your
opinion, your candid opinion," (Lord Mallow tried to look the essense
of candour) "upon some things I have written. But it would be really to
impose too much upon your good-nature."
"It would be to make me the proudest, and--for that one brief hour at
least--the happiest of men," protested Lord Mallow, looking intensely
sentimental.
"And you will deal frankly with me? You will not flatter? You will be
as severe as an Edinburgh reviewer?"
"I will be positively brutal," said Lord Mallow. "I will try to imagine
myself an elderly feminine contributor to the 'Saturday,' looking at
you with vinegar gaze through a pair of spectacles, bent upon spotting
every fleck and flaw in your work, and predetermined not to see
anything good in it."
"Then I will trust you!" cried Lady Mabel, with a gush. "I have longed
for a listener who could understand and criticise, and who would be too
honourable to flatter. I will trust you, as Marguerite of Valois
trusted Clement Marot."
Lord Mallow did not know anything about the French poet and his royal
mistress, but he contrived to look as if he did. And, before he ran
away to the House presently, he gave Lady Mabel's hand a tender little
pressure which she accepted in all good faith as a sign manual of the
compact between them.
They met in the Row next morning, and Lord Mallow asked--as earnestly
as if the answer involved vital issues--when he might be permitted to
hear those interesting poems.
"Whenever you can spare time to listen," answered Lady Mabel, more
flattered by his earnestness than by all the adulatory nigar-plums
which had been showered upon her since her _début_. "If you have
nothing better to do this afternoon----"
"Could I have anything better to do?"
"We won't enter upon so wide a question," said Lady Mabel, laughing
prettily. "If committee-rooms and public affairs can spare you for an
hour or two, come to tea with mamma at five. I'll get her to deny
herself to all the rest of the world, and we can have an undisturbed
hour in which you can deal severely with my poor little efforts."
Thus it happened that, in the sweet spring weather, while Roderick was
on the stand at Epsom, watching the City and Suburban winner pursue his
meteor course along the close-cropped sward, Lord Mallow was sitting at
ease in a flowery fauteuil in the Queen Anne morning-room at
Kensington, sipping orange-scented tea out of eggshell porcelain, and
listening to Lady Mabel's dulcet accents, as she somewhat monotonously
and inexpressively rehearsed "The Tragedy of a Sceptic Soul."
The poem was long, and, sooth to say, passing dreary; and, much as he
admired the Duke's daughter, there were moments when Lord Mallow felt
his eyelids drooping, and heard a buzzing, as of summer insects, in his
ears.
There was no point of interest in all this rhythmical meandering
whereon the hapless young nobleman could fix his attention. Another
minute and his sceptic soul would be wandering at ease in the flowery
fields of sleep. He pulled himself together with an effort, just as the
eggshell cup and saucer were slipping from his relaxing grasp. He asked
the Duchess for another cup of that delicious tea. He gazed resolutely
at the fair-faced maiden, whose rosy lips moved graciously, discoursing
shallowest platitudes clothed in erudite polysyllables, and then at the
first pause--when Lady Mabel laid down her velvet-bound volume, and
looked timidly upward for his opinion--Lord Mallow poured forth a
torrent of eloquence, such as he always had in stock, and praised "The
Sceptic Soul" as no poem and no poet had ever been praised before, save
by Hibernian critic.
The richness, the melody, the depth, colour, brilliance, tone, variety,
far-reaching thought, &c., &c., &c.
He was so grateful to Providence for having escaped falling asleep that
he could have gone on for ever in this strain. But if anyone had asked
Lord Mallow what "The Tragedy of a Sceptic Soul" was about, Lord Mallow
would have been spun.
When a strong-minded woman is weak upon one particular point she is apt
to be very weak. Lady Mabel's weakness was to fancy herself a second
Browning. She had never yet enjoyed the bliss of having her own idea of
herself confirmed by independent evidence. Her soul thrilled as Lord
Mallow poured forth his praises; talking of "The Book and the Ring,"
and "Paracelsus," and a great deal more, of which he knew very little,
and seeing in the expression of Lady Mabel's eyes and mouth that he was
saying exactly the right thing, and could hardly say too much.
They were _tête-à-tête_ by this time, for the Duchess was sleeping
frankly, her crewel-work drooping from the hands that lay idle in her
lap; her second cup of tea on the table beside her, half-finished.
"I don't know how it is," she was wont to say apologetically, after
these placid slumbers. "There is something in Mabel's voice that always
sends me to sleep. Her tones are so musical."
"And do you really advise me to publish?" asked Lady Mabel, fluttered
and happy.
"It would be a sin to keep such verses hidden from the world."
"They will be published anonymously, of course. I could not endure to
be pointed at as the author of 'The Sceptic Soul.' To feel that every
eye was upon me--at the opera--in the Row--everywhere! It would be too
dreadful. I should be proud to know that I had influenced my age--given
a new bent to thought--but no one must be able to point at me."
"'Thou canst not say I did it,'" quoted Lord Mallow. "I entirely
appreciate your feelings. Publicity of that sort must be revolting to a
delicate mind. I should think Byron would have enjoyed life a great
deal better if he had never been known as the author of 'Childe
Harold.' He reduced himself to a social play-actor--and always had to
pose in his particular rôle--the Noble Poet. If Bacon really wrote the
plays we call Shakespeare's, and kept the secret all his life, he was
indeed the wisest of mankind."
"You have done nothing but praise me," said Lady Mabel, after a
thoughtful pause, during which she had trifled with the golden clasp of
her volume; "I want you to do something more than that. I want you to
advise--to tell me where I am redundant--to point out where I am weak.
I want you to help me in the labour of polishing."
Lord Mallow pulled his whisker doubtfully. This was dreadful. He should
have to go into particulars presently, to say what lines pleased him
best, which of the various meters into which the tragedy was broken
up--like a new suburb into squares and crescents and streets--seemed to
him happiest and most original.
"Can you trust me with that precious volume?" he asked. "If you can, I
will spend the quiet hours of the night in pondering over its pages,
and will give you the result of my meditations to-morrow."
Mabel put the book into his hand with a grateful smile.
"Pray be frank with me," she pleaded. "Praise like yours is perilous."
Lord Mallow kissed her hand this time, instead of merely pressing it,
and went away radiant, with the velvet-bound book under his arm.
"She's a sweet girl," he said to himself, as he hailed a cab. "I wish
she wasn't engaged to that Hampshire booby, and I wish she didn't write
poetry. Hard that I should have to do the Hampshire booby's work! If I
were to leave this book in a hansom now--there'd be an awful situation!"
Happily for the rising statesman, he was blest with a clever young
secretary, who wrote a good many letters for him, read blue-books, got
up statistics, and interviewed obtrusive visitors from the Green Isle.
To this young student Lord Mallow, in strictest secrecy, confided Lady
Mabel's manuscript.
"Read it carefully, Allan, while I'm at the house, and make a note of
everything that's bad on one sheet of paper, and of everything that's
good on another. You may just run your pencil along the margin wherever
you think I might write 'divine!' 'grandly original!' 'what pathos!' or
anything of that sort."
The secretary was a conscientious young man, and did his work nobly. He
sat far into the small hours, ploughing through "The Sceptic Soul." It
was tough work; but Mr. Allan was Scotch and dogged, and prided himself
upon his critical faculty. This autopsy of a fine lady's poem was a
congenial labour. He scribbled pages of criticism, went into the
minutest details of style, found a great deal to blame and not much to
praise, and gave his employer a complete digest of the poem before
breakfast next morning.
Lord Mallow attended the Duchess's kettledrum again that afternoon, and
this time he was in no wise at sea. He handled "The Sceptic Soul" as if
every line of it had been engraven on the tablet of his mind.
"See here now," he cried, turning to a pencilled margin; "I call this a
remarkable passage, yet I think it might be strengthened by some
trifling excisions;" and then he showed Lady Mabel how, by pruning
twenty lines off a passage of thirty-one, a much finer effect might be
attained.
"And you really think my thought stands out more clearly?" asked Mabel,
looking regretfully at the lines through which Lord Mallow had run his
pencil--some of her finest lines.
"I am sure of it. That grand idea of yours was like a star in a hazy
sky. We have cleared away the fog."
Lady Mabel sighed. "To me the meaning of the whole passage seemed so
obvious," she said.
"Because it was your own thought. A mother knows her own children
however they are dressed."
This second tea-drinking was a very serious affair. Lord Mallow went at
the poem like a professional reviewer, and criticised without mercy,
yet contrived not to wound the author's vanity.
"It is because you have real genius that I venture to be brutally
candid," he said, when, by those slap-dash pencil-marks of his--always
with the author's consent--he had reduced the "Tragedy of the Sceptic
Soul" to about one-third of its original length. "I was carried away
yesterday by my first impressions; to-day I am coldly critical. I have
set my heart upon your poem making a great success."
This last sentence, freely translated, might be taken to mean: "I
should not like such an elegant young woman to make an utter fool of
herself."
Mr. Vawdrey came in while critic and poet were at work, and was told
what they were doing. He evinced no unworthy jealousy, but seemed glad
that Lord Mallow should be so useful.
"It's a very fine poem," he said, "but there's too much metaphysics in
it. I told Mabel so the other day. She must alter a good deal of it if
she wants to be understanded of the people."
"My dear Roderick, my poem is metaphysical or it is nothing," Mabel
answered pettishly.
She could bear criticism from Lord Mallow better than criticism from
Roderick. After this it became an established custom for Lord Mallow to
drop in every day to inspect the progress of Lady Mabel's poems in the
course of their preparation for the press. The business part of the
matter had been delegated to him, as much more _au fait_ in such things
than homely rustic Rorie. He chose the publisher and arranged the size
of the volume, type, binding, initials, tail-pieces, every detail. The
paper was to be thick and creamy, the type mediaeval, the borders were
to be printed in carmine, the initials and tail-pieces specially drawn
and engraved, and as quaint as the wood-cuts in an old edition of "_Le
Lutrin_." The book was to have red edges, and a smooth gray linen
binding with silver lettering. It was to be altogether a gem of
typographic art, worthy of Firmin Didot.
By the end of May, Lady Mabel's poems were all in type, and there was
much discussion about commas and notes of admiration, syllables too
much or too little, in the flowery morning-room at Kensington, what
time Roderick Vawdrey--sorely at a loss for occupation--wasted the
summer hours at races or regattas within easy reach of London, or went
to out-of-the-way places, to look at hunters of wonderful repute,
which, on inspection, were generally disappointing.
CHAPTER V.
Crumpled Rose-Leaves.
Violet Tempest had been away from home nearly a year, and to the few
old servants remaining at the Abbey House, and to the villagers who had
known and loved her, it seemed as if a light had gone out.
"It's like it was after the Squire's death, when miss and her ma was
away," said one gossip to another; "the world seems empty."
Mrs. Winstanley and her husband had been living as became people of
some pretension to rank and fashion. They saw very little of each
other, but were seen together on all fitting occasions. The morning
service in the little church at Beechdale would not have seemed
complete without those two figures. The faded beauty in trailing silken
draperies and diaphanous bonnet, the slim, well-dressed Captain, with
his bronzed face and black whiskers. They were in everybody's idea the
happiest example of married bliss. If the lady's languid loveliness had
faded more within the last year or so than in the ten years that went
before it, if her slow step had grown slower, her white hand more
transparent, there were no keen loving eyes to mark the change.
"That affectation of valetudinarianism is growing on Mrs. Winstanley,"
Mrs. Scobel said one day to her husband. "It is a pity. I believe the
Captain encourages it."
"She has not looked so well since Violet went away," answered the
kindly parson. "It seems an unnatural thing for mother and daughter to
be separated."
"I don't know that, dear. The Bible says a man should leave mother and
father and cleave to his wife. Poor Violet was a discordant element in
that household. Mrs. Winstanley must feel much happier now she is away."
"I can't tell how she feels," answered the Vicar doubtfully; "but she
does not look so happy as she did when Violet was at home."
"The fact is she gives way too much," exclaimed active little Mrs.
Scobel, who had never given way in her life. "When she has a head-ache
she lies in bed, and has the venetian blinds kept down, just as if she
were dying. No wonder she looks pale and----"
"Etiolated," said the Vicar; "perishing for want of light. But I
believe it's moral sunshine that is wanted there, my dear Fanny, say
what you will."
Mr. Scobel was correct in his judgment. Pamela Winstanley was a most
unhappy woman--an unhappy woman without one tangible cause of
complaint. True that her daughter was banished; but she was banished
with the mother's full consent. Her personal extravagances had been
curtailed; but she was fain to admit that the curtailment was wise,
necessary, and for her own future benefit. Her husband was all
kindness; and surely she could not be angry with him if he seemed to
grow younger every day--rejuvenated by regular habits and rustic
life--while in her wan face the lines of care daily deepened, until it
would have needed art far beyond the power of any modern Medea to
conceal Time's ravages. Your modern Medeas are such poor
creatures--loathsome as Horace's Canidia, but without her genius or her
power.
"I am getting an old woman," sighed Mrs. Winstanley. "It is lucky I am
not without resources against solitude and age."
Her resources were a tepid appreciation of modern idyllic poetry, as
exemplified in the weaker poems of Tennyson, and the works of Adelaide
Proctor and Jean Ingelow, a talent for embroidering conventional
foliage and flowers on kitchen towelling, and for the laborious
conversion of Nottingham braid into Venetian point-lace.
She had taken it into her head of late to withdraw herself altogether
from society, save from such friends who liked her well enough, or were
sufficiently perplexed as to the disposal of their lives, to waste an
occasional hour over gossip and orange pekoe. She had now permanently
assumed that _rôle_ of an invalid which she had always somewhat
affected.
"I am really not well enough to go to dinner-parties, Conrad," she
said, when her husband politely argued against her refusal of an
invitation, with just that mild entreaty which too plainly means, "I
don't care a jot whether you go with me or stay at home."
"But, my dear Pamela, a little gaiety would give you a fillip."
"No, it would not, Conrad. It would worry me to go to Lady Ellangowan's
in one of last season's dresses; and I quite agree with you that I must
spend no more money with Theodore."
"Why not wear your black velvet?"
"Too obvious a _pis aller_. I have not enough diamonds to carry off
black velvet."
"But your fine old lace--rose-point, I think you call it--surely that
would carry off black velvet for once in a way."
"My dear Conrad, Lady Ellangowan knows my rose-point by heart. She
always compliments me about it--an artful way of letting me know often
she has seen it. 'Oh there is that rose-point of yours, dear Mrs.
Winstanley; it is too lovely.' I know her! No, Conrad; I will not go to
the Ellangowans in a dress made last year; or in any _réchauffé_ of
velvet and lace. I hope I have a proper pride that would always
preserve me from humiliation of that kind. Besides, I am not strong
enough to go to parties. You may not believe me, Conrad, but I am
really ill."
The Captain put on an unhappy look, and murmured something sympathetic:
but he did not believe in the reality of his wife's ailments. She had
played the invalid more or less ever since their marriage; and he had
grown accustomed to the assumption as a part of his wife's daily
existence--a mere idiosyncrasy, like her love of fine dress and strong
tea. If at dinner she ate hardly enough for a bird, he concluded that
she had spoiled her appetite at luncheon, or by the consumption of
sweet biscuits and pound-cake at five o'clock. Her refusal of all
invitations to dinners and garden-parties he attributed to her folly
about dress, and to that alone. Those other reasons which she put
forward--of weakness, languor, low spirits--were to Captain
Winstanley's mind mere disguises for temper. She had not, in her heart
of hearts, forgiven him for closing Madame Theodore's account.
Thus, wilfully blind to a truth which was soon to become obvious to all
the world, he let the insidious foe steal across his threshold, and
guessed not how soon that dark and hidden enemy was to drive him from
the hearth by which he sat, secure in self-approval and sagacious
schemes for the future.
Once a week, through all the long year, there had come a dutiful letter
from Violet to her mother. The letters were often brief--what could the
girl find to tell in her desert island?--but they were always kind, and
they were a source of comfort to the mother's empty heart. Mrs.
Winstanley answered unfailingly, and her Jersey letter was one of the
chief events of each week. She was fonder of her daughter at a distance
than she had ever been when they were together. "That will be something
to tell Violet," she would say of any inane bit of gossip that was
whispered across the afternoon tea-cups.
CHAPTER VI.
A Fool's Paradise.
At Ashbourne preparations had already begun for the wedding in August.
It was to be a wedding worthy of a duke's only daughter, the well-beloved
and cherished child of an adoring father and mother. Kinsfolk and old
friends were coming from far and wide to assist at the ceremony, for
whom temporary rooms were to be arranged in all manner of places. The
Duchess's exquisite dairy was to be transformed into a bachelor
dormitory. Lodges and gamekeepers' cottages were utilised. Every nook
and corner in the ducal mansion would be full.
"Why not rig up a few hammocks in the nearest pine plantation?" Rorie
asked, laughing, when he heard of all these doings. "One couldn't have
a better place to sleep on a sultry summer night."
There was to be a ball for the tenantry in the evening of the
wedding-day, in a marquee on the lawn. The gardens were to be
illuminated in a style worthy of the château of Vaux, when Fouquet was
squandering a nation's revenues on lamps and fountains and venal
friends. Lady Mabel protested against all this fuss.
"Dear mamma, I would so much rather have been married quietly,' she
said.
"My dearest, it is all your papa's doing. He is so proud of you. And
then we have only one daughter; and she is not likely to be married
more than once, I hope. Why should we not have all our friends round us
at such a time?"
Mabel shrugged her shoulders, with an air of repugnance to all the
friends and all the fuss.
"Marriage is such a solemn act of one's life," she said. "It seems
dreadful that it should be performed in the midst of a gaping,
indifferent crowd."
"My love, there will not be a creature present who can feel indifferent
about your welfare," protested the devoted mother. "If our dear
Roderick had been a more distinguished person, your papa would have had
you married in Westminster Abbey. There of course there would have been
a crowd of idle spectators."
"Poor Roderick," sighed Mabel. "It is a pity he is so utterly aimless.
He might have made a career for himself by this time, if he had chosen."
"He will do something by-and-by, I daresay," said the Duchess,
excusingly. "You will be able to mould him as you like, pet."
"I have not found him particularly malleable hitherto," said Mabel.
The bride elect was out of spirits, and inclined to look despondently
upon life. She was suffering the bitter pain of disappointed hopes.
"The Tragedy of a Sceptic Soul," despite its depth of thought, its
exquisite typography and vellum-like paper, had been a dire and
irredeemable failure. The reviewers had ground the poor little
aristocratic butterfly to powder upon the wheel of ridicule. They had
anatomised Lady Mabel's involved sentences, and laughed at her erudite
phrases. Her mild adaptations of Greek thought and fancy had been found
out, and held up to contempt. Her petty plagiarisms from French and
German poets had been traced to their source. The whole work, so smooth
and neatly polished on the outside, had been turned the seamy side
without, and the knots and flaws and ravelled threads had been exposed
without pity.
Happily the book was anonymous: but Mabel writhed under the criticism.
There was the crushing disappointment of expectations that had soared
high as the topmost throne on Parnassus. She had a long way to descend.
And then there was the sickening certainty that in the eyes of her own
small circle she had made herself ridiculous. Her mother took those
cruel reviews to heart, and wept over them. The Duke, a coarse-minded
man, at best, with a soul hardly above guano and chemical composts,
laughed aloud at his poor little girl's failure.
"It's a sad disappointment, I daresay," he said, "but never mind, my
pet, you'll do better next time, I've no doubt. Or if you don't, it
doesn't much matter. Other people have fancied themselves poets, and
have been deceived, before to-day."
"Those horrid reviewers don't understand her poetry," protested the
Duchess, who would have been hard pushed to comprehend it herself, but
who thought it was a critic's business to understand everything.
"I'm afraid I have written above their heads," Lady Mabel said
piteously.
Roderick Vawdrey was worst of all.
"Didn't I tell you 'The Sceptic Soul' was too fine for ordinary
intellects, Mab?" he said. "You lost yourself in an ocean of obscurity.
