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Title: Making the House a Home
Author: Edgar A. Guest
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MAKING THE HOUSE A HOME
By
Edgar A. Guest
1922
_Here's our story, page by page,
Happy youth and middle-age,
Smile and tear-drop, weal and woe
Such as all who live must know--
Here it is all written down,
Not for glory or renown,
But the hope when we are gone
Those who bravely follow on
Meeting care and pain and grief
Will not falter in belief._
Making the House a Home
We have been building a home for the last fifteen years, but it begins
to look now as though it will not be finished for many years to come.
This is not because the contractors are slow, or the materials scarce,
or because we keep changing our minds. Rather it is because it takes
years to build a home, whereas a house can be builded in a few months.
Mother and I started this home-building job on June 28th, 1906. I was
twenty-five years of age; and she--well, it is sufficient for the
purposes of this record to say that she was a few years younger. I was
just closing my career as police reporter for the Detroit "Free Press,"
when we were married. Up to a few months before our wedding, my hours
had been from three o'clock, in the afternoon, until three o'clock in
the morning, every day of the week except Friday. Those are not fit
hours for a married man--especially a young married man. So it was
fortunate for me that my managing editor thought I might have
possibilities as a special writer, and relieved me from night duty.
It was then we began to plan the home we should build. It was to be a
hall of contentment and the abiding place of joy and beauty. And it was
all going to be done on the splendid salary of twenty-eight dollars a
week. That sum doesn't sound like much now, but to us, in January, 1906,
it was independence. The foundation of our first home was something less
than five hundred dollars, out of which was also to come the
extravagance of a two-weeks' honeymoon trip.
Fortunately for all of us, life does not break its sad news in advance.
Dreams are free, and in their flights of fancy young folks may be as
extravagant as they wish. There may be breakers ahead, and trials, days
of discouragement and despair, but life tells us nothing of them to
spoil our dreaming.
We knew the sort of home we wanted, but we were willing to begin
humbly. This was not because we were averse to starting at the top.
Both Mother and I had then, and have now, a fondness for the best things
of life. We should have liked a grand piano, and a self-making ice box,
and a servant, and an automobile right off! But less than five hundred
dollars capital and twenty-eight dollars a week salary do not provide
those things.
What we _could_ have would be a comfortable flat, and some nice
furniture. We'd pay cash for all we could, and buy the remainder of the
necessary things on time. We had found a wonderful, brand-new flat which
we could rent for twenty-five dollars a month. It had hardwood floors,
steam heat, two big bedrooms, a fine living room with a gas grate, a
hot-water heater for the bath, and everything modern and convenient.
To-day the landlord would ask ninety dollars a month for that place and
tell you he was losing money at that.
With the rent paid, we should have eighty-seven dollars a month left to
live on. The grocery bill, at that time, would not run more than twenty
dollars a month; telephone, gas, and electric light would not exceed ten
dollars a month; the milkman and the paper boy would take but little,
and in winter time a ton of coal per month would be sufficient. Oh, we
should have plenty of money, and could easily afford to pledge twenty
dollars a month to pay for necessary furniture.
It will be noticed that into our dreaming came no physician, no
dentist, no expenses bobbing up from unexpected sources. Not a single
bill collector called at the front door of our dream castle to ask for
money which we did not have.
If older and wiser heads suggested the possibility of danger, we
produced our plans on paper, and asked them from whence could trouble
come? To-day we understand the depth of the kindly smile which our
protests always evoked. They were letting the dreamers dream.
At last the furniture was bought on the installment plan and the new
flat was being put in order. It called for a few more pieces of
furniture than we had figured on, and the debt, in consequence, was
greater; but that meant merely a few months more to make payments.
It was fine furniture, too! Of course it has long since ceased to serve
us; but never in this world shall that dining set be duplicated! For
perfection of finish and loveliness of design, that first oak dining
table will linger in our memories for life. The one we now have cost
more than all the money we spent for all the furniture with which we
began housekeeping; and yet, figuring according to the joy it has
brought to us, it is poor in comparison.