You knew what you meant, but there's no man alive who could follow you.
You ought to have remembered Voltaire's definition of a metaphysical
discussion, a conversation in which the man who is talked to doesn't
understand the man who talks, and the man who talks doesn't understand
himself. You must take a simpler subject and use plainer English if you
want to please the multitude."
Mabel had told her lover before that she did not aspire to please the
multitude, that she would have esteemed such cheap and tawdry success a
humiliating failure. It was almost better not to be read at all than to
be appreciated only by the average Mudie subscriber. But she would have
liked someone to read her poems. She would have liked critics to praise
and understand her. She would have liked to have her own small world of
admirers, an esoteric few, the salt of the earth, literary Essenes,
holding themselves apart from the vulgar herd. It was dreadful to find
herself on a height as lonely as one of those plateaux in the Tyrolean
Alps where the cattle crop a scanty herbage in summer, and where the
Ice King reigns alone through the long winter.
"You are mistaken, Roderick," Mabel said with chilling dignity; "I have
friends who can understand and admire my poetry, incomprehensible and
uninteresting as it may be to you."
"Dear Mabel, I never said it was uninteresting," Roderick cried humbly;
"everything you do must be interesting to me. But I frankly own I do
not understand your verses as clearly as I think all verse should be
understood. Why should I keep all my frankness till after the first of
August? Why should the lover be less sincere than the husband? I will
be truthful even at the risk of offending you."
"Pray do," cried Mabel, with ill-suppressed irritation. "Sincerity is
such a delightful thing. No doubt my critics are sincere. They give me
the honest undisguised truth."
Rorie saw that his betrothed's literary failure was a subject to be
carefully avoided in future.
"My poor Vixen," he said to himself, with oh! what deep regret,
"perhaps it was not one of the least of your charms that you never
wrote poetry."
Lord Mallow was coming to Ashbourne for the fortnight before the
wedding. He had made himself wondrously agreeable to the Duke, and the
Duke had invited him. The House would be up by that time. It was a
delightful season for the Forest. The heather would be in bloom on all
the open heights, the glades of Mark Ash would be a solemn world of
greenery and shadow, a delicious place for picnics, flirtation, and
gipsy tea-drinkings. Lord Mallow had only seen the Forest in the
winter. It would be a grand opportunity for him.
He came, and Lady Mabel received him with a sad sweet smile. The
reviews had all appeared by this time: and, except in the _West
Dulmarsh Gazette_ and the _Ratdiff Highway Register_, there had not
been one favourable notice.
"There is a dreadful unanimity about my critics, is there not?" said
the stricken poetess, when she and Lord Mallow found themselves alone
together in one of the orchid-houses, breathing a perfumed atmosphere
at eighty degrees, vaporous, balmy, slumberous.
"You have made a tremendous mistake, Lady Mabel," said Lord Mallow.
"How do you mean?"
"You have given the world your great book without first educating your
public to receive and understand it. If Browning had done the same
thing--if Browning had burst at once upon the world with 'The Ring and
the Book' he would have been as great a failure as--as--you at present
imagine yourself to be. You should have sent forth something smaller.
You should have made the reading world familiar with a style, too
original, and of too large a power and scope, to please quickly. A
volume of ballads and idyls--a short story in simple verse--would have
prepared the way for your dramatic poem. Suppose Goethe had begun his
literary career with the second part of 'Faust'! He was too wise for
that, and wrote himself into popularity with a claptrap novel."
"I could not write a claptrap novel, or claptrap verses," sighed Lady
Mabel. "If I cannot soar above the clouds, I will never spread my poor
little wings again."
"Then you must be content to accept your failure as an evidence of the
tendencies of an essentially Philistine age--an age in which people
admire Brown, and Jones, and Robinson."
Here Lord Mallow gave a string of names, sacrificing the most famous
reputations of the age to Mabel Ashbourne's vanity.
This brief conversation in the orchid-house was the first healing balm
that had been applied to the bleeding heart of the poetess. She was
deeply grateful to Lord Mallow. This was indeed sympathy. How different
from Roderick's clumsy advice and obtrusive affectation of candour.
Mabel determined that she would do her best to make Lord Mallow's visit
pleasant. She gave him a good deal of her society, in fact all she
could spare from Roderick, who was not an exacting lover. They were so
soon to be married that really there was no occasion for them to be
greedy of _tête-à-tête_ companionship. They would have enough of each
other's company among the Norwegian fjords.
Lord Mallow did not care about riding under an almost tropical sun, nor
did he care to expose his horse to the exasperating attacks of
forest-flies; so he went about with the Duchess and her daughter in
Lady Mabel's pony carriage--he saw schools and cottages--and told the
two ladies all the grand things he meant to do on his Irish estate when
he had leisure to do them.
"You must wait till you are married," said the Duchess good-naturedly.
"Ladies understand these details so much better than gentlemen. Mabel
more than half planned those cottages you admired just now. She took
the drawings out of the architect's hands, and altered them according
to her own taste."
"And as a natural result, the cottages are perfection!" exclaimed Lord
Mallow.
That visit to Ashbourne was one of the most memorable periods in Lord
Mallow's life. He was an impressible young man, and he had been
unconsciously falling deeper in love with Lady Mabel every day during
the last three months. Her delicate beauty, her culture, her elegance,
her rank, all charmed and fascinated him; but her sympathy with Erin
was irresistible. It was not the first time that he had been in love,
by a great many times. The list of the idols he had worshipped
stretched backwards to the dim remoteness of boyhood. But to-day,
awakening all at once to a keen perception of his hapless state, he
told himself that he had never loved before as he loved now.
He had been hard hit by Miss Tempest. Yes, he acknowledged that past
weakness. He had thought her fairest and most delightful among women,
and he had left the Abbey House dejected and undone. But he had quickly
recovered from the brief fever: and now, reverentially admiring Lady
Mabel's prim propriety, he wondered that he could have ever seriously
offered himself to a girl of Vixen's undisciplined and unbroken
character.
"I should have been a miserable man by this time if she had accepted
me," he thought. "She did not care a straw about the People of Ireland."
He was deeply, hopelessly, irrecoverably in love; and the lady he loved
was to be married to another man in less than a week. The situation was
too awful. What could such a woman as Mabel Ashbourne see in such a man
as Roderick Vawdrey. That is a kind of question which has been asked
very often in the history of men and women. Lord Mallow could find no
satisfactory answer thereto. Mr. Vawdrey was well enough in his way--he
was good-looking, sufficiently well-bred; he rode well, was a
first-rate shot, and could give an average player odds at billiards.
Surely these were small claims to the love of a tenth muse, a rarely
accomplished and perfect woman. If Lord Mallow, in his heart of hearts,
thought no great things of Lady Mabel's poetic effusions, he not the
less respected her for the effort, the high-souled endeavour. A woman
who could read Euripides, who knew all that was best in modern
literature, was a woman for a husband to be proud of.
In this desperate and for the most part unsuspected condition of mind,
Lord Mallow hung upon Lady Mabel's footsteps during the days
immediately before the wedding. Roderick was superintending the
alterations at Briarwood, which were being carried on upon rather an
extravagant scale, to make the mansion worthy of the bride. Lord Mallow
was always at hand, in the orchid-houses, carrying scissors and
adjusting the hose, in the library, in the gardens, in the boudoir. He
was drinking greedily of the sweet poison. This fool's paradise of a
few days must end in darkness, desolation, despair--everything dreadful
beginning with _d;_ but the paradise was so delicious an abode that
although an angel with a flaming sword, in the shape of conscience, was
always standing at the gate, Lord Mallow would not be thrust out. He
remained; in defiance of conscience, and honour, and all those good
sentiments that should have counselled his speedy departure.
CHAPTER VII.
"It might have been."
"They are the most curious pair of lovers I ever saw in my life," said
one of the visitors at Ashbourne, a young lady who had been engaged to
be married more than once, and might fairly consider herself an
authority upon such matters. "One never sees them together."
"They are cousins," replied her companion. "What can you expect from a
courtship between cousins? It must be the most humdrum affair possible."
"All courtships are humdrum, unless there is opposition from parents,
or something out of the common order to enliven them," said somebody
else.
The speakers were a party of young ladies, who were getting through an
idle hour after breakfast in the billiard-room.
"Lady Mabel is just the sort of girl no man could be desperately in
love with," said another. "She is very pretty, and elegant, and
accomplished, and all that sort of thing--but she is so overpoweringly
well satisfied with herself that it seems superfluous for anyone to
admire her.'
"In spite of that I know of someone in this house who does immensely
admire her," asserted the young lady who had spoken first. "Much more
than I should approve if I were Mr. Vawdrey."
"I think I know----" began somebody, and then abruptly remarked: "What
a too ridiculous stroke! And I really thought I was going to make a
cannon."
This sudden change in the current of the talk was due to the appearance
of the subject of this friendly disquisition. Lady Mabel had that
moment entered, followed by Lord Mallow, not intent on billiards, like
the frivolous damsels assembled round the table. There were book-cases
all along one side of the billiard-room, containing the surplus books
that had overrun the shelves in the library; and Mabel had come to look
for a particular volume among these. It was a treatise upon the
antiquities of Ireland. Lord Mallow and Lady Mabel had been disputing
about the Round Towers.
"Of course you are right," said the Irishman, when she had triumphantly
exhibited a page which supported her side of the argument. "What a
wonderful memory you have! What a wife you would make for a statesman!
You would be worth half-a-dozen secretaries!"
Mabel blushed, and smiled faintly, with lowered eyelids.
"Do you remember that concluding picture in 'My Novel,'" she asked,
"where Violante tempts Harley Lestrange from his idle musing over
Horace, to toil through blue-books; and, when she is stealing softly
from the room, he detains her and bids her copy an extract for him? 'Do
you think I would go through this labour,' he says, 'if you were not to
halve this success? Halve the labour as well.' I have always envied
Violante that moment in her life."
"And who would not envy Harley such a wife as Violante," returned Lord
Mallow, "if she was like--the woman I picture her?"
Three hours later Lord Mallow and Lady Mabel met by accident in the
garden. It was an afternoon of breathless heat and golden sunlight, the
blue ether without a cloud--a day on which the most restless spirit
might be content to yield to the drowsiness of the atmosphere, and lie
at ease upon the sunburnt grass and bask in the glory of summer. Lord
Mallow had never felt so idle, in the whole course of his vigorous
young life.
"I don't know what has come to me," he said to himself; "I can't settle
to any kind of work; and I don't care a straw for sight-seeing with a
pack of nonentities."
A party had gone off in a drag, soon after breakfast, to see some
distant ruins; and Lord Mallow had refused to be of that party, though
it included some of the prettiest girls at Ashbourne. He had stayed at
home, on pretence of writing important letters, but had not, so far,
penned a line. "It must be the weather," said Lord Mallow.
An hour or so after luncheon he strolled out into the gardens, having
given up all idea of writing those letters, There was a wide lawn, that
sloped from the terrace in front of the drawing-room windows, a lawn
encircled by a belt of carefully-chosen timber. It was not very old
timber, but it was sufficiently umbrageous. There were tulip-trees, and
copper-beeches, and Douglas pines, and deodoras. There were shrubs of
every kind, and winding paths under the trees, and rustic benches here
and there to repose the wearied traveller.
On one of these benches, placed in a delicious spot, shaded by a group
of pines, commanding the wide view of valley and distant hill far away
towards Ringwood, Lord Mallow found Lady Mabel seated reading. She was
looking delightfully cool amidst the sultry heat of the scene,
perfectly dressed in soft white muslin, with much adornment of delicate
lace and pale-hued ribbon: but she was not looking happy. She was
gazing at the open volume on her knee, with fixed and dreamy eyes that
saw not the page; and as Lord Mallow came very near, with steps that
made no sound on the fallen pine-needles, he saw that there were tears
upon her drooping eyelids.
There are moments in every man's life when impulse is stronger than
discretion. Lord Mallow gave the reins to impulse now, and seated
himself by Lady Mabel's side, and took her hand in his, with an air of
sympathy so real that the lady forgot to be offended.
"Forgive me for having surprised your tears," he murmured gently.
"I am very foolish," she said, blushing deeply as she became aware of
the hand clasping hers, and suddenly withdrawing her own; "but there
are passages of Dante that are too pathetic."
"Oh, it was Dante!" exclaimed Lord Mallow, with a disappointed air.
He looked down at the page on her lap.
"Yes, naturally."
She had been reading about Paolo and Francesca--that one episode, in
all the catalogue of sin and sorrow, which melts every heart; a page at
which the volume seems to open of its own accord.
Lord Mallow leaned down and read the lines in a low voice, slowly, with
considerable feeling; and then he looked softly up at Mabel Ashbourne,
and at the landscape lying below them, in all the glow and glory of the
summer light, and looked back to the lady, with his hand still on the
book.
The strangeness of the situation: they two alone in the garden, unseen,
unheard by human eye or ear; the open book between them--a subtle bond
of union--hinting at forbidden passion.
"They were deeply to be pitied," said Lord Mallow, meaning the guilty
lovers.
"It was very sad," murmured Lady Mabel.
"But they were neither the first nor the last who have found out too
late that they were created to be happy in each other's love, and had
by an accident missed that supreme chance of happiness," said Lord
Mallow, with veiled intention.
Mabel sighed, and took the book from the gentleman's hand, and drew a
little farther off on the bench. She was not the kind of young woman to
yield tremblingly to the first whisper of an unauthorised love. It was
all very well to admire Francesca, upon strictly aesthetic grounds, as
the perfection of erring womanhood, beautiful even in her guilt.
Francesca had lived so long ago--in days so entirely mediaeval, that
one could afford to regard her with indulgent pity. But it was not to
be supposed that a modern duke's daughter was going to follow that
unfortunate young woman's example, and break plighted vows. Betrothal,
in the eyes of so exalted a moralist as Lady Mabel, was a tie but one
degree less sacred than marriage.
"Why did you not go to see the ruins?" she asked, resuming her society
tone.
"Because I was in a humour in which ruins would have been unutterably
odious. Indeed, Lady Mabel, I am just now very much of Macbeth's
temper, when he began to be a-weary of the sun."
"Has the result of the session disappointed you?"
"Naturally. When was that ever otherwise? Parliament opens full of
promise, like a young king who has just ascended the throne, and
everybody is to be made happy; all burdens are to be lightened, the
seeds of all good things that have been hidden deep in earth through
the slow centuries are to germinate all at once, and blossom, and bear
fruit. And the session comes to an end; and, lo! a great many good
things have been talked about, and no good thing has been done. That is
in the nature of things. No, Lady Mabel, it is not that which makes me
unhappy."
He waited for her to ask him what his trouble was, but she kept silence.
"No," he repeated, "it is not that."
Again there was no reply; and he went on awkwardly, like an actor who
has missed his cue.
"Since I have known you I have been at once too happy and too wretched.
Happy--unspeakably happy in your society; miserable in the knowledge
that I could never be more to you than an unit in the crowd."
"You were a great deal more to me than that," said Mabel softly. She
bad been on her guard against him just now, but when he thus abased
himself before her she took pity upon him, and became dangerously
amiable. "I shall never forget your kindness about those wretched
verses."
"I will not hear you speak ill of them," cried Lord Mallow indignantly.
"You have but shared the common fate of genius, in having a mind in
advance of your age."
Lady Mabel breathed a gentle sigh of resignation.
"I am not so weak as to think myself a genius," she murmured; "but I
venture to hope my poor verses will be better understood twenty years
hence than they are now."
"Undoubtedly!" cried Lord Mallow, with conviction. "Look at Wordsworth;
in his lifetime the general reading public considered him a prosy old
gentleman, who twaddled pleasantly about lakes and mountains, and
pretty little peasant girls. The world only awakened ten years ago to
the fact of his being a great poet and a sublime philosopher; and I
shouldn't be very much surprised," added Lord Mallow meditatively, "if
in ten years more the world were to go to sleep again and forget him."
Lady Mabel looked at her watch.
"I think I will go in and give mamma her afternoon cup of tea," she
said.
"Don't go yet," pleaded Lord Mallow, "it is only four, and I know the
Duchess does not take tea till five. Give me one of your last hours. A
lady who is just going to be married is something like Socrates after
his sentence. Her friends surround her; she is in their midst, smiling,
serene, diffusing sweetness and light; but they know she is going from
them--they are to lose her, yes, to lose her almost as utterly as if
she were doomed to die."
"That is taking a very dismal view of marriage," said Mabel, pale, and
trifling nervously with her watch-chain.
This was the first time Lord Mallow had spoken to her of the
approaching event.
"Is it not like death? Does it not bring change and parting to old
friends? When you are Lady Mabel Vawdrey, can I ever be with you as I
am now? You will have new interests, you will be shut in by a network
of new ties. I shall come some morning to see you amidst your new
surroundings, and shall find a stranger. My Lady Mabel will be dead and
buried."
There is no knowing how long Lord Mallow might have meandered on in
this dismal strain, if he had not been seasonably interrupted by the
arrival of Mr. Vawdrey, who came sauntering along the winding
shrubbery-walk, with his favourite pointer Hecate at his heels. He
advanced towards his betrothed at the leisurely pace of a man whose
courtship is over, whose fate is sealed, and from whom society exacts
nothing further, except a decent compliance with the arrangements other
people make for him.
He seemed in no wise disconcerted at finding his sweetheart and Lord
Mallow seated side by side, alone, in that romantic and solitary spot.
He pressed Mabel's hand kindly, and gave the Irishman a friendly nod.
"What have you been doing with yourself all the morning, Roderick?"
asked Lady Mabel, with that half-reproachful air which is almost the
normal expression of a betrothed young lady in her converse with her
lover.
"Oh, pottering about at Briarwood. The workmen are such fools. I am
making some slight alterations in the stables, on a plan of my
own--putting in mangers, and racks, and pillars, and partitions, from
the St. Pancras Ironworks, making sanitary improvements and so on--and
I have to contend with so much idiocy in our local workmen. If I did
not stand by and see drain-pipes put in and connections made, I believe
the whole thing would go wrong."
"It must be very dreadful for you," exclaimed Lady Mabel.
"It must be intolerable!" cried Lord Mallow; "what, when the moments
are golden, when 'Love takes up the glass of Time, and turns it in his
glowing hands,' when 'Love takes up the harp of life, and smites on all
the chords with might,' you have to devote your morning to watching the
laying of drain-pipes and digging of sewers! I cannot imagine a more
afflicted man."
Lady Mabel saw the sneer, but her betrothed calmly ignored it.
"Of course it's a nuisance," he said carelessly; "but I had rather be
my own clerk of the works than have the whole thing botched. I thought
you were going to Wellbrook Abbey with the house party, Mabel?"
"I know every stone of the Abbey by heart. No, I have been dawdling
about the grounds all the afternoon. It is much too warm for riding or
driving."
Lady Mabel strangled an incipient yawn. She had not yawned once in all
her talk with Lord Mallow. Rorie stifled another, and Lord Mallow
walked up and down among the pine-needles, like a caged lion. It would
have been polite to leave the lovers to themselves, perhaps. They might
have family matters to discuss, settlements, wedding presents, Heaven
knows what. But Lord Mallow was not going to leave them alone. He was
in a savage humour, in which the petty rules and regulations of a
traditionary etiquette were as nothing to him. So he stayed, pacing
restlessly, with his hands in his pockets, and inwardly delighted at
the stupid spectacle presented by the affianced lovers, who had nothing
to say to each other, and were evidently bored to the last degree by
their own society.
"This is the deplorable result of trying to ferment the small beer of
cousinly affection into the Maronean wine of passionate love," thought
Lord Mallow. "Idiotic parents have imagined that these two people ought
to marry, because they were brought up together, and the little girl
took kindly to the little boy. What little girl does not take kindly to
anything in the shape of a boy, when they are both in the nursery?
Hence these tears."
"I am going to pour out mamma's tea," Lady Mabel said presently, keenly
sensible of the stupidity of her position. "Will you come, Roderick?
Mamma will be glad to know that you are alive. She was wondering about
you all the time we were at luncheon."
"I ought not to have been off duty so long," Mr. Vawdrey answered
meekly; "but if you could only imagine the stupidity of those
bricklayers! The day before yesterday I found half-a-dozen stalwart
fellows sitting upon a wall, with their hands in their corduroy
pockets, smoking short pipes, and, I believe, talking politics. They
pretended to be at a standstill because their satellites--their _âmes
damnées_, the men who hold their hods and mix their mortar--had not
turned up. 'Don't disturb yourselves, gentlemen,' I said. 'There's
nothing like taking things easy. It's a time-job. I'll send you the
morning papers and a can of beer.' And so I did, and since that day, do
you know, the fellows have worked twice as hard. They don't mind being
bullied; but they can't stand chaff."
"What an interesting bit of character," said Lady Mabel, with a faintly
perceptible sneer. "Worthy of Henri Constant."
"May I come to the Duchess's kettledrum?' asked Lord Mallow humbly.
"By all means," answered Mabel. "How fond you gentlemen pretend to be
of afternoon tea, nowadays. But I don't believe it is the tea you
really care for. It is the gossip you all like. Darwin has found out
that the male sex is the vain sex: but I don't think he has gone so far
as to discover another great truth. It is the superior sex for whom
scandal has the keenest charm."
"I have never heard the faintest hiss of the serpent slander at the
Duchess's tea-table," said Lord Mallow.
"No; we are dreadfully behind the age," assented Lady Mabel. "We
continue to exist without thinking ill of our neighbours."
They all three sauntered towards the house, choosing the sheltered
ways, and skirting the broad sunny lawn, whose velvet sward, green even
in this tropical July, was the result of the latest improvements in
cultivation, ranging from such simple stimulants as bone-dust and
wood-ashes to the last development of agricultural chemistry. Lady
Mabel and her companions were for the most part silent during this
leisurely walk home, and, when one of them hazarded an observation, the
attempt at conversation had a forced air, and failed to call forth any
responsive brilliancy in the others.
The Duchess looked provokingly cool and comfortable in her
morning-room, which was an airy apartment on the first-floor, with a
wide window opening upon a rustic balcony, verandahed and trellised,
garlanded with passion-flowers and Australian clematis, and altogether
sheltered from sun and wind. The most reposeful sofas, the roomiest
arm-chairs in all the house were to be found here, covered with a cool
shining chintz of the good old-fashioned sort, apple-blossoms and
spring-flowers on a white ground.
A second window in a corner opened into a small fernery, in which there
was a miniature water-fall that trickled with a slumberous sound over
moss-grown rockwork. There could hardly have been a better room for
afternoon tea on a sultry summer day; and afternoon tea at Ashbourne
included iced coffee, and the finest peaches and nectarines that were
grown in the county; and when the Duke happened to drop in for a chat
with his wife and daughter, sometimes went as far as sherry and
Angustura bitters.
The Duchess received her daughter with her usual delighted air, as if
the ethereal-looking young lady in India muslin had verily been a
goddess.
"I hope you have not been fatiguing yourself in the orchid-houses on
such an afternoon as this, my pet," she said anxiously.
"No, indeed, mamma; it is much too warm for the orchid-houses. I have
been in the shrubbery reading, or trying to read, but it is dreadful
sleepy weather. We shall all be glad to get some tea. Oh, here it
comes."
A match pair of footmen brought a pair of silver trays: caddy, kettle,
and teapot, and cups and saucers on one; and a lavish pile of fruit,
such as Lance would have loved to paint, on the other.
Lady Mabel took up the quaint little silver caddy and made the tea.
Roderick began to eat peaches. Lord Mallow, true to his nationality,
seated himself by the Duchess, and paid her a compliment.
"There are some more parcels for you, Mabel," said the fond mother
presently, glancing at a side-table, where sundry neatly-papered
packets suggested jewellery.
"More presents, I suppose," the young lady murmured languidly. "Now I
do hope people have not sent me any more jewellery. I wear so little,
and I--"
Have so much, she was going to say, but checked herself on the verge of
a remark that savoured of vulgar arrogance.
She went on with the tea-making, uncurious as to the inside of those
dainty-looking parcels. She had been surfeited with presents before she
left her nursery. A bracelet or a locket more or less could not make
the slightest difference in her feelings. She entertained a
condescending pity for the foolish people who squandered their money in
buying her such things, when they ought to know that she had a
superfluity of much finer jewels than any they could give her.
"Don't you want to see your presents?" asked Rorie, looking at her, in
half-stupid wonder at such calm superiority.
"They will keep till we have done tea. I can guess pretty well what
they are like. How many church-services have people sent me, mamma?"
"I think the last made fourteen," murmured the Duchess, trifling with
her tea-spoon.
"And how many 'Christian Years'?"
"Nine."
"And how many copies of Doré's 'Idylls of the King'?"
"One came this morning from Mrs. Scobel. I think it was the fifth."
"How many lockets inscribed with A. E. I. or 'Mizpah'?"
"My darling, I could not possibly count those. There were three more by
post this morning."
"You see there is rather a sameness in these things," said Lady Mabel;
"and you can understand why I am not rabidly curious about the contents
of these parcels. I feel sure there will be another 'Mizpah' among
them."
She had received Lord Mallow's tribute, an Irish jaunting-car, built
upon the newest lines, and altogether a most perfect vehicle for
driving to a meet in, so light and perfectly balanced as to travel
safely through the ruttiest glade in Mark Ash.
Rorie's gifts had all been given, so Lady Mabel could afford to make
light of the unopened parcels without fear of wounding the feelings of
anyone present.
They were opened by-and-by, when the Duke came in from his farm, sorely
disturbed in his mind at the serious indisposition of a
six-hundred-guinea cart-horse, which hapless prize animal had been
fatted to such an inflammatory condition that in his case the commonest
ailment might prove deadly. Depressed by this calamity, the Duke
required to be propped up with sherry and Angustura bitters, which
tonic mixture was presently brought to him by one of the match footmen,
who looked very much as if he were suffering from the same plethoric
state that was likely to prove fatal to the cart-horse. Happily, the
footman's death would be but a temporary inconvenience. The Duke had
not given six hundred guineas for him.
Lady Mabel opened her parcels, in the hope of distracting her father
from the contemplation of his trouble.
"From whom can this be?" she asked wonderingly, "with the Jersey
post-mark? Do I know anyone in Jersey?"
Roderick grew suddenly crimson, and became deeply absorbed in the
business of peeling a nectarine.
"I surely cannot know anyone in Jersey," said Lady Mabel, in languid
wonderment. "It is an altogether impossible place. Nobody in society
goes there. It sounds almost as disreputable as Boulogne."
"You'd better open the packet," said Rorie, with a quiver in his voice.
"Perhaps it is from some of your friends," speculated Mabel.
She broke the seal, and tore the cover off a small morocco case.
"What a lovely pair of earrings!" she exclaimed.
Each eardrop was a single turquoise, almost as large, and quite as
clear in colour, as a hedge-sparrow's egg. The setting was Roman,
exquisitely artistic.
"Now I can forgive anyone for sending me such jewellery as that," said
Lady Mabel. "It is not the sort of thing one sees in every jeweller's
shop."
Rorie looked at the blue stones with rueful eyes. He knew them well. He
had seen them contrasted with ruddy chestnut hair, and the whitest skin
in Christendom--or at any rate the whitest he had ever seen, and a
man's world can be but the world he knows.
"There is a letter," said Lady Mabel. "Now I shall find out all about
my mysterious Jersey friend."
She read the letter aloud.
"Les Tourelles, Jersey, July 25th.
"Dear Lady Mabel,--I cannot bear that your wedding-day should go by
without bringing you some small token of regard from your husband's old
friend. Will you wear these earrings now and then, and believe that
they come from one who has nothing but good wishes for Rorie's
wife?--Yours very truly,
"VIOLET TEMPEST."
"Why, they are actually from your old playfellow!" cried Mabel, with a
laugh that had not quite a genuine ring in its mirth. "The young lady
who used to follow the staghounds, in a green habit with brass buttons,
ever so many years ago, and who insisted on calling you Rorie. She does
it still, you see. How very sweet of her to send me a wedding-present.
I ought to have remembered. I heard something about her being sent off
to Jersey by her people, because she had grown rather incorrigible at
home."
"She was not incorrigible, and she was not sent off to Jersey," said
Roderick grimly. "She left home of her own free will; because she could
not hit it with her stepfather."
"That is another way of expressing it, but I think we both mean pretty
much the same thing," retorted Mabel. "But I don't want to know why she
went to Jersey. She has behaved very sweetly in sending me such a
pretty letter; and when she is at home again I shall be very happy to
see her at my garden-parties."
Lord Mallow had no share in this conversation, for the Duke had
buttonholed him, and was giving him a detailed account of the
cart-horse's symptoms.
The little party dispersed soon after this, and did not foregather
again until just before dinner, when the people who had been to see the
ruins were all assembled, full of their day's enjoyment, and of sundry
conversational encounters which they had had with the natives of the
district. They gave themselves the usual airs which people who have
been laboriously amusing themselves inflict upon those wiser
individuals who prefer the passive pleasure of repose, and made a merit
of having exposed themselves to the meridian sun, in the pursuit of
archaeological knowledge.
Lady Mabel looked pale and weary all that evening. Roderick was so
evidently distrait that the good-natured Duke thought that he must be
worrying himself about the cart-horse, and begged him to make his mind
easy, as it was possible the animal might even yet recover.
Later on in the evening Lady Mabel and Lord Mallow sat in the
conservatory and talked Irish politics, while Rorie and the younger
members of the house party played Nap. The conservatory was deliciously
cool on this summer evening, dimly lighted by lamps that were half
hidden among the palms and orange-trees. Lady Mabel and her companion
could see the stars shining through the open doorway, and the mystical
darkness of remote woods. Their voices were hushed; there were pauses
of silence in their talk. Never had the stirring question of Home Rule
been more interesting.
Lady Mabel did not go back to the drawing-room that evening. There was
a door leading from the conservatory to the hall; and, while Rorie and
the young people were still somewhat noisily engaged in the game of
Napoleon, Lady Mabel went out to the hall with Lord Mallow in
attendance upon her. When he had taken her candle from the table and
lighted it, he paused for a moment or so before he handed it to her,
looking at her very earnestly all the while, as she stood at the foot
of the staircase, with saddened face and downcast eyes, gravely
contemplative of the stair-carpet.
"Is it--positively--too late?" he asked.
"You must feel and know that it is so," she answered.
"But it might have been?"
"Yes," she murmured with a faint sigh, "it might have been."
He gave her the candlestick, and she went slowly upstairs, without a
word of good-night. He stood in the hall, watching the slim figure as
it ascended, aerial and elegant in its palely-tinted drapery.
"It might have been," he repeated to himself: and then he lighted his
candle and went slowly up the staircase. He was in no humour for
billiards, cigars, or noisy masculine talk to-night. Still less was he
inclined to be at ease and to make merry with Roderick Vawdrey.
CHAPTER VIII.
Wedding Bells.
Vixen had been more than a year in the island of Jersey. She had lived
her lonely and monotonous existence, and made no moan. It was a dreary
exile; but it seemed to her that there was little else for her to do in
life but dawdle through the long slow days, and bear the burden of
living; at least until she came of age, and was independent, and could
go where she pleased. Then there would be the wide world for her to
wander over, instead of this sea-girdled garden of Jersey. She had
reasons of her own for so quietly submitting to this joyless life. Mrs.
Winstanley kept her informed of all that was doing in Hampshire, and
even at the Queen Anne house at Kensington. She knew that Roderick
Vawdrey's wedding-day was fixed for the first of August. Was it not
better that she should be far away, hidden from her small world; while
those marriage bells were ringing across the darkening beech-woods?
Her sacrifice had not been in vain. Her lover had speedily forgotten
that brief madness of last midsummer, and had returned to his
allegiance. There had been no cloud upon the loves of the plighted
cousins--no passing gust of dissension. If there had been, Mrs.
Winstanley would have known all about it. Her letters told only of
harmonious feeling and perpetual sunshine.
"Lady Mabel is looking prettier than ever," she wrote, in the last week
of July, "that ethereal loveliness which I so much admire. Her waist
cannot be more than eighteen inches. I cannot find out who makes her
dresses, but they are exquisitely becoming to her; though, for my own
part, I do not think the style equal to Theodore's. But then I always
supplemented Theodore's ideas with my own suggestions.
"I hear that the _trousseau_ is something wonderful. The _lingerie_ is
in quite a new style; a special make of linen has been introduced at
Bruges on purpose for the occasion, and I have heard that the loom is
to be broken and no more made. But this is perhaps exaggeration. The
lace has all been made in Buckinghamshire, from patterns a hundred
years old--very quaint and pretty. There is an elegant simplicity about
everything, Mrs. Scobel tells me, which is very charming. The costumes
for the Norwegian tour are heather-coloured water-proof cloth, with
stitched borders, plain to the last degree, but with a _chic_ that
redeems their plainness.
"Conrad and I received an early invitation to the wedding. He will go;
but I have refused, on the ground of ill-health. And, indeed, my dear
Violet, this is no idle excuse. My health has been declining ever since
you left us. I was always a fragile creature, as you know, even in your
dear papa's time; but of late the least exertion has made me tremble
like a leaf. I bear up, for Conrad's sake. He is so anxious and unhappy
when he sees me suffer, and I am glad to spare him anxiety.
"Your old friend, Mr. Vawdrey, looks well and happy, but I do not see
much of him. Believe me, dear, you acted well and wisely in leaving
home when you did. It would have been a dreadful thing if Lady Mabel's
engagement had been broken off on account of an idle flirtation between
you and Rorie. It would have left a stain upon your name for life.
Girls do not think of these things. I'm afraid I flirted a little
myself when I was first out, and admiration was new to me; but I
married so young that I escaped some of the dangers you have had to
pass through.
"Roderick is making considerable improvements and alterations at
Briarwood. He is trying to make the house pretty--I fear an impossible
task. There is a commonplace tone about the building that defies
improvement. The orchid-houses at Ashbourne are to be taken down and
removed to Briarwood. The collection has been increasing ever since
Lady Jane Vawdrey's death, and is now one of the finest in England. But
to my mind the taste is a most foolish one. Dear Conrad thinks me
extravagant for giving sixty guineas for a dress--what might he not
think if I gave as much for a single plant? Lord Mallow is staying at
Ashbourne for the wedding. His success in the House of Commons has made
him quite a lion. He called and took tea with me the other day. He is
very nice. Ah, my dearest Violet, what a pity you could not like him.
It would have been such a splendid match for you, and would have made
Conrad and me so proud and happy."
Vixen folded the letter with a sigh. She was sitting in her favourite
spot in the neglected garden, the figs ripening above her among their
broad ragged leaves, and the green slopes and valleys lying beneath
her--orchards and meadows and pink homesteads, under a sultry summer
haze.
The daughter was not particularly alarmed by her mother's complaint of
declining health. It was that old cry of "wolf," which Violet had heard
ever since she could remember.
"Poor mamma!" she said to herself, with a half-pitying tenderness, "it
has always been her particular vanity to fancy herself an invalid; and
yet no doctor has ever been able to find out anything amiss. She ought
to be very happy now, poor dear; she has the husband of her choice, and
no rebellious daughter to make the atmosphere stormy. I must write to
Mrs. Scobel, and ask if mamma is really not quite so well as when I
left home."
And then Vixen's thoughts wandered away to Rorie, and the alterations
that were being made at Briarwood. He was preparing a bright home for
his young wife, and they would be very happy together, and it would be
as if Violet had never crossed his path.
"But he was fond of me, last midsummer twelvemonth," thought Vixen,
half seated half reclining against a grassy bank, with her hands
clasped above her head, and her open book flung aside upon the long
grass, where the daisies and dandelions grew in such wild abundance.
"Yes, he loved me dearly then, and would have sacrificed interest,
honour, all the world for my sake. Can he forget those days, when they
are thus ever present to my mind? He seemed more in love than I: yet, a
little year, and he is going to be married. Have men no memories? I do
not believe that he loves Lady Mabel any better than he did a year ago,
when he asked me to be his wife. But he has learnt wisdom; and he is
going to keep his word, and to be owner of Briarwood and Ashbourne, and
a great man in the county. I suppose it is a glorious destiny."
In these last days of July a strange restlessness had taken possession
of Violet Tempest. She could not read or occupy herself in any way.
Those long rambles about the island, to wild precipices looking down on
peaceful bays, to furzy hills where a few scattered sheep were her sole
companions, to heathery steeps that were craggy and precipitous and
dangerous to climb, and so had a certain fascination for the lonely
wanderer--these rambles, which had been her chief resource and solace
until now, had suddenly lost their charm. She dawdled in the garden, or
roamed restlessly from the garden to the orchard, from the orchard to
the sloping meadow, where Miss Skipwith's solitary cow, last
representative of a once well-stocked farm, browsed in a dignified
seclusion. The days were slow, and oh, how lengthy! and yet there was a
fever in Vixen's blood which made it seem to her as if time were
hurrying on at a breathless break-neck pace.
"The day after to-morrow he will be married," she said to herself, on
the morning of the thirtieth. "By this time on the day after to-morrow,
the bride will be putting on her wreath of orange blossoms, and the
church will be decorated with flowers, and there will be a flutter of
expectation in all the little villages, from one end of the Forest to
the other. A duke's daughter is not married every day in the year. Ah
me! there will not be an earthquake, or anything to prevent the
wedding, I daresay. No, I feel sure that all things are going smoothly.
If there had been a hitch of any kind, mamma would have written to tell
me about it."
Miss Skipwith was not a bad person to live with in a time of secret
trouble such as this. She was so completely wrapped up in her grand
scheme of reconciliation for all the creeds, that she was utterly blind
to any small individual tragedy that might be enacted under her nose.
Those worn cheeks and haggard eyes of Vixen's attracted no attention
from her as they sat opposite to each other at the sparely-furnished
breakfast-table, in the searching summer light.
She had allowed Violet perfect liberty, and had been too apathetic to
be unkind. Having tried her hardest to interest the girl in Swedenborg,
or Luther, or Calvin, or Mahomet, or Brahma, or Confucius, and having
failed ignominiously in each attempt, she had dismissed all idea of
companionship with Violet from her mind, and had given her over to her
own devices.
"Poor child," she said to herself, "she is not unamiable, but she is
utterly mindless. What advantages she might have derived from
intercourse with me, if she had possessed a receptive nature! But my
highest gifts are thrown away upon her. She will go through life in
lamentable ignorance of all that is of deepest import in man's past and
future. She has no more intellect than Baba."
Baba was the Persian cat, the silent companion of Miss Skipwith's
studious hours.
So Violet roamed in and out of the house, in this languid weather, and
took up a book only to throw it down again, and went out to the
court-yard to pat Argus, and strolled into the orchard and leaned
listlessly against an ancient apple-tree, with her loose hair
glistening in the sunshine--just as if she were posing herself for a
pre-Raphaelite picture--and no one took any heed of her goings and
comings.
She was supremely lonely. Even looking forward to the future--when she
would be of age and well off, and free to do what she liked with her
life--she could see no star of hope. Nobody wanted her. She stood quite
alone amidst a strange, unfriendly world.
"Except poor old McCroke, I don't think there is a creature who cares
for me; and even her love is tepid," she said to herself.
She had kept up a regular correspondence with her old governess, since
she had been in Jersey, and had developed to Miss McCroke the scheme of
her future travels. They were to see everything strange and rare and
beautiful, that was to be seen in the world.
"I wonder if you would much mind going to Africa?" she wrote, in one of
her frank girlish letters. "There must be something new in Africa. One
would get away from the beaten ways of Cockney tourists, and one would
escape the dreary monotony of a _table d'hôte_. There is Egypt for us
to do; and you, who are a walking encyclopaedia, will be able to tell
me all about the Pyramids, and Pompey's Pillar, and the Nile. If we got
tired of Africa we might go to India. We shall be thoroughly
independent. I know you are a good sailor; you are not like poor mamma,
who used to suffer tortures in crossing the Channel."