And so it was, too, with the mahogany settee, upholstered in green
plush, and the beveled glass dresser, and the living-room chairs. We
used to make evening trips over to that flat merely for the joy of
admiring these things--our things; the first we had ever possessed.
Then came the night of June 27th. We had both looked forward to that
wonderful honeymoon trip up the lakes to Mackinac Island, and tomorrow
we were to start. But right then I am sure that both Mother and I wished
we might call it off. It seemed so foolish to go away from such a
beautiful flat and such lovely furniture.
The honeymoon trip lasted two weeks; and one day, at Mackinac Island, I
found Mother in tears.
"What the matter?" I asked.
"I want to go home!" she said. "I know I am silly and foolish, but I
want to get back to our own house and our own furniture, and arrange
our wedding presents, and hang the curtains, and put that set of
Haviland china in the cabinet!"
So back we came to begin our home-building in earnest.
The rent and the furniture installments came due regularly, just as we
had expected. So did the gas and electric light and telephone bills.
But, somehow or other, our dream figures and the actual realities did
not balance. There never was a month when there was as much left of our
eighty-seven dollars as we had figured there should have been.
For one thing, I was taken ill. That brought the doctor into the house;
and since then we have always had him to reckon with and to settle
with. Then there was an insurance policy to keep up. In our dream days,
the possibility of my dying sometime had never entered our heads; but
now it was an awful reality. And that quarterly premium developed a
distressing habit of falling due at the most inopportune times. Just
when we thought we should have at least twenty dollars for ourselves, in
would come the little yellow slip informing us that the thirty days'
grace expired on the fifth.
But the home-of-our-own was still in our dreams. We were happy, but we
were going to be still happier. If ever we could get rid of those
furniture installments we could start saving for the kind of home we
wanted.
Then, one evening, Mother whispered the happiest message a wife ever
tells a husband. We were no longer to live merely for ourselves; there
was to be another soon, who should bind us closer together and fill our
lives with gladness.
But--and many a night we sat for hours and planned and talked and
wondered--_how_ were we to meet the expense? There was nothing in the
savings bank, and much was needed there. Mother had cherished for years
her ideas for her baby's outfit. They would cost money; and I would be
no miserly father, either! My child should have the best of everything,
somehow. It was up to me to get it, somehow, to.... If only that
furniture were paid for!
Then a curious event occurred. I owed little bills amounting to about
twenty-one dollars. This sum included the gas, electric light, and
telephone bills, on which an added sum was charged if unpaid before the
tenth of the month. I had no money to meet them. I was worried and
discouraged. To borrow that sum would have been easy, but to pay it back
would have been difficult.
That very morning, into the office came the press agent of a local
theatre, accompanied by Mr. Henry Dixey, the well-known actor. Mr. Dixey
wanted two lyrics for songs. He had the ideas which he wished expressed
in rhyme, and wondered whether or not I would attempt them. I promised
him that I would, and on the spot he handed me twenty-five dollars in
cash to bind the bargain. If those songs proved successful I should have
more.
The way out had been provided! From Mr. Dixey's point of view, those
songs were not a success; but from mine they were, for they bridged me
over a chasm I had thought I could not leap. I never heard from that
pair of songs afterward; but neither Mother nor I will ever forget the
day they were written.
It meant more than the mere paying of bills, too. It taught us to have
faith--faith in ourselves and faith in the future. There is always a way
out of the difficulties. Even though we cannot see or guess what that
way is to be, it will be provided. Since then we have gone together
through many dark days and cruel hurts and bitter disappointments, but
always to come out stronger for the test.
The next few months were devoted to preparations for the baby, and our
financial reckonings had to be readjusted. I had to find ways of making
a little more money. I was not after much money, but I must have more.
All I had to sell was what I could write. Where was a quick market for a
poor newspaper man's wares?
My experience with Mr. Dixey turned me to the vaudeville stage. I could
write playlets, I thought. So while Mother was busy sewing at nights I
devoted myself to writing. And at last the first sketch was finished. At
the Temple Theatre that week was the popular character actor, William H.