There was a relief in writing such letters as these, foolish though
they might be. That idea of distant wanderings with Miss McCroke was
the one faint ray of hope offered by the future--not a star, assuredly,
but at least a farthing candle. The governess answered in her friendly
matter-of-fact way. She would like much to travel with her dearest
Violet. The life would be like heaven after her present drudgery in
finishing the Misses Pontifex, who were stupid and supercilious. But
Miss McCroke was doubtful about Africa. Such a journey would be a
fearful undertaking for two unprotected females. To have a peep at
Algiers and Tunis, and even to see Cairo and Alexandria, might be
practicable; but anything beyond that Miss McCroke thought wild and
adventurous. Had her dear Violet considered the climate, and the
possibility of being taken prisoners by black people, or even devoured
by lions? Miss McCroke begged her dear pupil to read Livingstone's
travels and the latest reports of the Royal Geographical Society,
before she gave any further thought to Africa.
The slowest hours, days the most wearisome, long nights that know not
sleep, must end at last. The first of August dawned, a long streak of
red light in the clear gray east. Vixen saw the first glimmer as she
lay wide awake in her big old bed, staring through the curtainless
windows to the far sea-line, above which the morning sky grew red.
"Hail, Rorie's wedding-day!" she cried, with a little hysterical laugh;
and then she buried her face in the pillow and sobbed aloud--sobbed as
she had not done till now, through all her weary exile.
There had been no earthquake; this planet we live on had not rolled
backwards in space; all things in life pursued their accustomed course,
and time had ripened into Roderick Vawdrey's wedding-day.
"I did think _something_ would happen," said Vixen piteously. "It was
foolish, weak, mad to think so. But I could not believe he would marry
anyone but me. I did my duty, and I tried to be brave and steadfast.
But I thought something would happen."
A weak lament from the weak soul of an undisciplined girl. The red
light grew and glowed redder in the east, and then the yellow sun shone
through gray drifting clouds, and the new day was born. Slumber and
Violet had parted company for the last week. Her mind had been too full
of images; the curtain of sleep would not hide them. Frame and mind
were both alike worn out, as she lay in the broadening light, lonely,
forsaken, unpitied, bearing her great sorrow, just as she must have
borne the toothache, or any other corporal pain.
She rose at seven, feeling unspeakably tired, dressed herself slowly
and dawdlingly, thinking of Lady Mabel. What an event her rising and
dressing would be this morning--the flurried maids, the indulgent
mother; the pure white garments, glistening in the tempered sunlight;
the luxurious room, with its subdued colouring, its perfume of
freshly-cut flowers; the dainty breakfast-tray, on a table by an open
window; the shower of congratulatory letters, and the last delivery of
wedding gifts. Vixen could imagine the scene, with its every detail.
And Roderick, what of him? She could not so easily picture the
companion of her childhood on this fateful morning of his life. She
could not imagine him happy: she dared not fancy him miserable. It was
safer to make a great effort and shut that familiar figure out of her
mind altogether.
Oh, what a dismal ceremony the eight--o'clock breakfast, _tête-à-tête_
with Miss Skipwith, seemed on this particular morning! Even that
preoccupied lady was constrained to notice Violet's exceeding pallor.
"My dear, you are ill!" she exclaimed. "Your face is as white as a
sheet of paper, and your eyes have dark rings around them."
"I am not ill, but I have been sleeping badly of late."
"My dear child, you need occupation; you want an aim. The purposeless
life you are leading must result badly. Why can you not devise some
pursuit to fill your idle hours? Far be it from me to interfere with
your liberty; but I confess that it grieves me to see youth, and no
doubt some measure of ability, so wasted. Why do you not strive to
continue your education? Self-culture is the highest form of
improvement. My books are at your disposal."
"Dear Miss Skipwith, your books are all theological," said Vixen
wearily, "and I don't care for theology. As for my education, I am not
utterly neglecting it. I read Schiller till my eyes ache."
"One shallow German poet is not the beginning and end of education,"
replied Miss Skipwith. "I should like you to take larger views of
woman's work in the world."
"My work in the world is to live quietly, and not to trouble anyone,"
said Vixen, with a sigh.
She was glad to leave Miss Skipwith to her books, and to wander out
into the sunny garden, where the figs were ripening or dropping
half-ripened amongst the neglected grass, and the clustering bloom of
the hydrangeas was as blue as the summer sky. There had been an
unbroken interval of sultry weather--no rain, no wind, no clouds--only
endless sunshine.
"If it would hail, or blow, or thunder," sighed Vixen, with her hands
clasped above her head, "the change might be some small relief to my
feelings; but this everlasting brightness is too dreadful. What a lying
world it is, and how Nature smiles at us when our hearts are aching.
Well, I suppose I ought to wish the sunshine to last till after Rorie's
wedding; but I don't, I don't, I don't! If the heavens were to darken,
and forked lightnings to cleave the black vault, I should dance for
joy. I should hail the storm, and cry, 'This is sympathy!'"
And then she flung herself face downwards on the grass and sobbed, as
she had sobbed on her pillow that morning.
"It rends my heart to know we are parted for ever," she said. "Oh why
did I not say Yes that night in the fir plantation? The chance of
lifelong bliss was in my hand, and I let it go. It would have been less
wicked to give way then, and accept my happy fate, than to suffer these
evil feelings that are gnawing at my heart to-day--vain rage, cruel
hatred of the innocent!"
The wedding bells must be ringing by this time. She fancied she could
hear them. Yes, the summer air seemed alive with bells. North, south,
east, west, all round the island, they were ringing madly, with tuneful
marriage peal. They beat upon her brain. They would drive her mad. She
tried to stop her ears, but then those wedding chimes seemed ringing
inside her head. She could not shut them out. She remembered how the
joybells had haunted her ears on Rorie's twenty-first birthday--that
day which had ended so bitterly, in the announcement of the engagement
between the cousins. Yes, that had been her first real trouble, How
well she remembered her despair and desolation that night, the rage
that possessed her young soul.
"And I was little more than a child, then," she said to herself.
"Surely I must have been born wicked. My dear father was living then;
and even the thought of his love did not comfort me. I felt myself
abandoned and alone in the world. How idiotically fond I must have been
of Rorie. Ever so many years have come and gone, and I have not cured
myself of this folly. What is there in him that I should care for him?"
She got up from the grass, plucked herself out of that paroxysm of
mental pain which came too near lunacy, and began to walk slowly round
the garden-paths, reasoning with herself, calling womanly pride to the
rescue.
"I hate myself for this weakness," she protested dumbly. "I did not
think I was capable of it. When I was a child, and was taken to the
dentist, did I ever whine and howl like vulgar-minded children? No; I
braced myself for the ordeal, and bore the pain, as my father's child
ought."
She walked quickly to the house, burst into the parlour, where Miss
Skipwith was sitting at her desk, the table covered with open volumes,
over which flowers of literature the student roved, beelike, collecting
honey for her intellectual hive.
"Please, Miss Skipwith, will you give me some books about Buddha?" said
Vixen, with an alarming suddenness. "I am quite of your opinion: I
ought to study. I think I shall go in for theology."
"My dearest child!" cried the ancient damsel, enraptured. "Thank
Heaven! the seed I have sown has germinated at last. If you are once
inspired with the desire to enter that vast field of knowledge, the
rest will follow. The flowers you will find by the wayside will lure
you onward, even when the path is stony and difficult."
"I suppose I had better begin with Buddha," said Vixen, with a hard and
resolute manner that scarcely seemed like the burning desire for
knowledge newly kindled in the breast of a youthful student. "That is
beginning at the beginning, is it not?"
"No, my dear. In comparison with the priesthood of Egypt, Buddha is
contemptibly modern. If we want the beginning of things, we must revert
to Egypt, that cradle of learning and civilisation."
"Then let me begin with Egypt!" cried Vixen impatiently. "I don't care
a bit how I begin. I want occupation for my mind."
"Did I not say so?" exclaimed Miss Skipwith, full of ardent welcome for
the neophyte whose steps had been so tardy in approaching the shrine.
"That pallor, those haggard eyes are indications of a troubled mind;
and no mind can be free from trouble when it lacks an object. We create
our own sorrows."
"Yes, we are wretched creatures!" cried Vixen passionately, "the
poorest examples of machinery in all this varied universe. Look at that
cow in your orchard, her dull placid life, inoffensive, useful, asking
nothing but a fertile meadow and a sunny day to fill her cup of
happiness. Why did the great Creator make the lower animals exempt from
sorrow, and give us such an infinite capacity for grief and pain? It
seems hardly fair."
"My dear, our Creator gave us minds, and the power of working out our
own salvation," replied Miss Skipwith. "Here are half-a-dozen volumes.
In these you will find the history of Egyptian theology, from the
golden age of the god Râ to the dark and troubled period of Persian
invasion. Some of these works are purely philosophical. I should
recommend you to read the historical volumes first. Make copious notes
of what you read, and do not hesitate to refer to me when you are
puzzled."
"I am afraid that will be very often," said Vixen, piling up the books
in her arms with a somewhat hopeless air. "I am not at all clever; but
I want to employ my mind."
She carried the books up to her bedroom, and arranged them on a stout
old oak table, which Mrs. Doddery had found for her accommodation. She
opened her desk, and put a quire of paper ready for any notes she might
be tempted to make, and then she began, steadily and laboriously, with
a dry-as-dust history of ancient Egypt.
Oh, how her poor head ached as the summer noontide wore on, and the
bees hummed in the garden below, and the distant waves danced gaily in
the sunlight; and the knowledge that the bells were really ringing at
Ashbourne could not be driven from her mind. How the Shepherd Kings,
and the Pharaohs, and the comparatively modern days of Joseph and his
brethren, and the ridiculously recent era of Moses, passed, like dim
shifting shadows, before her mental vision. She retraced her steps in
that dreary book, again and again, patiently, forcing her mind to the
uncongenial task.
"I will not be such a slave as to think of him all this long summer
day," she said to herself. "I _will_ think of the god Râ, and lotus
flowers, and the Red Nile, and the Green Nile, and all this wonderful
land where I am going to take dear old McCroke by-and-by."
She read on till dinner-time, only pausing to scribble rapid notes of
the dates and names and facts which would not stand steadily in her
whirling brain; and then she went down to the parlour, no longer pale,
but with two hectic spots on her cheeks, and her eyes unnaturally
bright.
"Ah," ejaculated Miss Skipwith, delightedly. "You look better already.
There is nothing like severe study for bracing the nerves."
Violet talked about Egypt all dinner-time, but she ate hardly anything,
and that hectic flush upon her cheeks grew more vivid as she talked.
"To think that after the seed lying dormant all this time, it should
have germinated at last with such sudden vigour," mused Miss Skipwith.
"The poor girl is talking a good deal of nonsense; but that is only the
exuberance of a newly awakened intellect."
Vixen went back to the Egyptians directly after dinner. She toiled
along the arid road with an indomitable patience. Her ideas of Egypt
had hitherto been of the vaguest. Vast plains of barren sand, a pyramid
or two, Memnon's head breathing wild music in the morning sunshine,
crocodiles, copper-coloured natives, and Antony and Cleopatra. These
things were about as much as Miss McCroke's painstaking tuition had
implanted in her pupil's mind. And here, without a shadow of vocation,
this poor ignorant girl was poring over the driest details that ever
interested the scholar. The mysteries of the triple language, the
Rosetta Stone, Champollion--_tout le long de la rivière_. Was it any
wonder that her head ached almost to agony, and that the ringing of
imaginary wedding bells sounded distractingly in her ears?
She worked on till tea-time, and was too engrossed to hear the bell,
which clanged lustily for every meal in the orderly household: a bell
whose clamour was somewhat too much for the repast it heralded.
This evening Vixen did not hear the bell, inviting her to weak tea and
bread-and-butter. The ringing of those other bells obscured the sound.
She was sitting with her book before her, but her eyes fixed on
vacancy, when Miss Skipwith, newly interested in her charge, came to
inquire the cause of her delay. The girl looked at her languidly, and
seemed slow to understand what she said.
"I don't care for any tea," she replied at last. "I would rather go on
with the history. It is tremendously interesting, especially the
hieroglyphics. I have been trying to make them out. It is so nice to
know that a figure like a chopper means a god, and that a goose with a
black ball above his hack means Pharaoh, son of the sun. And then the
table of dynasties: can anything be more interesting than those? It
makes one's head go round just a little at first, when one has to grope
backwards through so many centuries, but that's nothing."
"My dear, you are working too hard. It is foolish to begin with such
impetuosity. A fire that burns so fiercely will soon exhaust itself.
_Festina lente_. We must hasten slowly, if we want to make solid
progress. Why, my poor child, your fore-head is burning. You will read
yourself into a fever."
"I think I am in a fever already," said Vixen.
Miss Skipwith was unusually kind. She insisted upon helping her charge
to undress, and would not leave her till she was lying quietly in bed.
She was going to draw down the blinds, but against this Vixen protested
vehemently.
"Pray leave me the sky," she cried; "it is something to look at through
the long blank night. The stars come and go, and the clouds are always
changing. I believe I should go mad if it were not for the sky."
Poor Miss Skipwith felt seriously uneasy. The first draught from the
fountain of knowledge had evidently exercised an intoxicating effect
upon Violet Tempest. It was as if she had been taking opium or hashish.
The girl's brain was affected.
"You have studied too long," she said. "This must not occur again. I
feel myself responsible to your parents for your health."
"To my parents," echoed Vixen, with a sudden sigh; "I have only one,
and she is happier in my absence than when I was with her. You need not
be uneasy about me if I fall ill. No one will care. If I were to die,
no one would be sorry. I have no place in the world. No one would miss
me."
"My dear, it is absolutely wicked to talk in this strain; just as you
are developing new powers, an intellect which may make you a pillar and
a landmark in your age."
"I don't want to be a pillar or a landmark," said Vixen impatiently. "I
don't want to have my name associated with 'movements,' or to write
letters to The Times. I should like to have been happy my own way."
She turned her back upon Miss Skipwith, and lay so still that the
excellent lady supposed she was dropping off to sleep.
"A good night's rest will restore her, and she will awake with renewed
appetite for knowledge," she murmured benevolently as she went back to
her Swedenborgian studies.
CHAPTER IX.
The nearest Way to Norway.
No such blessing as a good night's rest was in store for Violet Tempest
on that night of the first of August. She lay in a state of
half-consciousness that was near akin to delirium. When she closed her
eyes for a little while the demon of evil dreams took hold of her. She
was in the old familiar home-scenes with her dear dead father. She
acted over again that awful tragedy of sudden death. She was upbraiding
her mother about Captain Winstanley. Bitter words were on her lips;
words more bitter than even she had ever spoken in all her intensity of
adverse feeling. She was in the woody hollow by Rufus's stone,
blindfold, with arms stretched helplessly out, seeking for Rorie among
the smooth beech-boles, with a dreadful sense of loneliness, and a fear
that he was far away, and that she would perish, lost and alone, in
that dismal wood.
So the slow night wore on to morning. Sometimes she lay staring idly at
the stars, shining so serenely in that calm summer sky. She wondered
what life was like, yonder, in those remote worlds. Was humanity's
portion as sad, fate as adverse, there as here? Then she thought of
Egypt, and Shakespeare's Antony and Cleopatra--that story of a wild,
undisciplined love, grand in its lawless passion--its awful doom. To
have loved thus, and died thus, seemed a higher destiny than to do
right, and patiently conquer sorrow, and live on somehow to the dismal
end of the dull blameless chapter.
At last, with what laggard steps, with what oppressive tardiness, came
the dawn, in long streaks of lurid light above the edge of the distant
waters.
"'Red sky at morning is the shepherd's warning!'" cried Vixen, with dry
lips. "Thank God there will be rain to-day! Welcome change after the
hot arid skies, and the cruel brazen sun, mocking all the miseries of
this troubled earth."
She felt almost as wildly glad as the Ancient Mariner, at the idea of
that blessed relief; and then, by-and-by, with the changeful light
shining on her face, she fell into a deep sleep.
Perhaps that morning sleep saved Vixen from an impending fever. It was
the first refreshing slumber she had had for a week--a sweet dreamless
sleep. The breakfast-bell rang unheeded. The rain, forecast by that red
sky, fell in soft showers upon the verdant isle, and the grateful earth
gave back its sweetest perfumes to the cool, moist air.
Miss Skipwith came softly in to look at her charge, saw her sleeping
peacefully, and as softly retired.
"Poor child! the initiation has been too much for her unformed mind,"
she murmured complacently, pleased with herself for having secured a
disciple. "The path is narrow and rugged at the beginning, but it will
broaden out before her as she goes on."
Violet awoke, and found that it was mid-day. Oh, what a blessed relief
that long morning sleep had been. She woke like a creature cured of
mortal pain. She fell on her knees beside the bed, and prayed as she
had not often prayed in her brief careless life.
"What am I that I should question Thy justice!" she cried. "Lord, teach
me to submit, teach me to bear my burden patiently, and to do some good
in the world."
Her mood and temper were wondrously softened after a long interval of
thought and prayer. She was ashamed of her waywardness of
yesterday--her foolish unreasonable passion.
"Poor Rorie, I told him to keep his promise, and he has obeyed me," she
said to herself. "Can I be angry with him for that? I ought to feel
proud and glad that we were both strong enough to do our duty."
She dressed slowly, languid after the excitement of yesterday, and then
went slowly down the broad bare staircase to Miss Skipwith's parlour.
The lady of the manor received her with affectionate greeting, and had
a special pot of tea brewed for her, and insisted upon her eating some
dry toast, a form of nourishment which this temperate lady deemed a
panacea in illness.
"I was positively alarmed about you last night, my dear," she said;
"you were so feverish and excited. You read too much, for the first
day."
"I'm afraid I did," assented Vixen, with a faint smile; "and the worst
of it is, I believe I have forgotten every word I read."
"Surely not!" cried Miss Skipwith, horrified at this admission. "You
seemed so impressed--so interested. You were so full of your subject."
"I have a faint recollection of the little men in the hieroglyphics,"
said Vixen; "but all the rest is gone. The images of Antony and
Cleopatra, in Shakespeare's play, bring Egypt more vividly before me
than all the history I read yesterday."
Miss Skipwith looked shocked, just as if some improper character in
real life had been brought before her.
"Cleopatra was very disreputable, and she was not Egyptian," she
remarked severely. "I am sorry you should waste your thoughts upon such
a person."
"I think she is the most interesting woman in ancient history," said
Vixen wilfully, "as Mary Queen of Scots is in modern history. It is not
the good people whose images take hold of one's fancy, What a faint
idea one has of Lady Jane Grey, And, in Schiller's 'Don Carlos,' I
confess the Marquis of Posa never interested me half so keenly as
Philip of Spain."
"My dear, you are made up of fancies and caprices. Your mind wants
balance," said Miss Skipwith, affronted at this frivolity. "Had you not
better go for a walk with your dog? Doddery tells me that poor Argus
has not had a good run since last week."
"How wicked of me!" cried Vixen. "Poor old fellow! I had almost
forgotten his existence. Yes, I should like a long walk, if you will
not think me idle."
"You studied too many hours yesterday, my dear. It will do you good to
relax the bow to-day. _Non semper arcum tendit Apollo!_"
"I'll go for my favourite walk to Mount Orgueil. I don't think there'll
be any more rain. Please excuse me if I am not home in time for dinner.
I can have a little cold meat, or an egg, for my tea."
"You had better take a sandwich with you," said Miss Skipwith, with
unusual thoughtfulness. "You have been eating hardly anything lately."
Vixen did not care about the sandwich, but submitted, to please her
hostess, and a neat little paper parcel, containing about three ounces
of nutriment, was made up for her by Mrs. Doddery. Never had the island
looked fairer in its summer beauty than it did to-day, after the
morning's rain. These showers had been to Jersey what sleep had been to
Vixen. The air was soft and cool; sparkling rain-drops fell like
diamonds from the leaves of ash and elm. The hedge-row ferns had taken
a new green, as if the spirit of spring had revisited the island. The
blue bright sea was dimpled with wavelets.
What a bright glad world it was, and how great must be the sin of a
rebellious spirit, cavilling at the dealings of its Creator! The happy
dog bounced and bounded round his mistress, the birds twittered in the
hedges, the passing farm-labourer with his cartload of seaweed smacked
his whip cheerily as he urged his patient horse along the narrow lane.
A huge van-load of Cockney tourists, singing a boisterous chorus of the
last music-hall song, passed Vixen at a turn of the road, and made a
blot on the serene beauty of the scene. They were going to eat lobsters
and drink bottled beer and play skittles at Le Tac. Vixen rejoiced when
their raucous voices died away on the summer breeze.
"Why is Jersey the peculiar haunt of the vulgar?" she wondered. "It is
such a lovely place that it deserves to be visited by something better
than the refuse of Margate and Ramsgate."
There was a meadow-path which lessened the distance between Les
Tourelles and Mount Orgueil. Vixen had just left the road and entered
the meadow when Argus set up a joyous bark, and ran back to salute a
passing vehicle. It was a St. Helier's fly, driving at a tremendous
pace in the direction from which she had come. A young man lay back in
the carriage, smoking a cigar, with his hat slouched over his eyes.
Vixen could just see the strong sunburnt hand flung up above his head.
It was a foolish fancy, doubtless, but that broad brown hand reminded
her of Rorie's. Argus leaped the stile, rushed after the vehicle, and
saluted it clamorously. The poor brute had been mewed up for a week in
a dull courtyard, and was rejoiced at having something to bark at.
Vixen walked on to the seashore, and the smiling little harbour, and
the brave old castle. There was the usual party of tourists following
the guide through narrow passages and echoing chambers, and peering
into the rooms where Charles Stuart endured his exile, and making those
lively remarks and speculations whereby the average tourist is prone to
reveal his hazy notions of history. Happily Vixen knew of quiet corners
upon the upward walls whither tourists rarely penetrated; nooks in
which she had sat through many an hour of sun and shade, reading,
musing, or sketching with free untutored pencil, for the mere idle
delight of the moment. Here in this loneliness, between land and sea,
she had nursed her sorrow and made much of her grief. She liked the
place. No obtrusive sympathy had ever made it odious to her. Here she
was mistress of herself and her own thoughts. To-day she went to her
favourite corner, a seat in an angle of the battlemented wall, and sat
there with her arms folded on the stone parapet, looking dreamily
seaward, across the blue channel to the still bluer coast of Normandy,
where the tower of Coutance showed dimly in the distance.
Resignation. Yes, that was to be her portion henceforward. She must
live out her life, in isolation almost as complete as Miss Skipwith's,
without the innocent delusions which gave substance and colour to that
lonely lady's existence.
"If I could only have a craze," she thought hopelessly, "some harmless
monomania which would fill my mind! The maniacs in Bedlam, who fancy
themselves popes or queens, are happy in their foolish way. If I could
only imagine myself something which I am not--anything except poor
useless Violet Tempest, who has no place in the world!"
The sun was gaining power, the air was drowsy, the soft ripple of the
tide upon the golden sand was like a lullaby. Even that long sleep of
the morning had not cured Vixen's weariness. There were long arrears of
slumber yet to be made up. Her eyelids drooped, then closed altogether,
the ocean lullaby took a still softer sound, the distant voices of the
tourists grew infinitely soothing, and Vixen sank quietly to sleep, her
head leaning on her folded arms, the gentle west wind faintly stirring
her loose hair.
"'Oh, happy kiss that woke thy sleep!'" cried a familiar voice close in
the slumberer's ear, and then a warm breath, which was not the summer
wind, fanned the cheek that lay upmost upon her arm, two warm lips were
pressed against that glowing cheek in ardent greeting. The girl started
to her feet, every vein tingling with the thrilling recognition of her
assailant. There was no one else--none other than he--in this wide
world who would do such a thing! She sprang up, and faced him, her eyes
flashing, her cheeks crimson.
"How dare you?" she cried. "Then it was you I saw in the fly? Pray, is
this the nearest way to Norway?"
Yes, it was Rorie; looking exactly like the familiar Rorie of old; not
one whit altered by marriage with a duke's only daughter; a stalwart
young fellow in a rough gray suit, a dark face sunburnt to deepest
bronze, eyes with a happy smile in them, firmly-cut lips half hidden by
the thick brown beard, a face that would have looked well under a
lifted helmet--such a face as the scared Saxons must have seen among
the bold followers of William the Norman, when those hardy Norse
warriors ran amuck in Dover town.
"Not to my knowledge," answered this audacious villain, in his lightest
tone. "I am not very geographical. But I should think it was rather out
of the way."
"Then you and Lady Mabel have changed your plans?" said Vixen,
trembling very much, but trying desperately to be as calmly commonplace
as a young lady talking to an ineligible partner at a ball. "You are
not going to the north of Europe?"
"Lady Mabel and I have changed our plans. We are not going to the north
of Europe."
"Oh!"
"In point of fact, we are not going anywhere."
"But you have come to Jersey. That is part of your tour, I suppose?"
"Do not be too hasty in your suppositions, Miss Tempest. _I_ have come
to Jersey--I am quite willing to admit as much as that."
"And Lady Mabel? She is with you, of course?"
"Not the least bit in the world. To the best of my knowledge, Lady
Mabel--I beg her pardon--Lady Mallow is now on her way to the
fishing-grounds of Connemara with her husband."
"Rorie!"
What a glad happy cry that was! It was like a gush of sudden music from
a young blackbird's throat on a sunny spring morning. The crimson dye
had faded from Violet's cheeks a minute ago and left her deadly pale.
Now the bright colour rushed back again, the happy brown eyes, the
sweet blush-rose lips, broke into the gladdest smile that ever Rorie
had seen upon her face. He held out his arms, he clasped her to his
breast, where she rested unresistingly, infinitely happy. Great Heaven!
how the whole world and herself had become transformed in this moment
of unspeakable bliss! Rorie, the lost, the surrendered, was her own
true lover after all!
"Yes, dear, I obeyed you. You were hard and cruel to me that night in
the fir plantation; but I knew in my heart of hearts that you were
wise, and honest, and true; and I made up my mind that I would keep the
engagement entered upon beside my mother's death-bed. Loving or
unloving I would marry Mabel Ashbourne, and do my duty to her, and go
down to my grave with the character of a good and faithful husband, as
many a man has done who never loved his wife. So I held on, Vixen--yes,
I will call you by the old pet name now: henceforward you are mine, and
I shall call you what I like--I held on, and was altogether an
exemplary lover; went wherever I was ordered to go, and always came
when they whistled for me; rode at my lady's jog-trot pace in the Row,
stood behind her chair at the opera, endured more classical music than
ever man heard before and lived, listened to my sweetheart's manuscript
verses, and, in a word, did my duty in that state of life to which it
had pleased God to call me; and my reward has been to be jilted with
every circumstance of ignominy on my wedding-morning."
"Jilted!" cried Vixen, her big brown eyes shining, in pleasantest
mockery. "Why I thought Lady Mabel adored you?"
"So did I," answered Roderick naïvely, "and I pitied the poor dear
thing for her infatuation. Had I not thought that, I should have broken
my bonds long ago. It was not the love of the Duke's acres that held
me. I still believe that Mabel was fond of me once, but Lord Mallow
bowled me out. His eloquence, his parliamentary success, and, above
all, his flattery, proved irresistible. The scoundrel brought a
marriage certificate in his pocket when he came to stay at Ashbourne,
and had the art to engage rooms at Southampton and sleep there a night
_en passant_. He left a portmanteau and a hat-box there, and that
constituted legal occupancy; so, when he won Lady Mabel's consent to an
elopement--which I believe he did not succeed in doing till the night
before our intended wedding-day--he had only to ride over to
Southampton and give notice to the parson and clerk. The whole thing
was done splendidly. Lady Mabel went out at eight o'clock, under the
pretence of going to early church. Mallow was waiting for her with a
fly, half a mile from Ashbourne. They drove to Southampton together,
and were married at ten o'clock, in the old church of St. Michael.
While the distracted Duchess and her women were hunting everywhere for
the bride, and all the visitors at Ashbourne were arraying themselves
in their wedding finery, and the village children were filling their
baskets with flowers to strew upon the pathway of the happy pair,
emblematical of the flowers which do _not_ blossom in the highway of
life, the lady was over the border with Jock o' Hazeldean! Wasn't it
fun, Vixen?"
And the jilted one flung back his handsome head and laughed long and
loud. It was too good a joke, the welcome release coming at the last
moment.
"At half-past ten there came a telegram from my runaway bride:
"'Ask Roderick to forgive me, dear mamma. I found at the last that my
heart was not mine to give, and I am married to Lord Mallow. I do not
think my cousin will grieve very much.'
"That last clause was sensible, anyhow, was it not, Vixen?"
"I think the whole business was very sensible," said Vixen, with a
sweet grave smile; "Lord Mallow wanted a clever wife and you did not.
It was very wise of Lady Mabel to find that out before it was too late."
"She will be very happy as Lady Mallow," said Roderick. "Mallow will
legislate for Ireland, and she will rule him. He will have quite enough
of Home Rule, poor beggar. Hibernia will be Mabelised. She is a dear
good little thing. I quite love her, now she has jilted me."
"But how did you come here?" asked Vixen, looking up at her lover in
simple wonder. "All this happened only yesterday morning."
"Is there not a steamer that leaves Southampton nightly? Had there not
been one I would have chartered a boat for myself. I would have come in
a cockle-shell--I would have come with a swimming-belt--I would have
done anything wild and adventurous to hasten to my love. I started for
Southampton the minute I had seen that too blessed telegram; went to
St. Michael's, saw the register with its entry of Lord Mallow's
marriage, hardly dry; and then went down to the docks and booked my
berth. Oh, what a long day yesterday was--the longest day of my life!"
"And of mine," sighed Vixen, between tears and laughter, "in spite of
the Shepherd Kings."
"Are those Jersey people you have picked up?" Rorie asked innocently.
This turned the scale, and Vixen burst into a joyous peal of laughter.
"How did you find me here?" she asked.
"Very easily. Your custodian--what a grim-looking personage she is,
by-the-way--told me where you were gone, and directed me how to follow
you. I told her I had a most important message to deliver to you from
your mother. You don't mind that artless device, I hope?"
"Not much. How is dear mamma? She complains in her letters of not
feeling very well."
"I have not seen her lately. When I did, I thought her looking ill and
worn. She will get well when you go back to her, Vixen. Your presence
will be like sunshine."
"I shall never go back to the Abbey House."
"Yes, you will--for one fortnight at least. After that your home will
be at Briarwood. You must be married from your father's house."
"Who said I was going to be married, sir?" asked Vixen, with delicious
coquetry.
"I said it--I say it. Do you think I am too bold, darling? Ought I to
go on my knees, love, and make you a formal offer? Why I have loved you
all my life; and I think you have loved me as long."
"So I have, Rorie," she answered softly, shyly, sweetly. "I forswore
myself that night in the fir-wood. I always loved you; there was no
stage of my life when you were not dearer to me than anyone on earth,
except my father."
"Dear love, I am ashamed of my happiness," said Roderick tenderly. "I
have been so weak and unworthy. I gave away my hopes of bliss in one
foolishly soft moment, to gratify my mother's dying wish--a wish that
had been dinned into my ear the last years of her life--and I have done
nothing but repent my folly ever since. Can you forgive me, Violet? I
shall never forgive myself."
"Let the past be like a dream that we have dreamt. It will make the
future seem so much the brighter."
"Yes."
And then under the blue August sky, fearless and unabashed, these happy
lovers gave each other the kiss of betrothal.
"What am I to do with you?" Vixen asked laughingly. "I ought to go home
to Les Tourelles."
"Don't you think you might take me with you? I am your young man now,
you know. I hope it is not a case of 'no followers allowed.'"
"I'm afraid Miss Skipwith will feel disappointed in me. She thought I
was going to have a mission."
"A mission!"
"Yes; that I was going for theology. And for it all to end in my being
engaged to be married! It seems such a commonplace ending, does it not?"
"Decidedly. As commonplace as the destiny of Adam and Eve, whom God
joined together in Eden. Take me back to Les Tourelles, Vixen. I think
I shall be able to manage Miss Skipwith."
They left the battlements, and descended the narrow stairs, and went
side by side, through sunlit fields and lanes, to the old Carolian
manor house, happy with that unutterable, immeasurable joy which
belongs to happy love, and to love only; whether it be the romantic
passion of a Juliet leaning from her balcony, the holy bliss of a
mother hanging over her child's cradle, or the sober affection of the
wife who has seen the dawn and close of a silver wedding and yet loves
on with love unchangeable--a monument of constancy in an age of easy
divorce.
The distance was long; but to these two the walk was of the shortest.
It was as if they trod on flowers or airy cloud, so lightly fell their
footsteps on the happy earth.
What would Miss Skipwith say? Vixen laughed merrily at the image of
that cheated lady.
"To think that all my Egyptian researches should end in--Antony!" she
said, with a joyous look at her lover, who required to be informed
which Antony she meant.
"I remember him in Plutarch," he said. "He was a jolly fellow."
"And in Shakespeare."
"_Connais pas_," said Rorie. "I've read some of Shakespeare's plays, of
course, but not all. He wrote too much."
It was five o'clock in the afternoon when they arrived at Les
Tourelles. They had loitered a little in those sunny lanes, stopping to
look seaward through a gap in the hedge, or to examine a fern which was
like the ferns of Hampshire. They had such a world of lovers' nonsense
to say to each other, such confessions of past unhappiness, such
schemes of future bliss.
"I'm afraid you'll never like Briarwood as well as the Abbey House,"
said Rorie humbly. "I tried my best to patch it up for Lady Mabel; for,
you see, as I felt I fell short in the matter of affection, I wanted to
do the right thing in furniture and decorations. But the house is
lamentably modern and commonplace. I'm afraid you'll never be happy
there."
"Rorie, I could be happy with you if our home were no better than the
charcoal-burner's hut in Mark Ash," protested Vixen.
"It's very good of you to say that. Do you like sage-green?" Rorie
asked with a doubtful air.
"Pretty well. It reminds me of mamma's dress-maker, Madame Theodore."
"Because Mabel insisted upon having sage-green curtains, and
chair-covers, and a sage-green wall with a chocolate dado--did you ever
hear of a dado?--in the new morning-room I built for her. I'm rather
afraid you won't like it; I should have preferred pink or blue myself,
and no dado. It looks so much as if one had run short of wall-paper.
But it can all be altered by-and-by, if you don't like it."
They found Miss Skipwith pacing the weedy gravel walk in front of her
parlour window, with a disturbed air, and a yellow envelope in her hand.
"My dear, this has been an eventful day," she exclaimed. "I have been
very anxious for your return. Here is a telegram for you; and as it is
the first you have had since you have been staying here, I conclude it
is of some importance."
Vixen took the envelope eagerly from her hand.
"If you were not standing by my side, a telegram would frighten me,"
she whispered to Roderick. "It might tell me you were dead."
The telegram was from Captain Winstanley to Miss Tempest:
"Come home by the next boat. Your mother is ill, and anxious to see
you. The carriage will meet you at Southampton."
Poor Vixen looked at her lover with a conscience-stricken countenance.
"Oh, Rorie, and I have been so wickedly, wildly happy!" she cried, as
if it were a crime to have so rejoiced. "And I made so light of mamma's
last letter, in which she complained of being ill. I hardly gave it a
thought."
"I don't suppose there is anything very wrong," said Rorie, in a
comforting tone, after he had studied those few bold words in the
telegram, trying to squeeze the utmost meaning out of the brief
sentence. "You see, Captain Winstanley does not say that your mother is
dangerously ill, or even very ill; he only says ill. That might mean
something quite insignificant--hay-fever or neuralgia, or a nervous
headache."
"But he tells me to go home--he who hates me, and was so glad to get me
out of the house."
"It is your mother who summons you home, no doubt. She is mistress in
her own house, of course."
"You would not say that if you knew Captain Winstanley."
They were alone together on the gravel walk, Miss Skipwith having
retired to make tea in her dingy parlour. It had dawned upon her that
this visitor of Miss Tempest's was no common friend; and she had
judiciously left the lovers together. "Poor misguided child!" she
murmured to herself pityingly; "just as she was developing a vocation
for serious things! But perhaps if is all for the best. I doubt if she
would ever have had breadth of mind to grapple with the great problems
of natural religion."
"Isn't it dreadful?" said Vixen, walking up and down with the telegram
in her hand. "I shall have to endure hours of suspense before I can
know how my poor mother is. There is no boat till to-morrow morning.
It's no use talking, Rorie." Mr. Vawdrey was following her up and down
the walk affectionately, but not saying a word. "I feel convinced that
mamma must be seriously ill; I should not be sent for unless it were
so. In all her letters there has not been a word about my going home. I
was not wanted."
"But, dearest love, you know that your mother is apt to think seriously
of trifles."
"Rorie, you told me an hour ago that she was looking ill when last you
saw her."
Roderick looked at his watch.
"There is one thing I might do," he said, musingly. "Has Miss Skipwith
a horse and trap?"
"Not the least in the world."
"That's a pity; it would have saved time. I'll get down to St. Helier's
somehow, telegraph to Captain Winstanley to inquire the exact state of
your mother's health, and not come back till I bring you his answer."
"Oh, Rorie, that would be good of you!" exclaimed Vixen. "But it seems
too cruel to send you away like that; you have been travelling so long.
You have had nothing to eat. You must be dreadfully tired."
"Tired! Have I not been with you? There are some people whose presence
makes one unconscious of humanity's weaknesses. No, darling, I am
neither tired nor hungry; I am only ineffably happy. I'll go down and
set the wires in motion; and then I'll find out all about the steamer
for to-morrow morning, and we will go back to Hampshire together."
And again the rejoicing lover quoted the Laureate:
"And on her lover's arm she leant,
And round her waist she felt it fold;
And far across the hills they went,
In that new world which is the old."
Rorie had to walk all the way to St. Helier's. He dispatched an urgent
message to Captain Winstanley, and then dined temperately at a French
restaurant not far from the quay, where the _bon vivants_ of Jersey are
wont to assemble nightly. When he had dined he walked about the
harbour, looking at the ships, and watching the lights beginning to
glimmer from the barrack-windows, and the straggling street along the
shore, and the far-off beacons shining out, as the rosy sunset darkened
to purple night.
He went to the office two or three times before the return message had
come; but at last it was handed to him, and he read it by the
office-lamp:
"_Captain Winstanley, Abbey House, Hampshire, to Mr. Vawdrey, St.
Heliers_.
"My wife is seriously ill, but in no immediate danger. The doctors
order extreme quiet; all agitation is to be carefully avoided. Let Miss
Tempest bear this in mind when she comes home."
Roderick drove back to Les Tourelles with this message, which was in
some respects reassuring, or at any rate afforded a certainty less
appalling than Violet's measureless fears.
Vixen was sitting on the pilgrim's bench beside the manor house
gateway, watching for her lover's return. Oh, happy lover, to be thus
watched for and thus welcomed; thrice, nay, a thousandfold happy in the
certainty that she was his own for ever! He put his arm round her, and
they wandered along the shadowy lane together, between dewy banks of
tangled verdure, luminous with glow-worms. The stars were shining above
the overarching roof of foliage, the harvest moon was rising over the
distant sea.
"What a beautiful place Jersey is!" exclaimed Vixen innocently, as she
strolled lower down the lane, circled by her lover's arm. "I had no
idea it was half so lovely. But then of course I was never allowed to
roam about in the moonlight. And, indeed, Rorie, I think we had better
go in directly. Miss Skipwith will be wondering."