Thompson. To him I showed the manuscript of the sketch, which was called
"The Matchmaker." Mr. Thompson took it on Tuesday; and on Friday he sent
word that he wished to see me. Into his dressing-room I went, almost
afraid to face him.
"It's a bully little sketch," said he, as I sat on his trunk, "and I'd
like to buy it from you. I can't pay as much as I should like; but if
you care to let me have it I'll give you two hundred and fifty
dollars--one hundred and fifty dollars now, and the remaining hundred
next week."
I tried to appear indifferent, but the heart of me was almost bursting
with excitement. It meant that the furniture bill was as good as paid!
And there would be money in the bank for the first time since we were
married! The deal was made, and I left the theatre with the largest sum
of money I had ever made all at once. Later someone said to me that I
was foolish to sell that sketch outright for so little money.
"Foolish!" said I. "That two hundred and fifty dollars looked bigger to
me than the promise of a thousand some day in the future!"
Once more the way out had been provided.
And then came the baby--a glorious little girl--and the home had begun
to be worth-while. There was a new charm to the walls and halls. The oak
table and the green plush settee took on a new glory.
I was the usual proud father, with added variations of my own. One of my
pet illusions was that none, save Mother and me, was to be trusted to
hold our little one. When others _would_ take her, I stood guard to
catch her if in some careless moment they should let her fall.
As she grew older, my collars became finger-marked where her little
hands had touched them. We had pictures on our walls, of course, and
trinkets on the mantelpiece, and a large glass mirror which had been one
of our wedding gifts. These things had become commonplace to us--until
the baby began to notice them! Night after night, I would take her in my
arms and show her the sheep in one of the pictures, and talk to her
about them, and she would coo delightedly. The trinkets on the
mantelpiece became dearer to us because she loved to handle them. The
home was being sanctified by her presence. We had come into a new realm
of happiness.
But a home cannot be builded always on happiness. We were to learn that
through bitter experience. We had seen white crepe on other doors,
without ever thinking that some day it might flutter on our own. We had
witnessed sorrow, but had never suffered it. Our home had welcomed many
a gay and smiling visitor; but there was a grim and sinister one to
come, against whom no door can be barred.
After thirteen months of perfect happiness, its planning and dreaming,
the baby was taken from us.
The blow fell without warning. I left home that morning, with Mother and
the baby waving their usual farewells to me from the window. Early that
afternoon, contrary to my usual custom, I decided to go home in advance
of my regular time. I had no reason for doing this, aside from a strange
unwillingness to continue at work. I recalled later that I cleaned up my
desk and put away a number of things, as though I were going away for
some time. I never before had done that, and nothing had occurred which
might make me think I should not be back at my desk as usual.
When I reached home the baby was suffering from a slight fever, and
Mother already had called the doctor in. He diagnosed it as only a
slight disturbance. During dinner, I thought baby's breathing was not as
regular as it should be, and I summoned the doctor immediately. Her
condition grew rapidly worse, and a second physician was called; but it
was not in human skill to save her. At eleven o'clock that night she was
taken from us.
It is needless to dwell here upon the agony of that first dark time
through which we passed. That such a blow could leave loveliness in its
path, and add a touch of beauty to our dwelling place, seemed
unbelievable at the time. Yet to-day our first baby still lives with us,
as wonderful as she was in those glad thirteen months. She has not grown
older, as have we, but smiles that same sweet baby smile of hers upon us
as of old. We can talk of her now bravely and proudly; and we have come
to understand that it was a privilege to have had her, even for those
brief thirteen months.
To have joys in common is the dream of man and wife. We had supposed
that love was based on mutual _happiness_. And Mother and I had been
happy together; we had been walking arm in arm under blue skies, and we
knew how much we meant to each other. But just how much we _needed_ each
other neither of us really knew--until we had to share a common sorrow.
To be partners in a sacred memory is a divine bond. To be partners in a
little mound, in one of God's silent gardens, is the closest
relationship which man and woman can know on this earth. Our lives had
been happy before; now they had been made beautiful.
So it was with the home. It began to mean more to us, as we began each
to mean more to the other. The bedroom in which our baby fell asleep
seemed glorified. Of course there were the lonely days and weeks and
months when everything we touched or saw brought back the memory of her.
I came home many an evening to find on Mother's face the mark of tears;
and I knew she had been living over by herself the sorrow of it all.
I learned how much braver the woman has to be than the man. I could go
into town, where there was the contagion of good cheer; and where my
work absorbed my thoughts and helped to shut out grief. But not so with
Mother! She must live day by day and hour by hour amid the scenes of her
anguish. No matter where she turned, something reminded her of the joy
we had known and lost. Even the striking clock called back to her mind
the hour when something should have been done for the baby.
"I _must_ have another little girl," she sobbed night after night. "I
_must_ have another little girl!"
And once more the way out was provided. We heard of a little girl who
was to be put out for adoption; she was of good but unfortunate parents.
We proposed to adopt her.
I have heard many arguments against adopting children, but I have never
heard a good one. Even the infant doomed to die could enrich, if only
for a few weeks, the lives of a childless couple, and they would be
happier for the rest of their days in the knowledge that they had tried
to do something worthy in this world and had made comfortable the brief
life of a little one.
"What if the child should turn out wrong?" I hear often from the lips of
men and women.
"What of that?" I reply. "You can at least be happy in the thought that
you have tried to do something for another."
To childless couples everywhere I would say with all the force I can
employ, _adopt a baby_! If you would make glorious the home you are
building; if you would fill its rooms with laughter and contentment; if
you would make your house more than a place in which to eat and sleep;
if you would fill it with happy memories and come yourselves into a
closer and more perfect union, adopt a baby! Then, in a year or two,
adopt another. He who spends money on a little child is investing it to
real purpose; and the dividends it pays in pride and happiness and
contentment are beyond computation.
Marjorie came to us when she was three years old. She bubbled over with
mirth and laughter and soothed the ache in our hearts. She filled the
little niches and comers of our lives with her sweetness, and became not
only ours in name, but ours also in love and its actualities.
There were those who suggested that we were too young to adopt a child.
They told us that the other children would undoubtedly be sent to us as
time went on. I have neither the space here nor the inclination to list
the imaginary difficulties outlined to us as the possibilities of
adoption.
But Mother and I talked it all over one evening. And we decided that we
needed Marjorie, and Marjorie needed us. As to the financial side of the
question, I smiled.
"I never heard of anyone going to the poorhouse, or into bankruptcy," I
said, "because of the money spent on a child. I fancy I can pay the
bills."
That settled it. The next evening when I came home, down the stairway
leading to our flat came the cry, "Hello, Daddy!" from one of the
sweetest little faces I have ever seen. And from that day, until God
needed her more and called her home, that "Hello, Daddy" greeted me and
made every care worth while.
The little home had begun to grow in beauty once more. That first
shopping tour for Marjorie stands out as an epoch in our lives. I am not
of the right sex to describe it. Marjorie came to us with only such
clothing as a poor mother could provide. She must be outfitted anew from
head to toe, and she was. The next evening, when she greeted me, she was
the proud possessor of more lovely things than she had ever known
before. But, beautiful as the little face appeared to me then, more
beautiful was the look in Mother's face. There had come into her eyes a
look of happiness which had been absent for many months. I learned then,
and I state it now as a positive fact, that a woman's greatest
happiness comes from dressing a little girl. Mothers may like pretty
clothes for themselves; but to put pretty things on a little girl is an
infinitely greater pleasure. More than once Mother went down-town for
something for herself--only to return without it, but with something for
Marjorie!
We pledged to ourselves at the very beginning that we would make
Marjorie ours; not only to ourselves but to others. Our friends were
asked never to refer in her presence to the fact that she was adopted.
As far as we were concerned it was dismissed from our minds. She was
three years old when she was born to us, and from then on we were her
father and her mother. To many who knew her and loved her, this article
will be the first intimation they ever have received that Marjorie was
not our own flesh and blood. It was her pride and boast that she was
like her mother, but had her father's eyes. Both her mother and I have
smiled hundreds of times, as people meeting her for the first time would
say, "Anyone would know she belonged to you. She looks exactly like
you!"