"Let her wonder, love. I can explain everything when we go in. She was
young herself once upon a time, though one would hardly give her credit
for it; and you may depend she has walked in this lane by moonlight.
Yes, by the light of that very same sober old moon, who has looked down
with the same indulgent smile upon endless generations of lovers."
"From Adam and Eve to Antony and Cleopatra," suggested Vixen, who
couldn't get Egypt out of her head.
"Antony and Cleopatra were middle-aged lovers," said Rorie. "The moon
must have despised them. Youth is the only season when love is wisdom,
Vixen. In later life it means folly and drivelling, wrinkles badly
hidden under paint, pencilled eyebrows, and false hair. Aphrodite
should be for ever young."
"Perhaps that's why the poor thing puts on paint and false hair when
she finds youth departed," said Vixen.
"Then she is no longer Aphrodite, but Venus Pandemos, and a wicked old
harridan," answered Rorie.
And then he began to sing, with a rich full voice that rolled far upon
the still air.
"Gather ye rose-buds while ye may,
Old Time is still a-flying;
And this same flower that smiles to-day
To-morrow will be dying,
"Then be not coy, but use your time,
And while ye may, go marry;
For having lost but once your prime,
You may for ever tarry."
"What a fine voice you have, Rorie!" cried Vixen.
"Have I really? I thought that it was only Lord Mallow who could sing.
Do you know that I was desperately jealous of that nobleman, once--when
I fancied he was singing himself into your affections. Little did I
think that he was destined to become your greatest benefactor."
"I shall make you sing duets with me, sir, by-and-by."
"You shall make me stand on my head, or play clown in an amateur
pantomime, or do anything supremely ridiculous, if you like. 'Being
your slave what can I do----'"
"Yes, you must sing Mendelssohn with me. 'I would that my love,' and
'Greeting.'"
"I have only one idea of greeting, after a cruel year of parting and
sadness," said Rorie, drawing the bright young face to his own, and
covering it with kisses.
Again Vixen urged that Miss Skipwith would be wondering, and this time
with such insistence, that Rorie was obliged to turn back and ascend
the hill.
"How cruel it is of you to snatch a soul out of Elysium," he
remonstrated. "I felt as if I was lost in some happy dream--wandering
down this path, which leads I know not where, into a dim wooded vale,
such as the fairies love to inhabit?"
"The road leads down to the inn at Le Tac, where Cockney excursionists
go to eat lobsters, and play skittles," said Vixen, laughing at her
lover.
They went back to the manor house, where they found Miss Skipwith
annotating a tremendous manuscript on blue foolscap, a work whose
outward semblance would have been enough to frighten and deter any
publisher in his right mind.
"How late you are, Violet," she said, looking up dreamily from her
manuscript. "I have been rewriting and polishing portions of my essay
on Buddha. The time has flown, and I had no idea of the hour till
Doddery came in just now to ask if he could shut up the house. And then
I remembered that you had gone out to the gate to watch for Mr.
Vawdrey."
"I'm afraid you must think our goings on rather eccentric," Rorie began
shyly; "but perhaps Vix----Miss Tempest has told you what old friends
we are; that, in fact, I am quite the oldest friend she has. I came to
Jersey on purpose to ask her to marry me, and she has been good
enough"--smiling blissfully at Vixen, who tried to look daggers at
him--"to say Yes."
"Dear me!" exclaimed Miss Skipwith, looking much alarmed; "this is very
embarrassing. I am so unversed in such matters. My life has been given
up to study, far from the haunts of man. My nephew informed me that
there was a kind of--in point of fact--a flirtation between Miss
Tempest and a gentleman in Hampshire, of which he highly disapproved,
the gentleman being engaged to marry his cousin."
"It was I," cried Rorie, "but there was no flirtation between Miss
Tempest and me. Whoever asserted such a thing was a slanderer and----I
won't offend you by saying what he was, Miss Skipwith. There was no
flirtation. I was Miss Tempest's oldest friend--her old playfellow, and
we liked to see each other, and were always friendly together. But it
was an understood thing that I was to marry my cousin. It was Miss
Tempest's particular desire that I should keep an engagement made
beside my mother's death-bed. If Miss Tempest had thought otherwise, I
should have been at her feet. I would have flung that engagement to the
winds; for Violet Tempest is the only woman I ever loved. And now all
the world may know it, for my cousin has jilted me, and I am a free
man."
"Good gracious! Can I really believe this?" asked Miss Skipwith,
appealing to Violet.
"Rorie never told a falsehood in his life," Vixen answered proudly.
"I feel myself in a most critical position, my dear child," said Miss
Skipwith, looking from Roderick's frank eager face to Vixen's downcast
eyelids and mantling blushes. "I had hoped such a different fate for
you. I thought the thirst for knowledge had arisen within you, that the
aspiration to distinguish yourself from the ruck of ignorant women
would follow the arising of that thirst, in natural sequence. And here
I find you willing to marry a gentleman who happens to have been the
companion of your childhood, and to resign--for his sake--all hopes of
distinction."
"My chances of distinction were so small, dear Miss Skipwith," faltered
Vixen. "If I had possessed your talents!"
"True," sighed the reformer of all the theologies. "We have not all the
same gifts. There was a day when I thought it would be my lot to marry
and subside into the dead level of domesticity; but I am thankful to
think I escaped the snare."
"And the gentleman who wanted to marry you, how thankful must he be!"
thought Rorie dumbly.
"Yet there have been moments of depression when I have been weak enough
to regret those early days," sighed Miss Skipwith. "At best our
strength is tempered with weakness. It is the fate of genius to be
lonely. And now I suppose I am to lose you, Violet?"
"I am summoned home to poor mamma," said Vixen.
"And after poor mamma has recovered, as I hope she speedily may, Violet
will be wanted by her poor husband," said Rorie. "You must come across
the sea and dance at our wedding, Miss Skipwith."
"Ah," sighed Miss Skipwith, "if you could but have waited for the
establishment of my universal church, what a grand ceremonial your
marriage might have been!"
Miss Skipwith, though regretful, and inclined to take a dismal view of
the marriage state and its responsibilities under the existing
dispensation, was altogether friendly. She had a frugal supper of cold
meat and salad, bread and cheese and cider, served in honour of Mr.
Vawdrey, and they three sat till midnight talking happily--Miss
Skipwith of theology, the other two of themselves and the smiling
future, and such an innocent forest life as Rosalind and Orlando may
have promised themselves, when they were deep in love, and the banished
duke's daughter sighed for no wider kingdom than a shepherd's hut in
the woodland, with the lover of her choice.
There were plenty of spare bedrooms at the manor house, but so bare and
empty, so long abandoned of human occupants, as to be fit only for the
habitation of mice and spiders, stray bat or wandering owl. So Roderick
had to walk down the hill again to St. Helier's, where he found
hospitality at an hotel. He was up betimes, too happy to need much
sleep, and at seven o'clock he and Vixen were walking in the dewy
garden, planning the wonderful life they were to lead at Briarwood, and
all the good they were to do. Happiness was to radiate from their home,
as heat from the sun. The sick, and the halt, and the lame were to come
to Briarwood; as they had come to the Abbey House before Captain
Winstanley's barren rule of economy.
"God has been so good to us, Rorie," said Vixen, nestling at her lover's
side. "Can we ever be good enough to others?"
"We'll do our best, anyhow, little one," he answered gently. "I am not
like Mallow, I've no great ideas about setting my native country in
order and doing away with the poor laws; but I've always tried to make
the people round me happy, and to keep them out of the workhouse and
the county jail."
They went to the court-yard where poor Argus lived his life of
isolation, and they told him they were going to be married, and that
his pathway henceforward would be strewn with roses, or at all events
Spratt's biscuits. He was particularly noisy and demonstrative, and
appeared to receive this news with a wild rapture that was eminently
encouraging, doing his best to knock Roderick down, in the tumult of
his delight. The lovers and the dog were alike childish in their
infinite happiness, unthinking beings of the present hour, too happy to
look backward or forward, this little space of time called "now"
holding all things needful for delight.
These are the rare moments of life, to which the heart of man cries,
"Oh stay, thou art so beautiful!" and could the death-bell toll then,
and doom come then, life would end in a glorious euthanasia.
Violet's portmanteaux were packed. All was ready. There would be just
time for a hurried breakfast with Miss Skipwith, and then the fly from
St. Helier's would be at the gate to carry the exile on the first stage
of the journey home.
"Poor mamma!" sighed Vixen. "How wicked of me to feel go happy, when
she is ill."
And then Rorie comforted her with kindly-meant sophistries. Mrs.
Winstanley's indisposition was doubtless more an affair of the nerves
than a real illness. She would be cheered and revived immediately by
her daughter's return.
"How could she suppose she would be able to live without you!" cried
Rorie. "I know I found life hard to bear."
"Yet you bore it for more than a year with admirable patience,"
retorted Vixen, laughing at him; "and I do not find you particularly
altered or emaciated."
"Oh, I used to eat and drink," said Rorie, with a look of
self-contempt. "I'm afraid I'm a horribly low-minded brute. I used even
to enjoy my dinner, sometimes, after a long country ride; but I could
never make you understand what a bore life was to me all last year, how
the glory and enjoyment seemed to have gone out of existence. The
dismal monotony of my days weighed upon me like a nightmare. Life had
become a formula. I felt like a sick man who has to take so many doses
of medicine, so many pills, so many basins of broth, in the twenty-four
hours. There was no possible resistance. The sick-nurse was there, in
the shape of Fate, ready to use brute force if I rebelled. I never did
rebel. I assure you, Vixen, I was a model lover. Mabel and I had not a
single quarrel. I think that is a proof that we did not care a straw
for each other."
"You and I will have plenty of quarrels," said Vixen. "It will be so
nice to make friends again."
Now came the hurried breakfast--a cup of tea drunk, standing, not a
crumb eaten; agitated adieux to Miss Skipwith, who wept very womanly
tears over her departing charge, and uttered good wishes in a choking
voice. Even the Dodderys seemed to Vixen more human than usual, now
that she was going to leave them, in all likelihood for ever. Miss
Skipwith came to the gate to see the travellers off, and ascended the
pilgrim's bench in order to have the latest view of the fly. From this
eminence she waved her handkerchief as a farewell salutation.
"Poor soul!" sighed Vixen; "she has never been unkind to me; but oh!
what a dreary life I have led in that dismal old house!"
They had Argus in the fly with them, sitting up, with his mouth open,
and his tail flapping against the bottom of the vehicle in perpetual
motion. He kept giving his paw first to Vixen and then to Rorie, and
exacted a great deal of attention, insomuch that Mr. Vawdrey exclaimed:
"Vixen, if you don't keep that dog within bounds, I shall think him as
great a nuisance as a stepson. I offered to marry you, you know, not
you and your dog."
"You are very rude!" cried Vixen.
"You don't expect me to be polite, I hope. What is the use of marrying
one's old playfellow if one cannot be uncivil to her now and then? To
me you will always be the tawny-haired little girl I used to tease."
"Who used to tease you, you mean. You were very meek in those days."
Oh, what a happy voyage that was, over the summer sea! They sat side by
side upon the bridge, sheltered from wind and sun, and talked the happy
nonsense lovers talk: but which can hardly be so sweet between lovers
whose youth and childhood have been spent far apart, as between these
two who had been reared amidst the same sylvan world, and had every
desire and every thought in unison. How brief the voyage seemed. It was
but an hour or so since Roderick had been buying peaches and grapes, as
they lay at the end of the pier at Guernsey, and here were the Needles
and the chalky cliffs and undulating downs of the Wight. The Wight!
That meant Hampshire and home!
"How often those downs have been our weather-glass, Rorie, when we have
been riding across the hills between Lyndhurst and Beaulieu," said
Vixen.
She had a world of questions to ask him about all that had happened
during her exile. She almost expected to hear that Lyndhurst steeple
had fallen; that the hounds had died of old age; that the Knightwood
Oak had been struck by lightning; or that some among those calamities
which time naturally brings had befallen the surroundings of her home.
It was the strangest thing in the world to hear that nothing had
happened, that everything was exactly the same as it had been when she
went away. That dreary year of exile had seemed long enough for
earthquakes and destructions, or even for slow decay.
"Do you know what became of Arion?" asked Vixen, almost afraid to shape
the question.
"Oh, I believe he was sold, soon after you left home," Rorie answered
carelessly.
"Sold!" echoed Vixen drearily. "Poor dear thing! Yes, I felt sure
Captain Winstanley would sell him. But I hoped----"
"What?"
"That some one I knew might buy him. Lord Mallow perhaps."
"Lord Mallow! Ah, you thought he would buy your horse, for love of the
rider. But you see constancy isn't one of that noble Irishman's
virtues. He loves and he rides away--when the lady won't have him, bien
entendu. No, Arion was sent up to Tattersall's, and disposed of in the
usual way. Some fellow bought him for a covert hack."
"I hope the man wasn't a heavy weight," exclaimed Vixen, almost in
tears.
She thought Rorie was horribly unfeeling.
"What does it matter? A horse must earn his salt."
"I had rather my poor pet had been shot, and buried in one of the
meadows at home," said Vixen plaintively.
"Captain Winstanley was too wise to allow that. Your poor pet fetched a
hundred and forty-five guineas under the hammer."
"I don't think it is very kind of you to talk of him so lightly," said
Vixen.
This was the only little cloud that came between them in all the
voyage. Long before sunset they were steaming into Southampton Water,
and the yellow light was still shining on the furzy levels, when the
brougham that contained Vixen and her fortunes drove along the road to
Lyndhurst.
She had asked the coachman for news of his mistress, and had been told
that Mrs. Winstanley was pretty much the same. The answer was in some
measure reassuring: yet Violet's spirits began to sink as she drew
nearer home, and must so soon find herself face to face with the truth.
There was a sadness too in that quiet evening hour; and the shadowy
distances seemed full of gloom, after the dancing waves, and the gay
morning light.
The dusk was creeping slowly on as the carriage passed the lodge, and
drove between green walls of rhododendron to the house. Captain
Winstanley was smoking his cigar in the porch, leaning against the
Gothic masonry, in the attitude Vixen knew so well of old.
"If my mother were lying in her coffin I daresay he would be just the
same," she thought bitterly.
The Captain came down to open the carriage-door. Vixen's first glance
at his face showed her that he looked worn and anxious.
"Is mamma very ill?" she asked tremulously.
"Very ill," he answered, in a low voice. "Mind, you are to do or say
nothing that can agitate her. You must be quiet and cheerful. If you
see a change you must take care to say nothing about it."
"Why did you leave me so long in ignorance of her illness? Why did you
not send for me sooner?"
"Your mother has only been seriously ill within the past few days. I
sent for you directly I saw any occasion for your presence," the
Captain answered coldly.
He now for the first time became aware of Mr. Vawdrey, who had got out
of the brougham on the other side and came round to assist in the
unshipment of Violet's belongings.
"Good evening, Mr. Vawdrey. Where in Heaven's name did you spring
from?" he inquired, with a vexed air.
"I have had the honour of escorting Miss Tempest from Jersey, where I
happened to be when she received your telegram."
"Wasn't that rather an odd proceeding, and likely to cause scandal?"
"I think not; for before people can hear that Miss Tempest and I
crossed in the same boat I hope they will have heard that Miss Tempest
and I are going to be married."
"I see," cried the Captain, with a short laugh of exceeding bitterness;
"being off with the old love you have made haste to be on with the new."
"I beg your pardon. It is no new love, but a love as old as my
boyhood," answered Rorie. "In one weak moment of my life I was foolish
enough to let my mother choose a wife for me, though I had made my own
choice, unconsciously, years before."
"May I go to mamma at once?" asked Vixen.
The Captain said Yes, and she went up the staircase and along the
corridor to Mrs. Winstanley's room. Oh, how dear and familiar the old
house looked, how full of richness and colour after the bareness and
decay of Les Tourelles; brocaded curtains hanging in heavy folds
against the carved oaken framework of a deep-set window; gleams of
evening light stealing through old stained glass; everywhere a rich
variety of form and hue that filled and satisfied the eye; a house
worth living in assuredly, with but a little love to sanctify and
hallow all these things. But how worthless these things if discord and
hatred found a habitation among them.
The door of Mrs. Winstanley's room stood half open, and the lamplight
shone faintly from within. Violet went softly in. Her mother was lying
on a sofa by the hearth, where a wood-fire had been newly lighted.
Pauline was sitting opposite her, reading aloud in a very sleepy voice
out of the _Court Journal:_ "The bride was exquisitely attired in ivory
satin, with flounces of old _Duchesse_ lace, the skirt covered with
_tulle_, _bouilloné_, and looped with garlands of orange-blossom----"
"Pauline," murmured the invalid feebly, "will you never learn to read
with expression? You are giving me the vaguest idea of Lady Evelyn
Fitzdamer's appearance."
Violet went over to the sofa and knelt by her mother's side and
embraced her tenderly, looking at her earnestly all the while, in the
clear soft lamp-light. Yes, there was indeed a change. The always
delicate face was pinched and shrunken. The ivory of the complexion had
altered to a dull gray. Premature age had hollowed the cheeks, and
lined the forehead. It was a change that meant decline and death.
Violet's heart sank as she beheld it: but she remembered the Captain's
warning, and bravely strove to put on an appearance of cheerfulness.
"Dear mother, I am so happy to come home to you," she said gaily; "and
I am going to nurse and pet you, for the next week or so; till you get
tremendously well and strong, and are able to take me to innumerable
parties."
"My dear Violet, I have quite given up parties; and I shall never be
strong again."
"Dearest, it has always been your habit to fancy yourself an invalid."
"Yes, Violet, once I may have been full of fancies: but now I know that
I am ill. You will not be unkind or unjust to Conrad, will you, dear?
He sent for you directly I asked him. He has been all goodness to me.
Try and get on with him nicely, dear, for my sake."
This was urged with such piteous supplication, that it would have
needed a harder heart than Violet's to deny the prayer.
"Dear mother, forget that the Captain and I ever quarrelled," said
Vixen. "I mean to be excellent friends with him henceforward. And,
darling, I have a secret to tell you if you would like to hear it."
"What secret, dear?"
"Lady Mabel Ashbourne has jilted Roderick!"
"My love, that is no secret. I heard all about it day before yesterday.
People have talked of nothing else since it happened. Lady Mabel has
behaved shamefully."
"Lady Mabel has behaved admirably. If other women were wise enough to
draw back at the last moment there would be fewer unhappy marriages.
But Lady Mabel's elopement is only the prologue to my story."
"What can you mean, child?"
"Roderick came to Jersey to make me an offer."
"So soon! Oh, Violet, what bad taste!"
"Ought he to have gone into mourning? He did not even sing willow, but
came straight off to me, and told me he had loved me all his life; so
now you will have my _trousseau_ to think about, dearest, and I shall
want all your good taste. You know how little I have of my own."
"Ah, Violet, if you had only married Lord Mallow! I could have given my
whole mind to your _trousseau_ then; but it is too late now, dear. I
have not strength enough to interest myself in anything."
The truth of this complaint was painfully obvious. Pamela's day was
done. She lay, half effaced among her down pillows, as weak and
helpless-looking as a snowdrop whose stem is broken. The life that was
left in her was the merest remnant of life. It was as if one could see
the last sands running down in the glass of time.
Violet sat by her side, and pressed her cold hands in both her own.
Mrs. Winstanley was very cold, although the log had blazed up fiercely,
and the room seemed stifling to the traveller who had come out of the
cool night air.
"Dear mother, there will be no pleasure for me in being married if you
do not take an interest in my _trousseau_," pleaded Vixen, trying to
cheer the invalid by dwelling on the things her soul had most loved in
health.