Marjorie made a difference in our way of living. A second-story flat,
comfortable though it was, was not a good place to bring up a little
girl. More than ever, we needed a home of our own. But to need and to
provide are two different propositions. We needed a back yard; but back
yards are expensive; and though newspapermen may make good husbands they
seldom make "good money."
One evening Mother announced to me that she had seen the house we ought
to have. It had just been completed, had everything in it her heart had
wished for, and could be bought for forty-two hundred dollars. The price
was just forty-two hundred dollars more than I had!
All I did have was the wish to own a home of my own. But four years of
our married life had gone, and I was no nearer the first payment on a
house than when we began as man and wife. However, I investigated and
found that I could get this particular house by paying five hundred
dollars down and agreeing to pay thirty-five a month on the balance. I
could swing thirty-five a month, but the five hundred was a high
barrier.
Then I made my first wise business move. I went to Julius Haass,
president of the Wayne County and Home Savings Bank, who always had been
my friend, and explained to him my difficulties. He loaned me that five
hundred dollars for the first payment--I to pay it back twenty-five
dollars monthly--and the house was ours.
We had become land owners overnight. My income had increased, of course;
but so had my liabilities. The first few years of that new house taxed
our ingenuity more than once. We spent now and then, not money which we
had, but money which we were _going to get_; but it was buying
happiness. If ever a couple have found real happiness in this world we
found it under the roof of that Leicester Court home.
There nearly all that has brought joy and peace and contentment into our
lives was born to us. It was from there I began to progress; it was
there my publishers found me; and it was there little Bud was born to
us. We are out of it now. We left it for a big reason; but we drive by
it often just to see it; for it is still ours in the precious memory of
the years we spent within its walls.
Still, in the beginning, it was just a house! It had no associations and
no history. It had been built to sell. The people who paid for its
construction saw in its growing walls and rooftree only the few hundred
dollars they hoped to gain. It was left to us to change that _house_
into a _home. It sounds preachy, I know, to say that all buildings
depend for their real beauty upon the spirit of the people who inhabit
them. But it is true.
As the weeks and months slipped by, the new house began to soften and
mellow under Mother's gentle touches. The living-room assumed an air of
comfort; my books now had a real corner of their own; the
guest-chamber--or, rather, the little spare-room--already had
entertained its transient tenants; and as our friends came and went the
walls caught something from them all, to remind us of their presence.
I took to gardening. The grounds were small, but they were large enough
to teach me the joy of an intimate friendship with growing things.
To-day, in my somewhat larger garden, I have more than one hundred and
fifty rosebushes, and twenty or thirty peony clumps, and I know their
names and their habits. The garden has become a part of the home. It is
not yet the garden I dream of, nor even the garden which I think it will
be next year; but it is the place where play divides the ground with
beauty. What Bud doesn't require for a baseball diamond the roses
possess.
Early one morning in July, Bud came to us. Immediately, the character
of that front bedroom was changed. It was no longer just "our bedroom;"
it was "the room where Bud was born." Of all the rooms in all the houses
of all the world, there is none so gloriously treasured in the memories
of man and woman as those wherein their children have come to birth.
I have had many fine things happen to me: Friends have borne me high on
kindly shoulders; out of the depths of their generous hearts they have
given me honors which I have not deserved; I have more than once come
home proud in the possession of some new joy, or of some task
accomplished; but I have never known, and never shall know, a thrill of
happiness to equal that which followed good old Doctor Gordon's brief
announcement: "It's a Boy!"
"It's a Boy!" All that day and the next I fairly shouted it to friends
and strangers. To Marjorie's sweetness, and to the radiant loveliness of
the little baby which was ours for so brief a time, had been added the
strength and roguishness of a boy.
The next five years saw the walls of our home change in character.
Finger marks and hammer marks began to appear. When Bud had reached the
stage where he could walk, calamity began to follow in his trail. Once
he tugged at a table cover and the open bottle of ink fell upon the rug.
There was a great splotch of ink forever to be visible to all who
entered that living-room! Yet even that black stain became in time a
part of us. We grew even to boast of it. We pointed it out to new
acquaintances as the place where Bud spilled the ink. It was an evidence
of his health and his natural tendencies. It proved to all the world
that in Bud we had a real boy; an honest-to-goodness boy who could spill
ink--and _would_, if you didn't keep a close watch on him.
Then came the toy period of our development. The once tidy house became
a place where angels would have feared to tread in the dark. Building
blocks and trains of cars and fire engines and a rocking horse were
everywhere, to trip the feet of the unwary. Mother scolded about it, at
times; and I fear I myself have muttered harsh things when, late at
night, I have entered the house only to stumble against the tin sides of
an express wagon.
But I have come to see that toys in a house are its real adornments.
There is no pleasanter sight within the front door of any man's castle
than the strewn and disordered evidences that children there abide. The
house seems unfurnished without them.
This chaos still exists in our house to-day. Mother says I encourage it.
Perhaps I do. I know that I dread the coming day when the home shall
become neat and orderly and silent and precise. What is more, I live in
horror of the day when I shall have to sit down to a meal and not send a
certain little fellow away from the table to wash his hands. That has
become a part of the ceremonial of my life. When the evening comes that
he will appear for dinner, clean and immaculate, his shirt buttoned
properly and his hair nicely brushed, perhaps Mother will be proud of
him; but as for me, there will be a lump in my throat--for I shall know
that he has grown up.
Financially, we were progressing. We had a little more "to do with," as
Mother expressed it; but sorrow and grief and anxiety were not through
with us.
We were not to be one hundred per cent happy. No one ever is. Marjorie
was stricken with typhoid fever, and for fourteen weeks we fought that
battle; saw her sink almost into the very arms of death; and watched her
pale and wasted body day by day, until at last the fever broke and she
was spared to us.
Another bedroom assumed a new meaning to us both. We knew it as it was
in the dark hours of night; we saw the morning sun break through its
windows. It was the first room I visited in the morning and the last I
went to every night. Coming home, I never stopped in hall or
living-room, but hurried straight to her. All there was in that home
then was Marjorie's room! We lived our lives within it. And gradually,
her strength returned and we were happy again.
But only for a brief time.... Early the following summer I was called
home by Doctor Johnson. When I reached there, he met me at the front
door, smiling as though to reassure me.
"You and Bud are going to get out," said he. "Marjorie has scarlet
fever."
Bud had already been sent to his aunt Florence's. I was to gather what
clothing I should need for six weeks, and depart.
If I had been fond of that home before, I grew fonder of it as the days
went by. I think I never knew how much I valued it until I was shut out
from it. I could see Mother and Marjorie through the window, but I was
not to enter. And I grew hungry for a sight of the walls with their
finger marks, and of the ink spot on the rug. We had been six years in
the building of that home. Somehow, a part of us had been woven into
every nook and corner of it.
But Marjorie was not thriving. Her cheeks were pale and slightly
flushed. The removal of tonsils didn't help. Followed a visit to my
dentist. Perhaps a tooth was spreading poison through her system. He
looked at her, and after a few minutes took me alone into his private
office.
"I'm sorry, Eddie," he said. "I am afraid it isn't teeth. You have a
long, hard fight to make--if it is what I think it is."
Tuberculosis had entered our home. It had come by way of typhoid and
scarlet fevers. The specialist confirmed Doctor Oakman's suspicions, and
our battle began. The little home could serve us no longer. It was not
the place for such a fight for life as we were to make. Marjorie must
have a wide-open sleeping porch; and the house lacked that, nor could
one be built upon it.
And so we found our present home. It was for sale at a price I thought
then I should never be able to pay. We could have it by making a down
payment of seventy-five hundred dollars, the balance to be covered by a
mortgage. But I neither had that much, nor owned securities for even a
small fraction of it.
But I did have a friend: a rich, but generous friend! I told him what I
wanted; and he seemed more grieved at my burden than concerned with my
request. He talked only of Marjorie and her chances; he put his arm
about my shoulders, and I knew he was with me.
"What do you need?" he asked.