"Do not talk about it, my dear," her mother exclaimed peevishly. "I
don't know where the money is to come from. Theodore's bill was
positively dreadful. Poor Conrad had quite a struggle to pay it. You
will be rich when you are of age, but we are awfully poor. If we do not
save money during the next few years we shall be destitute. Conrad says
so. Fifteen hundred a year, and a big house like this to maintain. It
would be starvation. Conrad has closed Theodore's account. I am sure I
don't know where your _trousseau_ is to come from."
Here the afflicted Pamela began to sob hysterically, and Vixen found it
hard work to comfort her.
"My dearest mother, how can you be poor and I rich?" she said, when the
invalid had been tranquillised, and was lying helpless and exhausted.
"Do you suppose I would not share my income with you? Rorie has plenty
of money. He would not want any of mine. You can have it all, if you
like."
"You talk like a child, Violet. You know nothing of the world. Do you
think I would take your money, and let people say I robbed my own
daughter? I have a little too much self-respect for that. Conrad is
doing all he can to make our future comfortable. I have been foolish
and extravagant. But I shall never be so any more. I do not care about
dress or society now. I have outlived those follies."
"Dear mother, I cannot bear to hear you talk like that," said Vixen,
feeling that when her mother left off caring about fine dresses she
must be getting ready for that last garment which we must all wear some
day, the fashion whereof changes but little. "Why should you relinquish
society, or leave off dressing stylishly? You are in the prime of life."
"No, Violet, I am a poor faded creature," whimpered Mrs. Winstanley,
"stout women are handsome at forty, or even"--with a
shudder--"five-and-forty. The age suits their style. But I was always
slim and fragile, and of late I have grown painfully thin. No one but a
Parisian dressmaker could make me presentable; and I have done with
Paris dresses. The utmost I can hope for is to sit alone by the
fireside, and work antimacassars in crewels."
"But, dear mother, you did not marry Captain Winstanley in order to
lead such a life as that? You might as well be in a _béguinage_."
Vain were Vixen's efforts to console and cheer. A blight had fallen
upon her mother's mind and spirits--a blight that had crept slowly on,
unheeded by the husband, till one morning the local practitioner--a
gentleman who had lived all his life among his patients, and knew them
so well externally that he might fairly be supposed to have a minute
acquaintance with their internal organism--informed Captain Winstanley
that he feared there was something wrong with his wife's heart, and
that he thought that it would be well to get the highest opinion.
The Captain, startled out of his habitual self-command, looked up from
his desk with an ashy countenance.
"Do you mean that Mrs. Winstanley has heart disease--something
organically wrong?"
"Unhappily I fear it is so. I have been for some time aware that she
had a weak heart. Her complexion, her feeble circulation, several
indications have pointed to that conclusion. This morning I have made a
thorough examination, and I find mischief, decided mischief."
"That means she may die at any moment, suddenly, without an instant's
warning."
"There would always be that fear. Or she might sink gradually from want
of vital power. There is a sad deficiency of power. I hardly ever knew
anyone remain so long in so low a state."
"You have been attending her, off and on, ever since our marriage. You
must have seen her sinking. Why have you not warned me before?"
"It seemed hardly necessary. You must have perceived the change
yourself. You must have noticed her want of appetite, her distaste for
exertion of any kind, her increasing feebleness."
"I am not a doctor."
"No; but these are things that speak plainly to every eye--to the eye
of affection most of all."
"We are slow to perceive the alteration in anyone we see daily and
hourly. You should have drawn my attention to my wife's health. It is
unfair, it is horrible to let this blow come upon me unawares."
If the Captain had appeared indifferent hitherto, there was no doubt of
the intensity of his feeling now. He had started up from his chair, and
walked backwards and forwards, strongly agitated.
"Shall we have another opinion?" asked Dr. Martin.
"Certainly. The highest in the land."
"Dr. Lorrimer, of Harley Street, is the most famous man for heart
disease."
"I'll telegraph to him immediately," said the Captain.
He ordered his horse, rode into Lyndhurst and dispatched his telegram
without the loss of a minute. Never had Dr. Martin seen anyone more in
earnest, or more deeply stricken by an announcement of evil.
"Poor fellow, he must be very fond of her," mused the surgeon, as he
rode off to his next call. "And yet I should have thought she must be
rather a tiresome kind of woman to live with. Her income dies with her
I suppose. That makes a difference."
The specialist from Harley Street arrived at the Abbey House on the
following afternoon. He made his examination and gave his opinion,
which was very much the same as Dr. Martin's, but clothed in more
scientific language.
"This poor lady's heart has been wearing out for the last twenty
years," he told the local surgeon; "but she seems, from your account,
to have been using it rather worse for the last year or so. Do you know
if she has had any particular occasion for worry?"
"Her only daughter has not got on very well with the second husband, I
believe," said Dr. Martin. "That may have worried her."
"Naturally. Small domestic anxieties of that kind are among the most
potent causes of heart disease." And then Dr. Lorrimer gave his
instructions about treatment. He had not the faintest hope of saving
the patient, but he gave her the full benefit of his science. A man
could scarcely come so far and do less. When he went out into the hall
and met the Captain, who was waiting anxiously for his verdict, he
began in the usual oracular strain; but Captain Winstanley cut him
short without ceremony.
"I don't want to hear details," he said. "Martin will do everything you
tell him. I want the best or the worst you can tell me in straightest
language. Can you save my wife, or am I to lose her?"
"My dear sir, while there is life there is hope," answered the
physician, with the compassionate air that had grown habitual, like his
black frock-coat and general sobriety of attire. "I have seen wonderful
recoveries--or rather a wonderful prolongation of life, for cure is, of
course, impossible--in cases as bad as this. But----"
"Ah!" cried the Captain, bitterly, "there is a 'but.'"
"In this case there is a sad want of rallying power. Frankly, I have
very little hope. Do all you can to cheer and comfort your wife's mind,
and to make her last days happy. All medicine apart, that is about the
best advice I can give you."
After this the doctor took his fee, gave the Captain's hand a cordial
grip, expressive of sympathy and kindliness, and went his way, feeling
assured that a good deal hung upon that little life which he had left
slowly ebbing away, like a narrow rivulet dwindling into dryness under
a July sun.
"What does the London doctor say of me, Conrad?" asked Mrs. Winstanley,
when her husband went to her presently, with his countenance composed
and cheerful. "He tired me dreadfully with his stethoscope. Does he
think me very ill? Is there anything wrong with my lungs?"
"No, love. It is a case of weakness and languor. You must make up your
mind to get strong; and you will do more for yourself than all the
physicians in London can do."
"But what does he say of my heart? How does he explain that dreadful
fluttering--the suffocating sensation--the----?'
"He explains nothing. It is a nervous affection, which you must combat
by getting strong. Dear love!" exclaimed the Captain, with a very real
burst of feeling, "what can I do to make your life happy? what can I do
to assure you of my love?"
"Send for Violet," faltered his wife, raising herself upon her elbow,
and looking at him with timorous eagerness. "I have never been happy
since she left us. It seems as if I had turned her out of doors--out of
her own house--my kind husband's only daughter. It has preyed upon my
mind continually, that--and other things."
"Dearest, I will telegraph to her in an hour. She shall be with you as
soon as the steamer can bring her."
"A thousand thanks, Conrad. You are always good. I know I have been
weak and foolish to think----"
Here she hesitated, and tears began to roll down her hollow cheeks.
"To think what, love?" asked her husband tenderly.
If love, if tenderness, if flattery, if all sweetest things that ever
man said to a woman could lure this feeble spirit back to life, she
should be so won, vowed the Captain. He had never been unkind to her,
or thought unkindly of her. If he had never loved her, he had, at
least, been tolerant. But now, clinging to her as the representative of
fortune, happiness, social status, he felt that she was assuredly his
best and dearest upon earth.
"To think that you never really cared for me!" she whimpered; "that you
married me for the sake of this house, and my income!"
"Pamela, do you remember what Tom Jones said to his mistress when she
pretended to doubt his love?"
"My dear Conrad, I never read 'Tom Jones,' I have heard dear Edward
talk of it as if it was something too dreadful."
"Ah, I forgot. Of course, it is not a lady's book. Tom told his Sophia
to look in the glass, if she were inclined to question his love for
her, and one look at her own sweet face would convince her of his
truth. Let it be so with yourself, dear. Ask yourself why I should not
love the sweetest and most lovable of women."
If sugarplums of speech, if loverlike attentions could have cured
Pamela Winstanley's mortal sickness, she might yet have recovered. But
the hour had gone by when such medicaments might have prevailed. While
the Captain had shot, and hunted, and caught mighty salmon, and
invested his odd hundreds, and taken his own pleasure in various ways,
with almost all the freedom of bachelor life, his wife had, unawares,
been slowly dying. The light had burned low in the socket; and who
shall reillumine that brief candle when its day is over? It needed now
but a breath to quench the feeble flame.
"Great Heaven!" cried Captain Winstanley, pacing up and down his study,
distraught with the pangs of wounded self-interest; "I have been taking
care of her money, when I ought to have taken care of her. It is her
life that all hangs upon: and I have let that slip through my fingers
while I have planned and contrived to save a few beggarly hundreds.
Short-sighted idiot that I have been! Poor Pamela! And she has been so
yielding, so compliant to my every wish! A month--a week, perhaps--and
she will be gone: and that handsome spitfire will have the right to
thrust me from this house. No, my lady, I will not afford you that
triumph. My wife's coffin and I will go out together."
CHAPTER X.
"All the Rivers run into the Sea."
For some days Violet's return seemed to have a happy effect upon the
invalid. Never had daughter been more devoted, more loving, fuller of
sweet cares and consolations for a dying mother, than this daughter.
Seeing the mother and child together in this supreme hour, no onlooker
could have divined that these two had been ever less fondly united than
mother and child should be. The feeble and fading woman seemed to lean
on the strong bright girl, to gain a reflected strength from her
fulness of life and vigour. It was as if Vixen, with her shining hair
and fair young face, brought healthful breezes into the sickly perfumed
atmosphere of the invalid's rooms.
Roderick Vawdrey had a hard time of it during these days of sadness and
suspense. He could not deny the right of his betrothed to devote all
her time and thought to a dying mother; and yet, having but newly won
her for his very own, after dreary years of constraint and severance,
he longed for her society as lover never longed before; or at least he
thought so. He hung about the Abbey House all day, heedless of the
gloomy looks he got from Captain Winstanley, and of the heavy air of
sadness that pervaded the house, and was infinitely content and happy
when he was admitted to Mrs. Winstanley's boudoir to take an afternoon
cup of tea, and talk for half-an-hour or so, in subdued tones, with
mother and daughter.
"I am very glad that things have happened as they have, Roderick," Mrs.
Winstanley said languidly; "though I'm afraid it would make your poor
mamma very unhappy if she could know about it. She had so set her heart
on your marrying Lady Mabel."
"Forgetting that it was really my heart which was concerned in the
business," said Rorie. "Dear Mabel was wise enough to show us all the
easiest way out of our difficulties. I sent her my mother's emerald
cross and earrings, the day before yesterday, with as pretty a letter
as I could write. I think it was almost poetical."
"And those emeralds of Lady Jane Vawdrey's are very fine," remarked
Mrs. Winstanley. "I don't think there is a feather in one of the
stones."
"It was almost like giving away your property, wasn't it, Vixen?" said
Rorie, looking admiringly at his beloved. "But I have a lot of my
mother's jewels for you, and I wanted to send Mabel something, to show
her that I was not ungrateful."
"You acted very properly, Rorie; and as to jewellery, you know very
well I don't care a straw for it."
"It is a comfort to me to know you will have Lady Jane's pearl
necklace," murmured Mrs. Winstanley. "It will go so well with my
diamond locket. Ah, Rorie, I wish I had been strong enough to see to
Violet's _trousseau_. It is dreadful to think that it may have to be
made by a provincial dressmaker, and with no one to supervise and
direct."
"Dearest mother, you are going to supervise everything," exclaimed
Vixen. "I shall not think of being married till you are well and strong
again."
"That will be never," sighed the invalid.
Upon this point she was very firm. They all tried--husband, daughter,
and friends--to delude her with false hopes, thinking thus to fan the
flame of life and keep the brief candle burning a little longer. She
was not deceived. She felt herself gradually, painlessly sinking. She
complained but little; much less than in the days when her ailments had
been in some part fanciful; but she knew very surely that her day was
done.
"It is very sweet to have you with me, Violet," she said. "Your
goodness, and Conrad's loving attentions, make me very happy. I feel
almost as if I should like to live a few years longer."
"Only almost, mother darling?" exclaimed Violet reproachfully.
"I don't know, dear. I have such a weary feeling; as if life at the
very best were not worth the trouble it cost us. I shouldn't mind going
on living if I could always lie here, and take no trouble about
anything, and be nursed and waited upon, and have you or Conrad always
by my side--but to get well again, and to have to get up, and go about
among other people, and take up all the cares of life--no dear, I am
much too weary for that. And then if I could get well to-morrow, old
age and death would still be staring me in the face. I could not escape
them. No, love, it is much better to die now, before I am very old, or
quite hideous; even before my hair is gray."
She took up one of the soft auburn tresses from her pillow, and looked
at it, half sadly.
"Your dear papa used to admire my hair, Violet," she said. "There are a
few gray hairs, but you would hardly notice them; but my hair is much
thinner than it used to be, and I don't think I could ever have made up
my mind to wear false hair. It never quite matches one's own. I have
seen Lady Ellangowan wearing three distinct heads of hair; and yet
gentlemen admire her."
Mrs. Winstanley was always at her best during those afternoon
tea-drinkings. The strong tea revived her; Roderick's friendly face and
voice cheered her. They took her back to the remote past, to the kind
Squire's day of glory, which she remembered as the happiest time of her
life; even now, when her second husband was doing all things possible
to prove his sincerity and devotion. She had never been completely
happy in this second marriage. There had always been a flavour of
remorse mingled with her cup of joy; the vague consciousness that she
had done a foolish thing, and that the world--her little world within a
radius of twenty miles--was secretly laughing at her.
"Do you remember the day we came home from our honeymoon, Conrad," she
said to her husband, as he sat by her in the dusk one evening, sad and
silent, "when there was no carriage to meet us, and we had to come home
in a fly? It was an omen, was it not?"
"An omen of what, dearest?"
"That all things were not to go well with us in our married life; that
we were not to be quite happy."
"Have you not been happy, Pamela? I have tried honestly to do my duty
to you."
"I know you have, Conrad. You have been all goodness; I always have
said so to Violet--and to everyone. But I have had my cares. I felt
that I was too old for you. That has preyed upon my mind."
"Was that reasonable, Pamela, when I have never felt it?"
"Perhaps not at first; and even if you had felt the disparity in our
ages you would have been too generous to let me perceive the change in
your feelings. But I should have grown an old woman while you were
still a young man. It would have been too dreadful. Indeed, dear, it is
better as it is. Providence is very good to me."
"Providence is not very good to me, in taking you from me," said the
Captain, with a touch of bitterness.
It seemed to him passing selfish in his wife to be so resigned to
leaving life, and so oblivious of the fact that her income died with
her, and that he was to be left out in the cold. One evening, however,
when they were sitting alone together, this fact presented itself
suddenly to her mind.
"You will lose the Abbey House when I am gone, Conrad."
"My love, do you think I could live in this house without you?"
"And my income, Conrad; that dies with me, does it not?"
"Yes, love."
"That is hard for you."
"I can bear that, Pamela, if I am to bear the loss of you."
"Dearest love, you have always been disinterested. How could I ever
doubt you? Perhaps--indeed I am sure--if I were to ask Violet, she
would give you the fifteen hundred a year that I was to have had after
she came of age."
"Pamela, I could not accept any favour from your daughter. You would
deeply offend me if you were to suggest such a thing."
This was true. Much as he valued money, he would have rather starved
than taken sixpence from the girl who had scorned him; the girl whose
very presence gave rise to a terrible conflict in his
breast--passionate love, bitterest antagonism.
"There are the few things that I possess myself--jewels, books,
furniture--special gifts of dear Edward's. Those are my own, to dispose
of as I like. I might make a will leaving them to you, Conrad. They are
trifles, but----"
"They will be precious _souvenirs_ of our wedded life," murmured the
Captain, who was very much of Mr. Wemmick's opinion, that portable
property of any kind was worth having.
A will was drawn up and executed next day, in which Mrs. Winstanley
left her diamonds to her daughter, her wardrobe to the faithful and
long-suffering Pauline--otherwise Mary Smith--and all the rest of her
belongings to her dearly-beloved husband, Conrad Winstanley. The
Captain was a sufficient man of business to take care that this will
was properly executed.
In all this time his daily intercourse with Violet was a source of
exceeding bitterness. She was civil, and even friendly in her manner to
him--for her mother's sake. And then, in the completeness of her union
with Rorie, she could afford to be generous and forgiving. The old
spirit of antagonism died out: her foe was so utterly fallen. A few
weeks and the old home would be her own--the old servants would come
back, the old pensioners might gather again around the kitchen-door.
All could be once more as it had been in her father's lifetime; and no
trace of Conrad Winstanley's existence would be left; for, alas! it was
now an acknowledged fact that Violet's mother was dying. The most
sanguine among her friends had ceased to hope. She herself was utterly
resigned. She spent some part of each day in gentle religious exercises
with kindly Mr. Scobel. Her last hours were as calm and reasonable as
those of Socrates.
So Captain Winstanley had to sit quietly by, and see Violet and her
lover grouped by his fading wife's sofa, and school himself, as he best
might, to endure the spectacle of their perfect happiness in each
other's love, and to know that he--who had planned his future days so
wisely, and provided, like the industrious ant, for the winter of his
life--had broken down in his scheme of existence, after all, and had no
more part in this house which he had deemed his own than a traveller at
an inn.
It was hard, and he sat beside his dying wife, with anger and envy
gnawing his heart--anger against fate, envy of Roderick Vawdrey, who
had won the prize. If evil wishes could have killed, neither Violet nor
her lover would have outlived that summer. Happily the Captain was too
cautious a man to be guilty of any overt act of rage or hatred. His
rancorous feelings were decently hidden under a gentlemanly iciness of
manner, to which no one could take objection.
The fatal hour came unawares, one calm September afternoon, about six
weeks after Violet's return from Jersey. Captain Winstanley had been
reading one of Tennyson's idyls to his wife, till she sank into a
gentle slumber. He left her, with Pauline seated at work by one of the
windows, and went to his study to write some letters. Five o'clock was
the established hour for kettledrum, but of late the invalid had been
unable to bear even the mild excitement of two or three visitors at
this time. Violet now attended alone to her mother's afternoon tea,
kneeling by her side as she sipped the refreshing infusion, and coaxing
her to eat a waferlike slice of bread-and-butter, or a few morsels of
sponge-cake.
This afternoon, when Violet went softly into the room, carrying the
little Japanese tray and tiny teapot, she found her mother lying just
as the Captain had left her an hour before.
"She's been sleeping so sweetly, miss," whispered Pauline. "I never
knew her sleep so quiet since she's been ill."
That stillness which seemed so good a thing to the handmaid frightened
the daughter. Violet set her tray down hastily on the nearest table,
and ran to her mother's sofa. She looked at the pale and sunken cheek,
just visible in the downy hollow of the pillows; she touched the hand
lying on the silken coverlet. That marble coldness, that waxen hue of
the cheek, told her the awful truth. She fell on her knees beside the
sofa, with a cry of sharp and sudden sorrow.
"Oh mother, mother! I ought to have loved you better all my life!"
CHAPTER XI.
The Bluebeard Chamber.
The day before the funeral Captain Winstanley received a letter from
his stepdaughter, offering to execute any deed he might choose to have
prepared, settling upon him the income which his wife was to have had
after Violet's majority.
"I know that you are a heavy loser by my mother's death," she wrote,
"and I shall be glad to do anything in my power to lessen that loss. I
know well that it was her earnest wish that your future should be
provided for. I told her a few days before she died that I should make
you this offer. I do it with all my heart; and I shall consider myself
obliged by your acceptance of it."
The Captain's reply was brief and firm.