"Seventy-five hundred dollars in cash."
He smiled.
"Have a lawyer examine the abstract to the property, and if it is all
right come back to me."
In two days I was back. The title to the house was clear. He smiled
again, and handed me his check for the amount, with not a scratch of
the paper between us.
I suggested something of that sort to him.
"The important thing is to get the house," he said. "When that is done
and you have the deed to it and the papers all fixed up, you come back
and we'll fix up our little matter." And that is how it was done.
So into our present home we moved. We had a bigger and a better and a
costlier dwelling place. We were climbing upward. But we were also
beginning once more with just a house. Just a house--but founded on a
mighty purpose! It was to become home to us, even more dearly loved than
the one we were leaving.
For four years it has grown in our affections. Hope has been ours. We
have lived and laughed and sung and progressed.... But we have also wept
and grieved.
Twice the doctor had said we were to conquer. Then came last spring and
the end of hope. Week after week, Marjorie saw the sunbeams filter
through the windows of her open porch; near by, a pair of robins built
their nest; she watched them and knew them and named them. We planned
great things together and great journeys we should make. That they were
not to be she never knew.... And then she fell asleep....
Her little life had fulfilled its mission. She had brought joy and
beauty and faith into our hearts; she had comforted us in our hours of
loneliness and despair; she had been the little cheerful builder of our
home--and perhaps God needed her.
She continued to sleep for three days, only for those three days her sun
porch was a bower of roses. On Memorial Day, Mother and I stood once
more together beside a little mound where God had led us. Late that
afternoon we returned to the home to which Marjorie had taken us. It had
grown more lovely with the beauty which has been ours, because of her.
* * * * *
The home is not yet completed. We still cherish our dreams of what it is
to be. We would change this and that. But, after all, what the home is
to be is not within our power to say. We hope to go forward together,
building and changing and improving it. To-morrow shall see something
that was not there yesterday. But through sun and shade, through trial
and through days of ease and of peace, it is our hope that something of
our best shall still remain. Whatever happens, it is our hope that what
may be "just a house" to many shall be to us the home we have been
building for the last fifteen years.
HOME
By Edgar A. Guest
It takes a heap o' livin' in a house t' make it home,
A heap o' sun an' shadder, an' ye sometimes have t' roam
Afore ye really 'preciate the things ye lef' behind,
An' hunger fer 'em somehow, with 'em allus on yer mind.
It don't make any differunce how rich ye get t' be,
How much yer chairs an' tables cost, how great yer luxury;
It ain't home t' ye, though it be the palace of a king,
Until somehow yer soul is sort o' wrapped round everything.
Home ain't a place that gold can buy or get up in a minute;
Afore it's home there's got t' be a heap o' livin' in it;
Within the walls there's got t' be some babies born, and then
Right there ye've got t' bring 'em up t' women good, an' men;
And gradjerly, as time goes on, ye find ye wouldn't part
With anything they ever used--they've grown into yer heart:
The old high chairs, the playthings, too, the little shoes they wore
Ye hoard; an' if ye could ye'd keep the thumbmarks on the door.
Ye've got t' weep t' make it home, ye've got t' sit an' sigh
An' watch beside a loved one's bed, an' know that Death is nigh;
An' in the stillness o' the night t' see Death's angel come,
An' close the eyes o' her that smiled, an' leave her sweet voice dumb.
Fer these are scenes that grip the heart, an' when yer tears are dried,
Ye find the home is dearer than it was, an' sanctified;
An' tuggin' at ye always are the pleasant memories
O' her that was an' is no more--ye can't escape from these.
Ye've got t' sing an' dance fer years, ye've got t' romp an' play,
An' learn t' love the things ye have by usin' 'em each day;
Even the roses 'round the porch must blossom year by year
Afore they 'come a part o' ye, suggestin' someone dear
Who used t' love 'em long ago, an' trained 'em jes' t' run
The way they do, so's they would get the early mornin' sun;
Ye've got t' love each brick an' stone from cellar up t' dome:
It takes a heap o' livin' in a house t' make it home.
[_From "A Heap o' Livin'"_]
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