"I thank you for your generous offer," he said, "which I feel assured
is made in good faith; but I think you ought to know that there are
reasons why it is impossible I should accept any benefit from your
hand. I shall not re-enter the Abbey House after my wife's funeral. You
will be sole and sovereign mistress of all things from that hour."
He kept his word. He was chief mourner at the quiet but stately burial
under the old yew-tree in Beechdale churchyard. When all was over he
got into a fly, and drove to the station at Lyndhurst Road, whence he
departed by the first train for London. He told no one anything about
his plans for the future; he left no address but his club. He was next
heard of six months later, in South America.
Violet had telegraphed to her old governess directly after Mrs.
Winstanley's death; and that good and homely person arrived on the day
after the funeral, to take up her abode with her old pupil, as
companion and chaperon, until Miss Tempest should have become Mrs.
Vawdrey, and would have but one companion henceforward in all the
journey of life. Rorie and Vixen were to be married in six months. Mrs.
Winstanley had made them promise that her death should delay their
marriage as little as possible.
"You can have a very quiet wedding, you know, dear," she said. "You can
be married in your travelling-dress--something pretty in gray silk and
terry velvet, or with chinchilla trimming, if it should be winter.
Chinchilla is so distinguished-looking. You will go abroad, I suppose,
for your honeymoon. Pau, or Monaco, or any of those places on the
Mediterranean."
It had pleased her to settle everything for the lovers. Violet
remembered all these speeches with a tender sorrow. There was comfort
in the thought that her mother had loved her, according to her lights.
It had been finally settled between the lovers that they were to live
at the Abbey House. Briarwood was to be let to any wealthy individual
who might desire a handsome house, surrounded by exquisitely arranged
gardens, and burdened with glass that would cost a small fortune
annually to maintain. Before Mr. Vawdrey could put his property into
the hands of the auctioneers, he received a private offer which was in
every respect satisfactory.
Lady Mallow wished to spend some part of every year near her father and
mother, who lived a good deal at Ashbourne, the Duke becoming yearly
more devoted to his Chillingham oxen and monster turnips. Lord Mallow,
who loved his native isle to distraction, but always found six weeks in
a year a sufficient period of residence there, was delighted to please
his bride, and agreed to take Briarwood, furnished, on a seven-years'
lease. The orchid-houses were an irresistible attraction, and by this
friendly arrangement Lady Mallow would profit by the alterations and
improvements her cousin had made for her gratification, when he
believed she was to be his wife.
Briarwood thus disposed of, Rorie was free to consider the Abbey House
his future home; and Violet had the happiness of knowing that the good
old house in which her childhood had been spent would be her habitation
always, till she too was carried to the family vault under the old
yew-tree. There are people who languish for change, for whom the newest
is ever the best; but it was not thus with Violet Tempest. The people
she had known all her life, the scenes amidst which she had played when
a child, were to her the dearest people and the loveliest scenes upon
earth. It would be pleasant to her to travel with her husband, and see
fair lands across the sea: but pleasanter still would be the
home-coming to the familiar hearth beside which her father had sat, the
old faces that had looked upon him, the hands that had served him, the
gardens he had planted and improved.
"I should like to show you Briarwood before it is let, Vixen," Mr.
Vawdrey said to his sweetheart, one November morning. "You may at least
pay my poor patrimony the compliment of looking at it before it becomes
the property of Lord and Lady Mallow. Suppose you and Miss McCroke
drive over and drink tea with me this afternoon? I believe my
housekeeper brews pretty good tea."
"Very well, Rorie, we'll come to tea. I should rather like to see the
improvements you made for Lady Mabel, before your misfortune. I think
Lord Mallow must consider it very good of you to let him have the
benefit of all the money you spent, instead of bringing an action for
breach of promise against his wife, as you might very well have done."
"I daresay. But you see I am of a forgiving temper. Well, I shall tell
my housekeeper to have tea and buns, and jam, and all the things
children--and young ladies--like, at four o'clock. We had better make
it four instead of five, as the afternoons are so short."
"If you are impertinent we won't come."
"Oh yes you will. Curiosity will bring you. Remember this will be your
last chance of seeing the Bluebeard chamber at Briarwood."
"Is there a Bluebeard chamber?"
"Of course. Did you ever know of a family mansion without one?"
Vixen was delighted at the idea of exploring her lover's domain, now
that he and it were her own property. How well she remembered going
with her father to the meet on Briarwood lawn. Yet it seemed a century
ago--the very beginning of her life--before she had known sorrow.
Miss McCroke, who was ready to do anything her pupil desired, was
really pleased at the idea of seeing the interior of Briarwood.
"I have never been inside the doors, you know, dear," she said, "often
as I have driven past the gates with your dear mamma. Lady Jane Vawdrey
was not the kind of person to invite a governess to go and see her. She
was a strict observer of the laws of caste. The Duchess has much less
pride."
"I don't think Lady Jane ever quite forgave herself for marrying a
commoner," said Vixen. "She revenged her own weakness upon other
people."
Violet had a new pair of ponies, which her lover had chosen for her,
after vain endeavours to trace and recover the long-lost Titmouse.
These she drove to Briarwood, Miss McCroke resigning herself to the
will of Providence with a blind submission worthy of a Moslem; feeling
that if it were written that she was to be flung head foremost out of a
pony-carriage, the thing would happen sooner or later. Staying at home
to-day would not ward off to-morrow's doom. So she took her place in
the cushioned valley by Violet's side, and sat calm and still, while
the ponies, warranted quiet to drive in single or double harness, stood
up on end and made as if they had a fixed intention of scaling the
rhododendron bank.
"They'll settle down directly I've taken the freshness out of them,"
said Vixen, blandly, as she administered a reproachful touch of the
whip.
"I hope they will," replied Miss McCroke; "but don't you think Bates
ought to have seen the freshness taken out of them before we started?"
They were soon tearing along the smooth Roman road at a splendid pace,
"the ponies going like clockwork," as Vixen remarked approvingly; but
poor Miss McCroke thought that any clock which went as fast as those
ponies would be deemed the maddest of timekeepers.
They found Roderick standing at his gates, waiting for them. There was
a glorious fire in the amber and white drawing-room, a dainty tea table
drawn in front of the hearth, the easiest of chairs arranged on each
side of the table, an urn hissing, Rorie's favourite pointer stretched
upon the hearth, everything cosy and homelike. Briarwood was not such a
bad place after all, Vixen thought. She could have contrived to be
happy with Roderick even here; but of course the Abbey House was, in
her mind, a hundred times better, being just the one perfect home in
the world.
They all three sat round the fire, drinking tea, poured out by Vixen,
who played the mistress of the house sweetly. They talked of old times,
sometimes sadly, sometimes sportively, glancing swiftly from one old
memory to another. All Rorie's tiresome ways, all Vixen's mischievous
tricks, were remembered.
"I think I led you a life in those days, didn't I, Rorie?" asked Vixen,
leaving the teatray, and stealing softly behind her lover's chair to
lean over his shoulder caressingly, and pull his thick brown beard.
"There is nothing so delightful as to torment the person one loves best
in the world. Oh, Rorie, I mean to lead you a life by-and-by!"
"Dearest, the life you lead me must needs be sweet, for it will be
spent with you."
After tea they set out upon a round of inspection, and admired the new
morning-room that had been devised for Lady Mabel, in the very latest
style of Dutch Renaissance--walls the colour of muddy water, glorified
ginger-jars, ebonised chairs and tables, and willow-pattern plates all
round the cornice; curtains mud-colour, with a mediaeval design in
dirty yellow, or, in upholsterer's language, "old gold."
"I should like to show you the stables before it is quite dark," said
Rorie presently. "I made a few slight improvements there while the
builders were about."
"You know I have a weakness for stables," answered Vixen. "How many a
lecture I used to get from poor mamma about my unfortunate tastes. But
can there be anything in the world nicer than a good old-fashioned
stable, smelling of clover and newly-cut hay?"
"Stables are very nice indeed, and very useful, in their proper place,"
remarked Miss McCroke sententiously.
"But one ought not to bring the stables into the drawing-room," said
Vixen gravely. "Come, Rorie, let us see your latest improvements in
stable-gear."
They all went out to the stone-paved quadrangle, which was as neatly
kept as a West-End livery-yard. Miss McCroke had an ever-present dread
of the ubiquitous hind-legs of strange horses: but she followed her
charge into the stable, with the same heroic fidelity with which she
would have followed her to the scaffold or the stake.
There were all Rorie's old favourites--Starlight Bess, with her shining
brown coat, and one white stocking; Blue Peter, broad-chested,
well-ribbed, and strong of limb; Pixie, the gray Arab mare, which Lady
Jane used to drive in a park-phaeton--quite an ancient lady; Donald,
the iron-sinewed hunter.
Vixen knew them all, and went up to them and patted their graceful
heads, and made herself at home with them.
"You are all coming to the Abbey House to live, you dear things," she
said delightedly.
There was a loose-box, shut off by a five-foot wainscot partition,
surmounted by a waved iron rail, at one end of the stable, and on
approaching this enclosure Vixen was saluted with sundry grunts and
snorting noises, which seemed curiously familiar.
At the sound of these she stopped short, turning red, and then pale,
and looked intently at Rorie, who was standing close by, smiling at her.
"That is my Bluebeard chamber," he said gaily. "There's something too
awful inside."
"What horse have you got there?" cried Vixen eagerly.
"A horse that I think will carry you nicely, when we hunt together."
"What horse? Have I ever seen him? Do I know him?"
The grunts and snortings were continued with a crescendo movement; an
eager nose was rattling the latch of the door that shut off the
loose-box.
"If you have a good memory for old friends, I think you will know this
one," said Rorie, withdrawing a bolt.
A head pushed open the door, and in another moment Vixen's arms were
round her old favourite's sleek neck, and the velvet nostrils were
sniffing her hair and cheek, in most loving recognition.
"You dear, dear old fellow!" cried Vixen; and then turning to Rorie:
"You told me he was sold at Tattersall's!" she exclaimed.
"So he was, and I bought him."
"Why did you not tell me that?"
"Because you did not ask me."
"I thought you so unkind, so indifferent about him."
"You were unkind when you could think it possible I should let your
favourite horse fall into strange hands. But perhaps you would rather
Lord Mallow had bought him?"
"To think that you should have kept the secret all this time!" said
Vixen.
"You see I am not a woman, and can keep a secret. I wanted to have one
little surprise for you, as a reward when you had been especially good.
"You are good," she said, standing on tiptoe to kiss him. "And though I
have loved you all my life, I don't think I have loved you the least
little bit too much."
EPILOGUE.
Vixen and Rorie were married in the spring, when the forest glades were
yellow with primroses, the mossy banks blue with violets, and the
cuckoo was heard with monotonous iteration from sunrise to sundown.
They were married in the little village church at Beechdale, and Mrs.
Scobel declared that Miss Tempest's wedding was the prettiest that ever
had been solemnised in that small Gothic temple. Never, perhaps, even
at Eastertide, had been seen such a wealth of spring blossoms, the
wildlings of the woods and hills. The Duchess had offered the contents
of her hot-houses, Lady Ellangowan had offered waggon-loads of azaleas
and camellias, but Vixen had refused them all. She would allow no
decorations but the wild flowers which the school-children could
gather. Primroses, violets, bluebells, the firstlings of the fern
tribe, cowslips, and all the tribe of innocent forest blossoms, with
their quaint rustic names, most of them as old as Shakespeare.
It was a very quiet wedding. Vixen would have no one present except the
Scobels, Miss McCroke, her two bridesmaids, and Sir Henry Tolmash, an
old friend of her father, who was to give her away. He was a
white-haired old man, who had given his latter days up to farming, and
had not a thought above turnips and top-dressing; but Violet honoured
him, because he had been her father's oldest friend. For bride-maids
she had Colonel Carteret's daughters, a brace of harmless young ladies,
whose conversation was as stereotyped as a French and English
vocabulary, but who dressed well and looked pretty.
There was no display of wedding gifts, no ceremonious wedding
breakfast. Vixen remembered the wedding feast at her mother's second
marriage, and what a dreary ceremonial it had been.
The bride wore her gray silk travelling-dress, with gray hat and
feather, and she and her husband went straight from the church to the
railway station, on their way to untrodden paths in the Engadine,
whence they were to return at no appointed time.
"We are coming back when we are tired of mountain scenery and of each
other," Violet told Mrs. Scobel in the church porch.
"That will be never!" exclaimed Rorie, looking ineffably happy, but not
very much like a bride-groom, in his comfortable gray suit. "You might
just as well say that we are going to live among the mountains as long
as Rip Van Winkle. No, Mrs. Scobel, we are not going to remain away
from you fifty years. We are coming back in time for the hunting."
Then came kissing and handshaking, a shower of violets and primroses
upon the narrow churchyard path, a hearty huzza from the assembled
village, all clustered about the oaken gate-posts. The envious
carriage-door shut in bride and bride-groom, the coachman touched his
horses, and they were gone up the hill, out of the peaceful valley, to
Lyndhurst and the railway.
"How dreadfully I shall miss them," said Mrs. Scobel, who had spent
much of her leisure with the lovers. "They are both so full of life and
brightness!"
"They are young and happy!" said her husband quietly. "Who would not
miss youth and happiness?"
When the first frosts had seared the beeches to a fiery red, and the
berries were bright on the hawthorns, and the latest bloom of the
heather had faded on hill and plain, and the happy pigs had devoured
all the beech-nuts, Mr. Vawdrey and his wife came back from their
exploration of Alpine snows and peaceful Swiss villages, to the good
old Abbey House. Their six months' honeymoon had been all gladness.
They were the veriest boy and girl husband and wife who had ever
trodden those beaten tracks. They teased each other, and quarrelled,
and made friends again like children, and were altogether happy. And
now they came back to the Forest, bronzed by many a long day's
sunshine, and glowing with health and high spirits. The glass of Time
seemed to be turned backwards at the Abbey House; for all the old
servants came back, and white-haired old Bates ruled in the well-filled
stables, and all things were as in the dead and gone Squire's time.
Among Roderick's wedding gifts was one from Lord Mallow: Bullfinch, the
best horse in that nobleman's stable.
"I know your wife would like you to have her father's favourite
hunter," wrote Lord Mallow. "Tell her that he has never been sick or
sorry since he has been in my stable, and that I have always taken
particular care of him, for her sake."
Among Violet's presents was a diamond bracelet from Lady Mallow,
accompanied by a very cordial letter; and almost the first visit that
the Vawdreys received after they came home was from Lord and Lady
Mallow. The first great dinner to which they were bidden was at
Briarwood, where it seemed a curious thing for Rorie to go as a guest.
Matrimony with the man of her choice had wondrously improved Mabel
Ashbourne. She was less self-sufficient and more conciliating. Her
ambition, hitherto confined to the desire to excel all other women in
her own person, had assumed a less selfish form. She was now only
ambitious for her husband; greedy of parliamentary fame for him; full
of large hopes about the future of Ireland. She looked forward
complacently to the day when she and Lord Mallow would be reigning at
Dublin Castle, and when Hibernian arts and industries would revive and
flourish under her fostering care. Pending that happy state of things
she wore Irish poplin, and Irish lace, Irish stockings, and Irish
linen. She attended Her Majesty's Drawing-room on St. Patrick's Day,
with a sprig of real shamrock--sent her by one of her husband's
tenantry--among the diamonds that sparkled on her bosom. She was more
intensely Irish than the children of the soil; just as converts to
Romanism are ever more severely Roman than those born and nurtured in
the faith.
Her husband was intensely proud of his wife, and of his alliance with
the house of Ashbourne. The Duke, at first inclined to resent the
scandal of an elopement and the slight offered to his favourite, Rorie,
speedily reconciled himself to a marriage which was more materially
advantageous than the cousinly alliance.
"I should like Rorie to have had Ashbourne," he said mournfully. "I
think he would have kept up my breed of Chillingham cattle. Mallow's a
good fellow, but he knows nothing about farming. He'll never spend
enough money on manure to maintain the soil at its present producing
power. The grasp of his mind isn't large enough to allow him to sink
his money in manuring his land. He would be wanting to see an immediate
result."
As time went on the Duke became more and more devoted to his farm. His
Scottish castle delighted him not, nor the grand old place in the
Midlands. Ashbourne, which was the pleasure-dome he had built for
himself, contained all he cared about. Too heavy and too lazy to hunt,
he was able to jog about his farm, and supervise the work that was
going on, to the smallest detail. There was not a foot of drain-pipe or
a bit of thatch renewed on the whole estate, without the Duke having a
finger in the pie. He bred fat oxen and prize cart-horses, and made a
great figure at all the cattle-shows, and was happy. The Duchess, who
had never believed her paragon capable of wrong-doing, had been
infinitely shocked by Lady Mabel's desperate course; but it was not in
her nature to be angry with that idolised daughter. She very soon came
back to her original idea, that whatever Mabel Ashbourne did was right.
And then the marriage was so thoroughly happy; and the world gladly
forgives a scandal that ends so pleasantly.
So Lord and Lady Mallow go their way--honoured, beloved, very active in
good works--and the pleasant valleys around Mallow are dotted with red
brick school-houses, and the old stone hovels are giving place to model
cottages, and native industries receive all possible encouragement from
the owner of the soil; and, afar off, in the coming years, the glories
of Dublin Castle shine like the Pole Star that guides the wanderer on
his way.
In one thing only has Lady Mallow been false to the promise of her
girlhood. She has not achieved success as a poet. The Duchess wonders
vaguely at this, for though she had often found it difficult to keep
awake during the rehearsal of her daughter's verses, she had a fixed
belief in the excellence of those efforts of genius. The secret of Lady
Mallow's silence rests between her husband and herself; and it is just
possible that some too candid avowal of Lord Mallow's may be the reason
of her poetic sterility. It is one thing to call the lady of one's
choice a tenth muse before marriage, and another thing to foster a
self-delusion in one's wife which can hardly fail to become a
discordant element in domestic life. "If your genius had developed, and
you had won popularity as a poet, I should have lost a perfect wife,"
Lord Mallow told Mabel, when he wanted to put things pleasantly.
"Literature has lost a star; but I have gained the noblest and sweetest
companion Providence ever bestowed upon man." Lady Mallow has not
degenerated into feminine humdrum. She assists in the composition of
her husband's political pamphlets, which bristle with lines from
Euripides, and noble thoughts from the German poets. She writes a good
many of his letters, and is altogether his second self.
While the Irishman and his wife pursue their distinguished career,
Rorie and Vixen live the life they love, in the Forest where they were
born, dispensing happiness within a narrow circle, but dearly loved
wheresoever they are known; and the old men and women in the scattered
villages round about the Abbey House rejoice in the good old times that
have come again; just as hearty pleasure-loving England was glad when
the stern rule of the Protector and his crop-headed saints gave place
to the reign of the Merry King.
From afar there comes news of Captain Winstanley, who has married a
Jewish lady at Frankfort, only daughter and heiress of a well-known
money-lender. The bride is reported ugly and illiterate; but there is
no doubt as to her fortune. The Captain has bought a villa at Monaco--a
villa in the midst of orange-groves, the abandoned plaything of an
Austrian princess; and he has hired an apartment in one of the new
avenues, just outside the Arc de Triomphe, where, as his friends
anticipate, he will live in grand style, and receive the pleasantest
people in Paris. He, too, is happy after his kind, and has won the
twenty-thousand-pound prize in the lottery of life; but it is
altogether a different kind of happiness from the simple and unalloyed
delight of Rorie and Vixen, in their home among the beechen woods whose
foliage sheltered them when they were children.
THE END.
PRINTING OFFICE OF THE PUBLISHER.
Transcriber's note: Typographical errors silently corrected:
volume 3 chapter 1: =an instant's delay?= replaced by
=an instant's delay,=
chapter 1: =latest fashion?= replaced by =latest fashion.=
chapter 3: =like the Squires= replaced by =like the Squire's=
epilogue: =young and happy!= replaced by =young and happy!"=
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